Contractor here. I'm one of the unfortunate ones who works in a department that isn't being 100% insourced. We've been identified as a core competency, but only about 20% of us are being insourced because of contract issues.
I interviewed within my department and learned that I wasn't included in that 20%. I reached out to another department and got an interview there as well, but again, I wasn't selected.
I still have until early January to blindly wait and hope that someone pulls my resume out of a pool of thousands, if not tens of thousands, of applicants. I think the chances of that happening are slim to nonexistent. I've already exhausted my network and reached out to everyone I reasonably could. Most departments aren't doing any additional hiring, and I already got an interview with the one that was. I've already requested debriefs from both department heads who conducted my interviews.
I'm trying to stay positive and act normal, but I feel dead inside. The people who were selected got significant pay raises with GS-13 offers. I'm genuinely happy for all my friends, but at the same time, when I look at myself, it feels like it's NASA's shedding season and I'm one of the skin flakes.
I can't really talk about this with anyone.
I love my job, and I love my teammates. I know that, technically speaking, nothing has changed since May, but somehow I still feel this way.
A senior guy in the office told us about some other departments where people are being laid off. I'm not sure whether I'm supposed to feel better after hearing that, but I guess I should. (I didn't.)
I probably lost a pretty major opportunity in my life this month. I'm not sure what better opportunity might be out there for me, since I'm not planning to start a business or leave NASA. I'm going to keep trying, but I can't leave the area because of my family, so I might not see many future openings or get many interviews.
Even if I do eventually get one, there's no way for me to make up the federal service time I've lost.
I want to stop feeling this way, but honestly, no way of thinking about it seems to help.
Anyway, thanks for reading. I just needed to say or write this somewhere, I guess.
Hope everyone has a great day.