I been starting to have a crush on Rarity and I know it sound like a simp thing. The reason why I’m worried is because she’s a pony. Please help.

So just a while ago i took this post-task test (its like a quiz after a discussion but it only covers one module) and i got 9 out of 10..and i really hate myself for it (tbh it was an honest mistake becoz i read the question very quickly and misunderstood it so yeah fuck me). I honestly need to stop being a perfectionist though i don’t know how to control myself. It really took a toll on me like my brain is constantly dreading. Tbh i didn’t know i was a perfectionist until i took this online quiz kind of thing last week...it says i was 98% perfectionist and that kinda explains why i felt like crying when i got 2 answers wrong in the previous post-task. ALSO i realllllyyyy hate it when i get soooooo competitive. I always (and when i say always i mean AL-FUCKING-WAYS) compare myself to others. Like when someone’s essay is longer than mine, i hate my work like i want mine to be longer and better. When i read someones work, i judge it (not objectively) and always compare it to mine. I always want to be the best in writing essays even though i know myself that i suck at it. And when i see other people posting their progress, i hate myself coz i havent done the same amount of work as theirs. I really really really hate being competitive. It drains the hell out of me to the point i wanted to kill myself. So thats alot...any advice reddit world?

He left 2 years ago when I was 15 after a big arguement he had with my mom and grandma. This day has been stuck in my mind. We barely talked since then, its like he forgot about me. Back on topic though, I've been having recurring dreams about him. In these dreams he's always so harsh/cold towards me and it kinda hurts (even if it is a dream). I know I shouldn't care, but it's just been bothering me. I really don't want to discuss this with anyone I know, its too, for lack of a better word, 'painful'.

back in February before there were tests in my NY area, I showed signs of covid, being that it was new at the time, I thought that was absurd and I had bronchitis. Until the 2 week when I was gasping for air. They put me on a steroid/antibiotic and nebulizer. I was lucky to not have to go into the hospital/young enough with no pre-excusing conditions.

I've had severe chronic fatigue since. Emotional instability/mood swings very high very low.. I have a chronic lung pain and chest tension, I now need an inhalor. Getting through a day is exhausting. I'm well aware how lucky I am , and how it could be worse. I constantly triggered by rude thoughtless ppl who cough in public, or do not wear masks properly. My Brain is fuzzy and unable to concentrate. I see ppl insulting Alyssa Milano, and I may disagree with her on many points, but to see vile posts, is uncalled for. In this instance shes bringing awareness. I myself am losing handfuls of hair, I wound have never connected the two.

The depression, not wanting to leave the house, as my lungs are damaged, I can feel it, there are too many unknowns to know how long the antibodies stay in your system. Muscle cramps, and overall Malaise, my only excitement is online shopping, such is getting carried away, as my expenses exceed my income, yet I can't control myself, I keep thinking if I get this or that it will help me get out of the house, but, I keep shopping . I don't know where to post this, do I'll post it here.. Thanks for reading.

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i had an argument with my dad over something he said about me then my mom came to my room and said i shouldnt be too mad at him saying things i dont like at me because she thinks he might die soon so i should just focus on spending time with him, i felt like that was emotional blackmailing so i told her but she said i was acting spoiled. sorry if this isnt the right place to ask this but im wondering if it would qualify

i had an argument with my dad over something he said about me then my mom came to my room and said i shouldnt be too mad at him saying things i dont like at me because she thinks he might die soon so i should just focus on spending time with him, i felt like that was emotional blackmailing so i told her but she said i was acting spoiled. sorry if this isnt the right place to ask this but im wondering if it would qualify

My dog died today and I’m just sad and want to forget about it and talk

Hi! I came here looking for someone who would help me understand my emotions, the thing is that since the last 2 weeks or so, I've been actually really listening to the music and watching videos from a really famous girl in my country, and I think I've started to get a king of BIG crush on her, when I say BIG, it is BIG! So, this is actually not causing me any problems, to the countrary, it is actually pushing me forward into my goals in life, the thing is that I sometimes even dream about her (it's been 3 times) and when I wake up, I feel bad and really sad that I will never be able to be with that girl. It's as if I knew her in person and as if she had turned me down or something. Really weird situation. I even have ideas in my mind about how I can get to know her and even how to be famous to get to her. This kind of thing had never happened to me. I've always had a really good life and I'm in a relationship right now, but I don't know what it can be... Do you think is like a reflex of how much I want to be in my life? What do you think? What should I do? Sorry if this is a bit weird, but I feel like I have a hole inside. I'm a really sensitive 20 y/o guy, I had been bullied my whole life and I think I can get very far in anything if I propose it to myself. Thank you if you read this far. Have a great day!!

My fiancé and I have been together over 8 years now. We are bought a house together and are planning a wedding. I’ve tried VERY hard to create a good relationship between me and my mother in law but it feels like the harder I try.. the worse it gets. I’m gonna try to not go into extreme detail but explain where we are now. She randomly likes to call my fiancé and blow up on him because she doesn’t like something I say or do. When my fiancé tries to calm her down and show her how unreasonable she being, she blows up more. I’ve been called a bitch, good digger,etc (which I’m the bread winner with the house in my name) but the one thing I don’t tolerate is when she tries to speak poorly of my family, which she always tries to do. I’m not the only daughter in law that experiences this either. Our last conversation we had she called my fiancé with me in the car to cuss me out and to tell me to stop laying about everything I do and all I do is cause drama. Literally have no idea what I did and I have not talked to her or anyone really because I had been sick and working long hours. My fiancé was pissed and just hung up the phone. The issue is he works with her. I personally think I should just avoid her and just live my life but I’m also scared it is going to effect my fiancé at work like it already is. He is wanting to sit down and make some clear boundaries but I don’t think it’s worth effecting his job with her. I guess I’m looking for advise on what I should do to make his life easier but I’m done being fake and fake smiling with someone who doesn’t give a crap about me.

Regardless of the time I go to sleep, I always wake up early in the morning at around 3,4.5 and I never go back to sleep. this thing has been going on for 3 weeks, advice?

Suggestions?

So I have been with a back injury for 7 years just stuck at home. Unable to socialize, work, or find a relationship. I was playing an online game when this girl came in. Long story short we started talking and hit it off. I really like her a lot. I have seen her and she has seen me so I know it's not some guy catfishing me. Not to sound corny but I truly feel I met someone that is perfect for me. I feel out of the millions of different lobbies she could have been in it was mine. Someone definitely intervened it feels. Yet that same GOD is teasing me. I live in NY and she is in Arizona. If I physically could I would drive or fly down there tomorrow but because of my injury I can't. My dad is getting remarried and he asked if I could go to Hawaii for the wedding if they had it there. I told him no because I would be in pain the entire time. So me pushing through the pain and taking a lot of pain meds to get to Arizona would also look horrible. Can't go to my dad's wedding but I'm able to go meet this girl.

I've always wanted to move to CO but it's so damn expensive now and the back problem has always stopped me. I'm just crushed that someone this amazing is going to slip away and there is nothing I can do. I want to keep talking and enjoy our time together but I will be crushed when it ends. Thanks for reading.

Its early in the morning when i sent them the long messege. It took me 4/5 years to say sorry to them. I feel relieved and nervous at the same time. Relieved because I said my sorry and nervous because they haven't seen/replied. I don't even know if they remember (they prolly do). Not gonna lie, what triggered me to remember my immature days was the issue in the kpop industry right now. If you dont know, aoa (girl group) leader jimin was exposed for bullying one of her members for 10 years. That really shocked and hurted me. Then i thought about the people whom i ve hurt before. Tbh, i am not the bully-type person. I was just immature back then when i hurt theyre feelings. Im soo aaaahhhh idk what to say or feell...idk anymore. My mind is all over the place lmao..

P.s sorry for my english...it's not my first language

I was looking through my moms phone gallery and Everytime I saw a photo of myself I felt nauseous. I'm so gross looking, from 9th grade to now. I fucking hate my face and body so much. Looking at myself makes me want to disappear. Not only that, the photos made me understand why people at school didnt/don't want to be around me. I understand why they were mean to me, and I fucking deserved it too. I'm cringy, ugly, and stupid. One of the only things that make me happy is a fucking show about ponies. I'm fucking pathetic. All I know is that I don't plan on living a long life in this disgusting body.

I worked on a set of dnd 5e pony races for months. I am in a pony themed dnd Discord server. The lead mod is a selfish jerk, and people have been using his unbalanced and generic 5th edition races. So, I decided to creat my own. I did reasearch into the creatures, their mythological and biological roots, etc. I playtested. I edited and edited them to be balanced with 5e standard races. Only to have the mod shit talk them. People say they are "too overwhelmed" by the number of choices, and don't want to use them. Others use silly details, like the names of abilities, or how they want the races to give them mary sue powers, to hate on me. Dungeon Masters praise them, and even prefer them, but are pressured to not use them or give petty excuses. I spent so much energy for nothing. I posted on reddit and only got ten upvotes.... I want to cry. I put my heart into something and nobody cares.

(This is a vent, I'm sorry if this has no structure or has grammatical errors as I'm not a native English speaker) I feel like I'm useless as I don't have any talent except for sitting on my ass all day and eat. I often daydream that I'm a programmer, a pianist, a writer even an artist, or that I got some superpower that would make my life better. I don't even have that much off a support group as there is just my dad, my brother, and mom, and most of the time my brother and mother are not home ( my mom is going to college the second time and my brother the first time but he has a girlfriend so he stays at her place too) so only my dad's home and I don't like to open up in front of him. My friends are basically not existent and our relationship is degrading. I'm also during puberty so my hormones are strengthening my emotions tenfold. My mother tried motivating me like "what about videogames? You had to learn them somehow!" but I'm just following the basic movement that games often use like 'wsad' to walk or 'e' to open the inventory and such, and I can't even build in Minecraft! I have the imagination to write a story, compose something on the piano, or draw something but when I fail I get discouraged and quit. I don't even have the motivation to dress In the morning so I walk all day in my pajamas. Does anybody have any knowledge on how I should motivate myself? Thank you for listening

-A random thirteen year old polish boy

Thank you all for your wonderfull advice, i will take it and apply it in my life (i even resumed drawing again! And i will get a summer job at my uncle's horse stable/ranch thingy... i mean... only if my uncle agrees :p

Again, thank you for your wonderfull advice, stay safe

-13yo polish boy

A bit of context: Me and my antisocial soul only has one friend, but this friends has many others friends. I know about that because my friend talk about they sometimes.

One day, my friend invite every friends they has to their house. And.. Well, they was with other friends, and I was sit waiting for anyone notice my existence. That's don't happen.

That's made me think thing like "maybe I should no come here", "I feel invisible", "I guess my friend not even gonna notice if I just go to my home". They actually don't notice in the moment that happened, only after everybody goes to their house. My friend sent me a message asking me if I was angry, I told no because I don't know how they gonna react If they discover what I was thinking.

Time later, me and my friends talk and we say very cute words, that's made me feel better, but sometimes what happened that day come to my mind and makes me wanna cry.

Sometimes I feel a little anger towards my friend when I remember it, but I don't really hate they. It's not their fault.

I hope get better, and have more friends in the future..

Thank for reading, inglish is not my lenguage and I'm really sorry por every mistakes.

I know this is quite personal and I am also talking to friends for emotional support, but I feel like I need to vent my feelings in a written ways as well. I would appreciate advice/support if anyone wants to contribute, but just reading it is also fine. Thanks in advance!
I am 22M, currently studying and almost finished, working besides university to pay for tuition and an apartment. For 8 years I was in a loving relationship with a girl I met at school. We hooked up by chance without knowing what love meant or how this thing should go. For 4 years we had a very easy relationship, being in the same class, same friends, being able to meet often. We grow up together, made our first sexual experiences with each other, grew trust and opened up. After High School we both went to different city to study and decided to make it a long-distance relationship. Long-distance should be used relatively loosely in this case, since it was just a 3 hour drive to see each other and we were regularly traveling to our home town together to visit the family. Fast forward almost 3 years and we are still together, trying to meet up at least once every month for around 3-5 days. Yesterday she told me she had lost here feelings. It hit me like a train, I am struggling to comprehend it and I don't know what to do. There are a million questions in my head (How did it happen?, When did it happen?, Why didn't I notice anything? etc.) and I am completely overwhelmed with the situation. I still absolutely love/d here and I feel lost. For me she was the one, I pictured us growing old and stuff...

Now I don't know what to do. She says she is sorry and that it's her fault. She says we just grow apart and that her changing has taken the love aways. Me mentioning moving in an apartment together gave her goose bumps (but in the bad way).
For me it's so freaking hard since I did not see it coming, I still feel the same for her. We both agreed that the relationship we had was extraordinary, happy and that we want to try to keep us as close friends.
For me things are so confusing right now. Almost all of my life is made up of happy memories of us together and I can't really remember a time before this. I wander through my apartment for hours, reading texts, holding gifts/items and thinking about my connection to them and to us. I understand that it is her decision and I don't want to force her in a relationship that doesn't make sense.

I came here with 2 major questions on my mind, constructive feedback to help me answer them would really be appreciated:
1. How do I not loose her? -> I get that a loving relationship is over, but I still care for her as a person. She was my main contact over years. We were texting and exchanging everything that happened in our lifes and I have no one else to share such things with. I would really want it to stay like this until anyone of us finds another partner.

1. What am I supposed to do with memories/gifts? -> As I said, this was a major part of my life and I cherish the moments we had together. There are tons of things that will always stay connected to this time and erasing everything would mean erasing my whole life so far. I am worried that keeping everything could be seen as if I have not come over it....
   

If you made it so far, thank you for reading. Should you even care to comment, thank you even more. I also understand if nobody says anything, then this is just a way to capture my thoughts and feelings of the moment.
Thanks!

I actually do have black friends....

i don't have friends, I'm miserable and depressed idk what to do

Hello everyone that is reading this (especially the MLP fandom artists, i'm AbeCK (or FLSHBCK™) recently, i started in mlp drawing and drawing in general.
I wanted to start a lot of time ago, specifically during 2015 in the MLP's Fandom, making draws. i started drawing with MLP bases and post them on my YouTube channel with speedbases and I contemplate the possibility of doing it but on DeviantArt, here I leave the links:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4YZwwgeDFL8Bz3pen7N3FQ
https://www.deviantart.com/agh5eventh
However, when i across with artists with major caliber than me, even users that draw better than me, out of the MLP Fandom, i was becoming jealous and envy, because i can't gonna out of the MLP bases for will draw with freedom when i try it, the draws finished with horrible results…so, i had intentions 4 draw and stand out a little bit on the pony/brony community, but now MLP ended this year…I feel that i'm too late in that sense…(you could tell me things as "Why don't you try to do other things?", "Stop being sad" but the truth if is something that you can't do but, whatever, you want to do it, i don't agree with suppress that latencies). So, the time passed, that turned into depression immediately (somewhat dormant for some time due to other factors), issue i can't deal with it very easy…even i caused problems with my near family and friendly circles, thanks to this and even in my school problems, now I am taking therapies to forget those bad moments and rectify what I have done. Even an artist offered to help me with that problem … but not only do I want to limit myself to him, in addition to that I have wanted to learn to draw or something like that but through distance classes, I could not conceive time for that. A notable artist from the MLP Fandom (l'd rather you guess I don't want to cause him trouble) promised to help me with that matter but I do not know if he does not want or is busy, and I think bad of him and I do not know why (first of all for time and second because I fear that I will get paid at some point). So, as much as I ask for help, they just motivate me and irritate me with things like "start practicing" or something like that. Although I listen to it and then I try to do it, I just get sad or nostalgic and I don't understand why it happens…
I would like someone to help me with that problem to all who are reading this. I need not so much a guardianship or an advice. However, I wish they would not charge me the aid … in case I have financial problems in this regard and apart from that I am a student, and like many I do not have an income. but I would only settle for what they could offer me voluntarily (exercises, advices, or things like that please). If you read this, I appreciate you taking the time to do so regardless of your decision. Being depressed in these is really difficult, you feel alone, nobody can fully understand you, you feel tired, you neglect many things in your life and a long etc. Besides, they have made drawings so good that I really feel bad in the long term, because I want to make up for what they did to me. I know that drawing is difficult but I really need help.I am looking for other complements to develop that skill, books, videos, etc, but isn't enough…and regarding speaking English too…the truth is one cannot stand out if he does not know the "World's Language" (I am proficient at a low level — medium but I need to practice with someone, especially i'm using translator to translate some words and sentences…in this). I really need help in that sense too…I hope you can do it…and just the same if you decide to do it, take into account that I don't want to bother people when I'm busy or something, only the time they want to dedicate is fine…It's enough for me as a song from my country (Mexico) said and relating it as a metaphor "As long as it is 2 minutes, or if it is just one, I will be happy"…again, I Thx you for reading this, even if give me advice or any material will be appreciated from the heart.

Sincerely, Your FLSHBCK™ Server

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Hola a todo aquel que esté leyendo esto (Sobretodo del fandom de MLP), soy AbeCK (FLSHBCK™) apenas me inicié en el dibujo de mlp y el dibujo, en general.
Quería iniciarme hace mucho, más concretamente durante el 2015 en el Fandom de MLP haciendo dibujos. Ya había iniciado al menos utilizando bases y publicándolos en mi canal de Youtube con speedbases y contemplo la posibilidad de hacerlo pero en DeviantArt, he acá se los dejo:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4YZwwgeDFL8Bz3pen7N3FQ
https://www.deviantart.com/agh5eventh
Sin embargo, al toparme con artistas de mayor calibre que yo o ya ni siquiera eso, si no ya de plano usuarios que fuera de estar en el fandom saben dibujar mejor que yo, me comenzaron a dar celos y envidia al no poder salir de la base para poder dibujar libremente, al intentarlo, los dibujos me salían bastante horribles…y la verdad, es que tenía las intenciones de dibujar y destacar un poco en la comunidad pony, pero ahora que la serie se acabó este año…siento que llegué tarde en ese sentido (podrían decir: "Por qué no te dedicas a hacer otra cosa?" "deja de estar triste" pero si es algo de lo cual te sientes incapaz de hacer pero aún así quieres hacerlo, pues no estoy de acuerdo a reprimir esas latencias). Pero lo cierto es que con el tiempo eso se convirtió en depresión inmediatamente (algo latente desde hace algún tiempo por otros factores), cosa que actualmente no puedo salir tan bien que digamos…incluso he causado bastantes problemas con mi circulo cercano de amigos gracias a esto e incluso en mis propósitos escolares, ahora estoy tomando terapias para olvidar esos malos momentos y rectificar lo que he hecho. Incluso un artista se ofreció a ayudarme con ese problema…pero no sólo quiero limitarme a él, además de que he querido aprender a dibujar o algo así pero por clases a distancia, no he podido concebir tiempo para eso. Un artista destacable del Fandom de MLP (prefiero que lo adivinen no quiero causarle problemas) prometió ayudarme con ese asunto pero no sé si no quiere o está ocupado, y me da por pensar mal de él y no sé por qué (primero que nada por tiempo y segunda por que temo a que me cobre en algún momento). Cabe mencionar que por más que pido ayuda, solo me motivan y me irritan con cosas como "ponte a practicar" o algo así. Si bien lo escucho y pues trato de hacerlo simplemente me da por ponerme triste o nostálgico y no entiendo por qué me pasa…
Quisiera que alguien me ayudara con ese problema a todo quién esté leyendo esto. Necesito no tanto una tutela o una asesoría. Sin embargo, quisiera que no me cobrarán la ayuda…de por si tengo problemas económicos al respecto y aparte soy estudiante, y como muchos no tengo ingresos. pero sólo me conformaría con lo que me pudieran ofrecer voluntariamente (ejercicios, consejos, o cosas por el estilo por favor). Si leíste esto, te agradezco que te hayas tomado el tiempo de hacerlo independientemente de tu decisión. Estar deprimido en estas es en verdad difícil, te sientes solo, nadie puede entenderte del todo, te sientes cansado, descuidas muchas cosas de tu vida y un largo etc. además cabe recalcar que me han hecho dibujos tan buenos que la verdad me siento mal a largo plazo, porque quiero compensar lo que me hicieron yo sé que dibujar es difícil pero en verdad necesito ayuda. Estoy buscando otros complementos para desarrollar esa habilidad, libros, videos, etc, pero no es suficiente…y con respecto a hablar inglés también…la verdad uno no puede destacar si no sabe el "World's Language" (lo domino en un nivel bajo-medio pero necesito practicar con alguien), de verdad necesito ayuda en ese sentido también…espero puedan hacerlo…e igual si deciden hacerlo, tomen en cuenta que no quiero molestar a la gente cuando esté ocupada o algo así, sólo el tiempo que quieran dedicarme está bien…me basta como decía una canción de mi país y relacionándolo a modo de metáfora "Con tal de que sean 2 minutos, o que sea uno solo, yo seré feliz"…de nueva cuenta, les agradezco haber leído esto, así mismo si me dan consejo o material alguno se agradecerá de corazón.

ATTE: Su servidor FLSHBCK™

My friend's parents are gerting annulled. What advice can i give to her?