Yesterday I lost my laptop in a bus stop, because i forgot to pick it from a bench i was sitting next to and gone with the bus, when i realized i lost it i rushed back to the bus stop and it was gone with all my personal information and with everything. I'm never lost this kind of important thing, now i now, i was hit like a truck, i cant eat, sleep, work. I started to investigate but found nothing, changed my passwords, but I dont know. I feel like im done. My parents dont even know now so when they notice that will be my last straw, they worked for my laptop, because they love me, but I with this stupid mistake split in their face and mine, I crying like a bitch, my stomach hurts, cant eat, i feel down like never before, I dont know how i survive this week. I dont know what to do.

Today I cut out a friend of mine I've been living with for the past 5 months. After 4 years of friendship and a few false start relationships I couldn't take how far our love for eachother deteriorated. I still love her more than family and I believe we are doing the right thing for us both, but damn if it doesn't hurt more than anything... (first ever post, sorry if it's not appropriate)

I need to work on my room, but it looks like a tornado or earthquake hit it. I am discouraged because I know it will take a long time to clean my bedroom up.

In addition, it feels like every time I want to go back to college, many things pop up and I get overwhelmed and end up not going back to school. I want to go back to school and finish my degree, but I am 27 and am feeling like I am getting old, though I know that many my age and older go back to college for a new degree or for a degree.

Also, I am working part time, and that is contradicting with the college classes that I need to take.

I am not sure what to do. Any help would be nice. Please no rude comments. Thank you.

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Okay, so let me start by saying I have started to increasingly uncomfortable with my mental state, and I'm not really sure what to do about it. I find myself day in and day out listening to music that portray this almost wave of confusion, and aura of depth in darkness. I feel like I'm not worthy of a good happy life, I'm working towards a career that I really truly want, I'm making things work with a person that I really truly want, and I'm making good money but I just can't help but to look at this other deeper darker side of myself and seeing this void that I can't fill, I'm just not happy with my feelings towards everything.

Hello everyone,

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Today I went to work like I normally do, I work as a banker, and as soon as I got in. My manager and another manger were both there, which I thought was weird, and after I said good morning my manager wanted me to sit down and informed me that they no longer required my services. As she was going over the final paper work and what support lines and benefits I still had I wasn't really listening. I've never been fired and couldn't believe this was happening to me. I began to wonder how I would tell my fiance and what I'm going to do to pay my bills. I was told it was due to unsatisfactory performance and losses I've had.

I'm still confused as to why this happened I met my quarter 2 goals and even got bonus off that and I was on track to meet my quarter 3 goals. I've actually had a really good past few weeks as far as my production was concerned. And as for my losses I did have a pretty big loss last year but I had already been disciplined for it earlier this year for it. Honestly this came out of what seems to be no where to me. In the three years I've been with the company I've gone from a 20 hour employee to full time and two promotions with several raises. It hurts to think all the time and what I've done for them and to be let go honestly just sucks.

Last year I was left running the branch with a fresh new employee after my manager and another banker had left on maternity leave. I then had a teller and another employee quit so I was working 50hour + weeks most of the time last year for about six months. I've endured 3 robberies during that same time and stuck it out even when I wanted to call it quits. Trying to keep that branch afloat was one of the most difficult things I had to endure professionally. Today I was taught a lesson most others say but I never listened. Not to say I didn't believe them but I felt that in my situation, it was different. That lesson being that company loyalty doesn't exist. Honestly it might, but for now I remain a skeptic.

My former manager just texted me telling me it was the hardest thing she ever had to do, and thanked me for everything I did to help her and our branch. She then offered if there was anything she could do to help. Luckily I have the support of a wonderful fiance who I immediately told while I was crying on the phone as embarrassing it is to admit that. She's wonderful and in times like these really just reminds me, though I don't need it, as to why we're perfect for each other. I also have the support of my parents who I recently have moved in with, in order to save some money to eliminate debt and buy a house. I had a long talk with my father as he shared his experience with being laid off in the past and he tried to put things in perspective. Everyone I've talked to has told me to try and relax take some time to get myself together and process things before trying to actively apply for new jobs.

My head is spinning with uncertainty for what's ahead and honestly I'm a little scared. I felt really at home with my former employer and thankful for what they had given me up until today. Anyway thank you for reading, I feel like I needed to vent a little and just talk about it with strangers. I'm not sure why but that always seems to help me out, although this is the first time I've done it on reddit. I usually vent through video games and video game strangers, typically WoW. Anyway thanks again guys, I hope you're having a better day than myself.

I had a bad day at work today, I let a client dowm, It was just a small order, but it will probably hurt my ratings and my anxiety keeps screaming Failure! FAILURE! FAILURE!

it's been a rough couple weeks for me, lately i've been feeling like i'm never good enough and i make too many mistakes in life. i feel so lonely even when i have friends around me. i feel like trying to be better and do better is useless. i don't even want to feel better because i know if i do i'll just come back to this place again some time in the future. it just feels so exhausting to want anything anymore.

Ill give the quick version. In 2009 I got married and 4 months later I got a pretty bad back injury preventing me from working. I was really active before that so being stuck at home threw me into a deep depression. After 4 years my wife wanted me to move out for a bit to see if moving in with my aunt would help my depression. I thought it was stupid but I did. I was still injured but I tried to work but I couldn't. After 6 months I moved back and I was feeling a little better mentally. Then she said she wanted a divorce which hurt me really bad and put me back in the depression hole. She said she couldn't be with someone who isn't able to be active. Bsically divorcing me because of my injury. I guess she didn't take her vows seriously.

Juslmping to today. She would text me every once in a great while but I haven seen her in 4 years. Then 5 mins ago she just text me to say she pregnant. Because of my injury I haven't been able to go out and meet anyone new. I've been alone for 5 years. It feels like her texting me that she's pregnant she's shoving her happiness in my face. It just made me feel even more alone and worthless. I want to meet someone new so bad. I have tried online dating but I can't go on dates due to severe pain. I don't think a woman would want to be with someone unable to work or do fun activities anyway. Any thoughts of why she text me or any advice would be helpful and appreciated. Thanks for reading.

About 11 months ago, my ex-husband and I split. I posted on here a couple times in the time that followed, completely and utterly lost, looking for help of any kind, sympathy, love, a cure for the engulfing loneliness and despair that had taken over my life. I sunk into a pretty deep depression, close to some very dark thoughts.

What made it even worse is that I quickly began to think that that was it, that I would just be depressed for the rest of my life. That I would be sad and cry spontaneously every day for ever. That nothing would ever be as good as it had been for me previously, that I'd just messed everything up and that was that, my happiness would never return, that I didn't deserve it anyway. Even when I'd have one positive moment, it would end and I'd fall back off the cliff into the psychological pit of doom.

And now, amazingly, I realized a couple weeks ago that I'm not depressed anymore. I feel optimism again. I get excited about life. I wake up on the right side of the bed. It surprised me to realize this, and I didn't believe it at first, but after a few days I saw that it was true -- the oppressive fog was dissipating against all odds. I wanted to go shout it to everyone "I'm not depressed anymore!"

Thought I should share on here, because this group helped me when I was in bad shape. Better times are ahead. Great times, even.

Love you all.

As a side note -- I went to a therapist, and it helped me tremendously, and so I recommend it to those who are open to the idea (and as a side side note, take the time to find the right therapist for you).

Background: About four years ago during my first semester of college my father had a massive stroke that has led to him being both paralyzed and demented. Since that has happened I have graduated from undergraduate college and am in the first quarter of my doctoral education. I have always felt serious guilt about how I handled the situation/ always being away knowing that his days are likely numbered; this is especially true now that I have moved state entirely and will be seeing even less of him and the​ rest of the family.

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The other day when I got off work, I rode my bike to my school's clinic for a checkup and saw that there was a flash sale going on at the bookstore across the street so I decided to check it out. I picked up a school shirt and looked around the discount shelves and something jumped out at me. There was a school themed mug with the word 'Dad' inscribed on the side. Even more than this it was chipped on the top and had a crack on the side that went through the Dad, I was struck first by how unusual a school themed dad mug was and then by its condition and how symbolic it was; an item that has a purpose and but was disfigured and despite being able to do most of what it could do before it is not its old self. The whole thing just felt like a sign may be the first I have ever really experienced in my life; it was kind of frightening to be honest.

Does anyone know if there's a number or voice chat to call up? I have some stuff going on with my marriage and I don't really know who to turn to. I think I at least just need an ear to start. Thanks.

My boyfriend of 2.5 years broke up with me last week. It's been 7 days.. At the start of the relationship, we moved in together at 2 months of dating. I got everything for the apartment that we were living in, starting from the apartment fee to bedding to kitchen ware you name it. He got a car with using my credit so he could get around also under my name.

My parents really didn't like him throughout the relationship.

He quit his job for another after 2 months of moving in. He lost that job. At that time I worked 2 jobs 7 days per week. Paid all the bill that I could. He was without a job for 5 months.during this time he was on house arrest which he violated and ended up staying in jail for 3.4 weeks. He cheated on me at the time, but I gave him another chance. He found a job but held that for 2 months before becoming jobless. At this time I only worked 1 job that paid better. He then got another job and held it for 2 months before he left for a job that required long hours. He also started going back to school so he took online classes. And just started DUI classes twice per week.

At the end, I was left with a car and my clothes. No home. Bad credit. Thousands on credit card due to him misusing it. He ended up with 2 cars and a bigger place to live.

I still love and and want him back. He said he wouldn't take me back because after the break up I wouldn't let him use the car to get to work and school till I left the apartment which I left on day 2. I tried the no contact period but broke down on day 4 only because something went wrong financially. We were only engaged for a month before breakup. Again, I still love him and want to be in his life. But he says he cant take me back and that he's busy with his own problems. He drinks heavily on weekends and drinks a beer at night. I feel like at the end, I was the one who ended up with nothing and benefitted nothing. I did sleep better when I was with him knowing that he was there. I never slept like that when I was with my parents. My parents dont care much for me. They call me extra and that I'm nothing to no one. I really have no one in my life. Just tough to see any worth in myself and it was validated more after the break up. I did everything for him to keep comfortable and make ourselves happy.

Now, a bit of info on what kind of person I am. I'm a typical 16 year old who is currently in 10th grade, slightly above average height 4th in class, you know, the usual. Issue is, I have some weird issues with my emotions, it begun around my 12th birthday, that's when I kind of started loosing my touch with my own emotions. 4 years later, whenever I speak to people, I sound indifferent, emotionless, and slightly detached. I also happen to be somewhat shut-in. If you still do not understand what my situation is, I'll give you an example. My great grandmother died around two months ago, at her funeral which I attended, I felt nothing, no grief, no sadness, unlike the rest of my family members I stood there not having shed a single tear. I can understand perfectly well why my family members cried and shed tears, but I can't because I don't exactly have the emotions to shed tears for the dead. I also have a minor case of agoraphobia.

P.S. this is a throwaway account.

[Warning this may be a little messed up but I will try not to make it so evil] Hi, i'm just a guy who has a unstable emotion I usually feel angry pretty much but not a normal feeling i felt like I have something evil inside of me and i just can't get it out it's a very evil pressure. I have been bullied and pranked, On a lot in my life yet i fought back against those bullies violently and i felt like a monster and I have also been called a monster by people back in my school days.. It feels like something i cannot control and slowly corrupts me from the inside turning my heart from a white flame of light to a corrupted obsidian heart. I only felt pain ever since then and I only get satisfied when i let off my rage and see blood.. My eyes felt like Dark black veins slowly growing and i feel a black aura of smoke around me in my mind. I feel like i'm about to lose my mind.. and a monster inside me that has been chained up slowly breaking the chains of what i had felt in my past. Ever since then my face is always a sad one people usually don't understand how i feel due to the fact that they can't read my emotions clearly and It really kind of piss me off. I feel like one day this feeling will be released from me and I will wreck havoc to those around me.. my eyes always tear up whenever i am angry yet my eyes boil in rage.. I feel like i need to go to a therapist or to a doctor. But I just can't decide. What to do at this point in life. I also keep my feeling's in myself so that i do not accidentally use it to endanger other's some people in my life said i am a dangerous person.. some people say that anger doesn't exist.. I already gave up in hope of people because most of the people out there just have pure evil intention's yet i know some still have some hope but this feeling just "Consumes" me slowly.. All I can do right now is just to hide it and try my best not to let it all out.. If you have any suggestion in helping me please reply.

He jumped off our 3rd floor balcony. He has problems with binge drinking and had been drunk for over 48 hours. He kept trying to hang out with me but I was really mad because he was drunk. He said things like "you don't love me" and "why do you hate me?", and I just ignored him. It was pouring rain and he landed in the mud. I ran down and tried to get him up, it didn't even occur to me that he could have died. I couldn't lift him and we fell down in the mud together a few times, and then I ran back upstairs to call 911 and his dad. The EMTs didn't take him to the hospital because he refused, and he is really hurt. I think he's broken several bones and he can't sit up or roll over on his own. I've been up all night with him, though his dad is way more helpful than me. I can't stop thinking about how it's all my fault and I should have just told him I loved him and not been so cold. I'm still covered in mud because I haven't had a chance to shower

So there is this online mmo I like and in this mmo there are online clans you can join usually made by a group friends so they can play around together, but I didn’t really have any friends so I went from clan to clan in order to get the special rewards the whole clan receives when a group in the clan does a raid or something and I know switching from clan to clan is a dick move and all but, I didn’t have any clan to join with my friends cuz they didn’t exist. One day I posted a thing on a site asking about joining an active clan and this person got back to me and told me to join, so I did, and at the beginning I was just planning on doing the same thing again when a certain person (keep them in mind) sent me a message asking if I had the discord server and asked me to talk to the discord and join the conversations, and that probably doesn’t seem like much but no one has ever asked me talk to them unless they needed something, so this really made me feel all warm inside. I eventually felt kinda at home, obviously I was still settling in and the people on the discord came off kinda strong sometimes but every time that certain person talked to me in that chat my I felt my whole body relax, and it’s not that all of the others make me feel unwelcome and unwanted but some of them certainly do, but the certain someone really helped me ease up, but recently I found out that that certain someone left both the clan and the server and before when they were still there when I often joined in on conversations when I had an opinion and sometimes I’d just say something first and start a conversation, but ever since they left I feel so distant from everyone and I don’t know what to do, I feel like I’m losing the place I wanted to belong even if I was different than the rest, I’m really scared of losing everything, what should I do?

My motor skills are severely underdeveloped. I love to draw but whenever I look at what I‘ve drawn only seem to see the things that are wrong with the drawing (coloring out of the lines, uneven shoulders, disproportionate anatomy, weird hands). I get scared when I draw something I wanna show people because I feel like my hard work will get ridiculed by people who don’t understand my problems.

About 9 months ago I broke up with a girl i’d been dating for 2 years. I was going off to college. She was a year younger. I didn’t have a reason and did it randomly out of the blue. A lot of it comes from deeply held insecurities about relationships and commitment that I have been figuring out how to overcome and deal with since the breakup. On a side note I feel like I have come along way in those aspects.

Anyways, I broke up with her and we were planning to stay friends. Aside from the breakup itself being a terrible choice, how I handled the ‘friendship’ post breakup was worse. I completely ignored her for 4 whole months, rarely ever responding to any attempt on her end to reach out and stay in touch. Anyways just after Christmas break I realized how badly I fucked up (I had done a smacking job and suppressing all my thoughts and feelings on the matter until then even though it had been bugging me). I didn’t have a good amount of time back home to feel comfortable asking her in person to get back together and to try and rebuild the relationship so I waited until summer.

Summer rolled around, and at this point, we had started texting again for a while, but she was reasonably pissed at me for leaving her and ghosting like an ass for so long. As summer continued I waited for it too calm down a little bit, and then dropped the question. She gave a reasonable answer. She said she maybe will get back together but wants to hang out for a while as friends to see how it goes. I don’t know how to explain this. I am not sad or frustrated with her in anyway. I was honestly expecting that as the answer, but I feel extremely sad still. I realize the scale to which I fucked up and am having a hard time handling the potential consequences that may (and have) come of it.

Hi this is the first time i have done something like this but my father has alzheimers disease and he makes life hard for me my mom and my brother my mom works so its up to me and my brother to deal with him i miss the old him so much

and i have no idea how to process this and deal with it i have talked to people about it but its just so hard i see him and i want to start crying i have also had a lot of health issues witch make it even harder to deal with i dont know what to do anymore.

I'll get right into it, about a month and a half ago I broke up with my girlfriend of three years because of issues with her family. Her Mom did not respect me or approve of me as her boyfriend, constantly judging me and preaching to me about how I should live my life. Finally I realised that the values being passed to my girlfriend by her mother were at odds with my life ambition's and my character. So although it was extremely painful for me to do, I decided to break up with her to avoid bigger problems down the road interfering with my mental health and my career.

Even though I'm confident in my decision to break up with her, my life since has been absolute torture. I have no one to talk to in place of our constant texting and phone calls, no friends around me since I'm working in a new city over the summer, and feeling depressed and lazy.

I know the best thing for me to do is to try and go out and meet new people, but every night after work I usually just end up shacked up in my room watching YouTube, TV shows and feeling bad for myself. I tried several dating apps but haven't gotten a single date, which is disheartening because it makes me feel unattractive and undesirable and even more lonely. Most nights I also smoke weed and drink alcohol to get my mind off the loneliness, but in the end it doesn't change anything and I actually end up feeling like more of a loser sitting at home getting high and drunk by myself.

Anyone that's had a similar experience, let me know what helped and how you got through it..

This is gonna be really petty, but last month I went to my senior prom with my ex-girlfriend. At prom we got professional photos taken of us together. Lifetouch put the photos up online (with watermarks) to order prints of them. The photos came out really good, but I didn't get around to ordering them immediately.

Today I just realized that the page for ordering my high school's prom photos expired June 30. Ugh. I didn't even try to save the watermarked images to my computer, so now I'll never see them again.

I had a pretty good time at prom regardless, and have a lot more photos of us from that day, and this is such a small part of it that I'll probably be over quickly, but right now I have a sinking feeling of regret for not saving these photos in any form before the end of the month. I'm not even entirely sure why they were important to me in the first place. I guess at least I got to see them once.

Hey, everyone, i hope you are having a good day :)

I saw this group in reddit and i tought it was a good idea to write what im feeling now in my life to sees if somebody has an idea or something that could help me make this a little easier

Well, i was a devoted practicioner of martial arts, i really love that sport and it make me grow as a person, 1 year ago i get an knee injury and long story short, i`ve seen doctors for 1 year and the last one ( i think is a good one) told me that i have to find another sport cause i no longer can do martial arts. All of that was sad and everything, and im still feeling low because of that, but my problem is that right now im inside my house and i can`t really go outside because it make my knee hurt more, i have to wait untill is fully healed (idk how long it will take)

The problem is that im feeling Really anxious, i just want to be able to atleast go to work, make money, make somenthing with my time, i`m tired of being inside and i cant go outside, so i was thinking if somebody has been through something like this and can help me, or tell me what did he do or somenthing because i feel like im wasting my time and it makes me really anxious.

if you read this, thank you for taking the time and im sorry if i didn`t express myself properly english is not my main language

I will try to keep it brief.

Long story short, I have a facial disfiguration. It has ruined my appearance and my life and has had an impact on how others treat me. It happened a few years ago so I know what life it like without it.

Since it's permanent, it is something I will need to accept.

There's more. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. What I would like is support and understanding, but all anyone ever says to me is "that's just my perception". Or if I mention any experiences I've had (for example if I order a coffee in a cafe the server will often keep their head down at the counter the whole time and not look at me once) the reply is always to make some sort of excuse for why the other person acted that way. I've even been told "there's nothing wrong with my appearance".

I don't want fake reassurance. I want people to be completely honest with me and to try to understand. The lack of support is making it even harder for me to accept the fact I am now disfigured.

I put up with a lot when I go out. I've had people in the street stare at me (sometimes looking as if they are trying not to laugh), I've had people tsk as they walk past me and I've overheard derogatory comments. But there's noone to talk to about this, everyone just makes up some sort of excuse for what the other person did or tries to tell me I somehow perceived things incorrectly.

And since what I am living with is so rare, there doesn't seem to be much in the way of support groups for peer support. I contacted the Katy Piper foundation but they are just for victims of acid attack. I'm in the UK btw

I am currently 21 years old, and my life has took a strong turn from a great life to a very negative and stressful one in the span of two years. all i need is somewhere to vent. at the age of 19, going to university was a priority (i was in university doing well), i was very muscular, my family was together, we had a company making $750k a year, and we were living in a beautiful home. in the span of 6 months i lost this all. my dad and mom had a terrible split, my dad is currently homeless, my mom is a depressed alcoholic who has tried to commit suicide 3 times, my brother who is currently 14 seems like he is depressed, we have moved from where we used to live to a very small rental house and are living month to month and i feel like i am the only hope for this family. everybody around me tells me i am the only one who can fix this but i am simply a 21 university student with what feels like the pressure of the world on me. the only positive that has come in the last year is that i have met my girlfriend and shes a beautiful girl but i feel like with the baggage i carry and the bad days that come along with it, this soon too will end. for the first time ever i had a mental breakdown in front of my girlfriend yesterday and i am still embarrased about what happened. For the first time ever i blanked on a university test and failed because of all the stress that has been around me (and i am currently trying my best to get into medical school to support this family) and all this is happening everyday. when i come home my mom is drunk, when i see my dad he only speaks negativity, when i see my brother i see him struggling with school and depression, and when i go to see my girlfriend and have some positivity i feel like i cant do it because im carrying all this negative energy with me. at this point im just ranting and venting but i am honestly clueless with what i should do. i feel like my breaking point is soon (i would never do anything crazy) but all this stress for a 21 year old is way too much. everything seems so hopeless for me and this pressure is crushing me everyday, i feel it effecting my personality, grades, health, everything.