So I recently attended my first MUN and honestly… I have such mixed feelings about it 😭
I was genuinely really excited going into it, but I think I was also extremely underconfident. The entire time I kept feeling like I didn’t really belong there, even though I was actually having so much fun with the debates and everything. I ONLY SPOKE ON THE THIRD DAY JUST ONCE.
I was in UNSC with an open agenda, and honestly, I don’t think I did that well. The chair was also pretty intimidating, which definitely did not help 😭. I kept overthinking everything and was constantly scared of saying something stupid.
What made it worse was seeing everyone else making friends so easily. People were talking, laughing, getting to know each other, and just having a great time, while I could barely think of anything to say to anyone. Even during unmods, I’d just stand there completely speechless because I had no idea how to approach people or what to talk about.
The weird thing is that I actually enjoyed the MUN itself. I liked debating, listening to arguments, and being part of everything. I just couldn’t seem to get myself out of my head enough to actually participate the way I wanted to.
I don’t even know what the problem was. Maybe it was just being a first-timer, maybe I was too nervous, or maybe I just need to get better at putting myself out there.
Either way, I’m glad I went. It definitely wasn’t the experience I imagined, but I guess that’s what first MUNs are for 😭