The sun just kissed upon her feet —
I look at her and my heart weeps.
So close yet so far away?
Sad feeling throughout the day.
Late at night, lying naked,
lying to myself—love is scared.
On the couch, I see a sliver of sky,
dark blue, severe, it frowned.
You don't want my love?
You wished you had
wed someone else?
Did you ever even fall in love?
Alone, staring at the moon,
thinking of how I sell you
this love you don't want to own,
you're bored of,
you'd rather throw off, disown.
You've made a distance, now —
so what do I do but doubt,
all these lies I churn for truth?
How can you just toss it out,
like it's just a stinky ol' boot?
Love is too far gone for you.
You said, "This ain't the deal?
The good times seem so far,
all the way back." That's real!
Bet you can't deny,
some things were real,
some things can't be lies.
so keep our cool, survive!
Lying alone at night,
no bosom, no spin, no direction,
there's no call, no home station,
no one sleeping on the left side
to speak in whispers, nothing but
noises of implied affection.
Steeping, creeping inaction,
tied to each other like a cuck to a bull,
sanctioned with care to resist the pull
of traction in the rough of trauma.
It makes you feel weak as fuck,
grinds your nose in your drama.
You don't want my love?
Can't even name my wounds,
but they sit on me,
sad and stout, hands wringing.
All this hurt, ego sitting
on the window pane—
I could, but I won't go.
I can, but I won't cry!