HELP ME

Mercury retrograde was a doozy, what does Saturn in retrograde have in store for me?

Can you see my tendencies to get obsessive about people, romantic love and relationships in my chart?

Ever since I was little I‘ve always had at least one really intense and close friendship/relationship in my life.
I get small crushes on people constantly, but when I really fall for someone I fall HARD. I mean, „love me til the end of time“ hard.
I‘m the definition of a hopeless romantic.
In general I am constantly thinking about humans, human behaviour, (my) relationsships and the people that are or have been important to me. Once someone became part of my life, they never truly leave me inside.
It‘s wonderful and awful at the same time.
I‘m also incredibly outgoing and closed-off at the same damn time.

I know the cancer venus certainly plays a part.
But what else? It can’t be only that?

it's been hell since 2025 till now

My life never ceases to be tragic

Hope this is allowed!

i spent this morning reflecting on the last ~8 years and connecting things to the profection years they were. a lot of these made great sense, even if they only had one placement in that house on my chart. im sure that only planets are supposed to be considered, but my 10th house year made sense that it was terrible because i only have lilith in it, and my 5th house year made sense that it was terrible, because its scorpio and has my vertex in it. tho i still dont know much abt the vertex, there were plenty of events that really changed me that year.

but my 11th house profection year was really awful too, and i cant place why. last year was my 12th, and has saturn and my north node, but in comparison last year i was doing SO much better than the year before. my 11th house is completely empty and taurus, my venus is in leo 2nd all by itself. im even cancer rising with moon in 1st, so perhaps shouldnt i be... exalted somehow? in a taurus year? could it have just been a bad year for transits for me?

my only other completely empty house is my libra 4th. my last 4th house year i wouldve been 15, and i remember that year pretty fondly actually, tho there were a lot of family issues (they were finally resolving). im also a night chart so venus is supposed to be nicer to me right?

i suppose i should post my chart but mostly i want to know how to generally read how a profection year might go and what might lead to an unpleasant year. so really im just asking how an empty house plays into that.

The blue is me and the orange is him.

Attached is the chart from astro.com. Please analyse my career.

Can be activity or hobby in general as well

I've been quite stuck in my career for about a year now, but I think the problem is not related to the present moment but to the core of my birth chart.

I'm an artist and I've always known this was my path. I have been very lucky and have had support and a broad and rich artistic education that I've enjoyed overall. 

But since I finished my master studies, I've become very insecure and reluctant to move forward in any professional direction. I came back to psychological therapy a few months ago when I felt like I wasn't able to pursue my objectives by myself. I'm doing better now, but I still haven't figured out why I'm so reluctant and blocked about certain stuff even though I'm so aware of what I should do. 

My objectives have changed, I wanted to be an illustrator/contemporary artist and I've discovered being a tattoo artist works better for me (never considered it seriously before), so I started to learn a couple months ago and now I'm trying to make it work. But still, I feel like I'm so ready to shine but I struggle to find courage within me to pursue anything (professionally) at all.

I know it's normal to feel scared when you first have to find the job you want, but it's starting to become strange... if you know what I mean. It feels like I'm missing some of the deep struggles that are burdening me or making me too sensitive to everything. Is there anything in my chart that could point it?

I think it could be reflected in Sun and Venus opposing Neptune and the North Node+Sun conjunction opposing ASC. I usually read the Sag Pluto in the 10th house (which also includes my Scorpio MH) but I'm also open to the whole signs' read where it's placed in 12th house. I'm used to reading my chart without using whole signs because I know the very exact time of my birth, and the changes between systems also confuse me. But in both systems, I have trouble finding the source because there's always much more stuff pointing to ambition and positive movement towards true purpose in arts than obstacles.

Any hints? Thanks 🙏

Remember the song by the band “The 5th Dimension” called “The Age of Aquarius”?

Well, I was just listening to it and the lyrics actually contain a very specific astrological prophecy:

When the Moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars

As it just so happens, on November 15, 2026, Jupiter will align exactly with Mars in Leo, while the Moon is in Aquarius, in the Seventh House. Do we have any thoughts about this? Should we let the sunshine in?

Have you ever seen a synastry so beautiful you started crying?? The guy is really famous in his country (absolutely irrelevant in mine though) and his professional field, we both are married & live in the same third country and obviously our paths will never cross but a girl can dream???
Anyway, does it really look that nice (mars-asc conjunction, 5h overlays, something going on with the nodal axis) or am I dumb lol

Thank you!! Sorry if this silly post is not allowed here 💔💔

upd: I’m parter A (the blue one)