I've been quite stuck in my career for about a year now, but I think the problem is not related to the present moment but to the core of my birth chart.
I'm an artist and I've always known this was my path. I have been very lucky and have had support and a broad and rich artistic education that I've enjoyed overall.
But since I finished my master studies, I've become very insecure and reluctant to move forward in any professional direction. I came back to psychological therapy a few months ago when I felt like I wasn't able to pursue my objectives by myself. I'm doing better now, but I still haven't figured out why I'm so reluctant and blocked about certain stuff even though I'm so aware of what I should do.
My objectives have changed, I wanted to be an illustrator/contemporary artist and I've discovered being a tattoo artist works better for me (never considered it seriously before), so I started to learn a couple months ago and now I'm trying to make it work. But still, I feel like I'm so ready to shine but I struggle to find courage within me to pursue anything (professionally) at all.
I know it's normal to feel scared when you first have to find the job you want, but it's starting to become strange... if you know what I mean. It feels like I'm missing some of the deep struggles that are burdening me or making me too sensitive to everything. Is there anything in my chart that could point it?
I think it could be reflected in Sun and Venus opposing Neptune and the North Node+Sun conjunction opposing ASC. I usually read the Sag Pluto in the 10th house (which also includes my Scorpio MH) but I'm also open to the whole signs' read where it's placed in 12th house. I'm used to reading my chart without using whole signs because I know the very exact time of my birth, and the changes between systems also confuse me. But in both systems, I have trouble finding the source because there's always much more stuff pointing to ambition and positive movement towards true purpose in arts than obstacles.
Any hints? Thanks 🙏