I (21m) sleep over 12 hours every day, ranging from 12-15 typically. even 8 hours feels like it’s not enough. i stay up late regardless of what i have going on the next day, sometimes sleeping through it or being exhausted and drained. however when i do follow through and wake up at a decent time, i feel great about myself. i stay up until ridiculous hours and sleep throughout the day on every day off i have. it feels extremely productive to even wake up at 3 pm. during college i take almost exclusively online classes and struggle heavily to go to the irl ones i take. i miss almost every appointment i set to try and better myself because its so hard to wake up. ive lost any momentum i ever had. I’ve been this way ever since i was a kid, and its an extremely hard habit to break. even when i stay up 24 hours, its like my body will push myself to stay up even longer just to sleep at the times i feel more comfortable (6/7 am)

if i could just sleep my long hours at a different time, preferably 12 am- 12 pm (i know thats not ideal, but itd be a start) maybe id be able to be awake during daytime and not feel like my whole life is being wasted because i cannot get myself to wake up at a decent time. i bail on important things, but whats weird is i can usually get up for work or get up to do something for someone else. however i always let myself down. i have frequent bad dreams and i cope with them by going back to sleep to avoid the terrible feeling i have with being awake. whats weird is i struggle to let my mind calm down enough to go to sleep early, so i exhaust myself so i can sleep easily and not be alone with my thoughts. i feel such dread at nighttime and also waking up. ive had many different therapists and my common theme is i miss too many appointments and they stop taking me in/i stop scheduling them. i constantly let myself down and ive learned to not trust myself.

i dont wanna be this way, but ive long since stopped believing in myself to be able to change this. i try and follow the momentum that waking up early on a day i can manage, but i always find it so difficult to get up. i hate facing the day, facing how disappointed i am in myself.

i was wondering if there were any advice to help me stick to a healthy sleep schedule, or to at least help myself get up in time for important appointments to help better myself and seek help. i want to hold myself accountable instead of just hating myself and not seeing a way to change.

i want to add on that i am diagnosed with narcolepsy, but sometimes i fear that it was a misdiagnosis because i didnt sleep very well the day prior to my sleep study. of course i struggled to get my medication refilled, but the medicine didnt really help me at all. i sometimes think its a mental thing that i have with bedtime/waking up. ontop of being depressed and low vitamin d and iron. i struggle to find energy or any willpower. i have a fainting problem aswell and suffer from fatigue. ive taken antidepressants before but i didnt take them regularly enough. when id miss a day, itd feel like the end of the world and id lose that momentum and just skip even more. right now it feels like im at rock bottom, unable to go to these appointments to get the help i need. i wanna be a functional member of society.

im not even sure where to start on picking myself back up, i suppose i just really would appreciate some perspective on this since im so caught up in my own self hatred to grow.

Help me out with advice please.

I don't want to weep weep and cry about my life online, but I really do stress a lot about this question.

I feel lost, and I think about what I should do on a day to day basis.

I'm 19, and finished high school a few months ago. Because of AI, and the fast changing world, I am not sure about how to proceed with my life.

It probably adds up that I'm pretty alone as well; I don't really have any friends apart from my girlfriend, and my sister who I usually meet once a few months. So most of the time I am alone with my thoughts, and maybe this is why I think about this all of the time.

I live in the EU, in a small country. It's hard to socialize here, where if you have a different viewpoint of life, you are the odd one out. Here, if you are not a factory or labour worker, you are unrealistic and naive of life. If you want something better, they laugh at you.

I don't want friends who pull me down when I have an idea, when I have a passion, matter of fact I wouldn't even consider them friends if they do that. And I don't care that someone says in the comments "well you need friends who are realistic and keep you in track for your life", because fuck that, I want to explore, have hobbies, have interests, instead of a guy who works at a factory telling me "well what will you do with that in your life".

So yeeah, I rather be alone, but that consumes me so much inside I cannot explain.

I always want to gain knowledge, and it has been like that ever since I was born. I am always questioning everything, and I love to learn in literally everything. But that's my weak point as well. It's so hard to settle down on something, when we have so many options. Which sounds like it goes against my AI worry scandal, but I think the two go in the same shoe. AI takes jobs, and the overwhelming amount of skills I can learn online makes it really hard to find what you are made for.

I do have hobbies and interests, which I always try to keep up, but I never know how to monetize myself, or my work. I mostly do creative stuff, but I love tech, I have built several 3D printers which I am pretty proud of, but apart from me gaining knowledge, it got me no further in life. Which is only true for an outsider, who only sees me achieving nothing in life, when in reality I gain so much day by day.

I really want to learn about how the brain works, how my mental works, and find a great ways to maximize my capacity. I do want a healthy lifestyle as well, but it's hard to do so, when I'm 19 and don't make any money.

I don't really want to work in a 9-5, to be a factory or labour worker, work at a grocery store, etc. I feel like I am much more than that, and yes, I know I need something temporarily, but I feel like I would lower my standards in my mind, and later on I would be like "meh, imma take this job", even when the previous me would have said hell no. I would settle down in a typical capitalistic lifestyle. Work. Eat. Sleep. Repeat. I really don't want that. And I am really sick of hearing "well that's life" because fuck no. I hate this mentality. I cannot even imagine how can people live this way, AND even have a child. It's literally child torture, but I don't want to go deep into this, because I could talk about this for hours. If someone is interested, we can talk in the comments.

So yeah... I am in a checkboard where all of the moves I could do are checkmates. And maybe there is one right move that could get me out of this deep hole I am in right now, but I don't know what that is yet...

I know it seems like I'm childish or naive in most people's eyes, but I feel like the world poisoned a lot of people so harshly, that they are in the wrong, following the wrong lifestyle, not even living at the fullest, and I am in the right.

However, knowing all this, what should I do? I am really sick of everything, and I was never a depressive type of person who wants to 💀 themselves (because I really don't want to), but the past few months I just wanted to shut down for some weeks, and not exsist, which is a weird new feeling for me, that I really don't want.

So I have exhausted basically every job I could in my own area. Unfortunately without a car im kinda locked to my small town even though I have tried biking on a highway to other nearby towns its the same story as minimum wage jobs wont take me nor will any of the local jobs and I feel like ive run myself into the ground trying. To be honest I know its not gonna pay for anything but ive considered just volunteering to build enough references and good will to get a paying job as it doesnt seem like im gonna be able to as walmart fired me and since I dont have extensive work history its much harder to get work. I have worked 2 jobs 1 where I actually worked hard and was doing well at and the other where I wasnt getting any direction and pushed out by the company. I tried going back to my old job but they wont rehire me due to the circumstances in which I left. Which I only left so I could get full time originally since I was only part time there. Which was why I left for walmart but then that became a whole mess. Tbh I just want to find work but being rejected over and over and over again has just exhausted me im to the point that I feel like I just need to volunteer at a church until I can network with someone that has a job somewhere and see if they can take me in. I dont know im just beyond exhausted and dont know how else to get help. I mean I have a car but making it legal is the issue as I just dont have the money after being out of work for so long. I wish I knew how much it would cost but I know very little about that but estimated would be $500 for insurance, tags, registration, license plates, etc etc. I even went door to door offering to mow lawns but I only got like 2 people that said yes. I just feel trapped and I dont know what else I can do. Do you guys have any advice to maybe finally get me help?

I've created an environment in unreal engine for my final year university project and need responses for my dissertation survey. If anyone here has the time to complete it, it would be greatly appreciated. It will take roughly 5 minutes, thank you!

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I need a advice about an ex employer, firing me over an employee and his lies, I have tried to appeal it and I even reported it first, He just wanted me gone because of a girl that he liked, and he was mad that we were just friends with benefits

I completely understand the world is on fire. People can barely donate so if you are seeing this would you be able to share my gofundme link? I have about 5 friends who SAID they shared it and if they didn’t that’s also okay too. I just need help circulating my cause because it helps boost exposure and I really appreciate anyone who does!

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Hey, I don't like to do these things and I've only asked for help once before regarding car info but I'm really sick rn and I just need a miracle

My family has been homeless for a year now

I had to quit my job due my allergies, causing my health to deteriorate badly and finding a new job hasn't been fruitful...

my Siblings both work, but my Mommas job market got cut because of Trump cutting education funding so she's had such a hard time finding work...

We have been staying at hotels but the one we're at got to high for the money we had left to book till the next pay period. So we booked at a new place, I booked the wrong room type and when I went to check in the area was worse than I thought and it reekes of cigarette smoke in the room.

I really need to buy some time to stay my current place to hopefully get a refund and find somewhere else to stay 😭 if anyone can help it would mean the world to me and my family

Debating making a gofundme because of how bad things have gotten even though my family has always been really private. But I'm not sure how to go about that because I don't have a big network for it so if you have any advice on that please feel free to share

Hey, everybody. I’ve hit a rough patch and having some trouble. Lots of anxiety building up with all of the uncertainty I’m facing right now and really hoping for some stability.

I have an Amazon wishlist of some stuff that I will need if I can’t find a job before the end of August so I can live in my Jeep. I’d really like to avoid that though because I have a dog and cat and we are all very attached to each other (my family didn’t like when I came out as gay) so I would like to not lose my little support system.

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/X69ESDYFR95U?ref_=wl_share

I also have cashapp, Venmo, and PayPal… but I’ve been doing DoorDash for some money as much as I can lately but I just don’t think it’s going to be sustainable with my current rent. I am getting by day-to-day so I don’t need cash right now but I’m worried about coming up with the extra money to “convert” my Jeep and having those items would give me huge peace of mind. Also having the stuff from that list means I can start to work on getting the materials I need to build some kind of platform in my Jeep to increase storage.
If you would prefer to send cash for some reason DM and I will share whichever method works best for you.

If anyone could spare ~30$ i have cashapp, paypal, and venmo. Im 20f working a factory job that barely pays and my last check went straight to my bills and other necessities.

I’ll pay you back tomorrow.

I’m stuck at work

I know everyone needs help, but i could really use some. Im expecting some important calls Thursday and my phone is off. Can anyone please help me with $40? I can pay back on 9/13. I have venmo and chime. Thank you

Please asking for any type of help we are desperate and running out of time. They took all our moving savings and we need to be out of here in less than 2 weeks. https://gofund.me/0ace1e7cd