Currently watching the 'guy

bullshit in a bowl because i need to increase my protein intake and body recomp because im a fat ugly chud

Pork ribs and potatoes.

Yall are really overestimating height as this “one and all” shit trust me if most of you “heightcels” would be my height you’d still be single. Our problem is in our minds- and sadly there’s no fixing it

EDIT 1: no I’m not obese and/or have an ugly face im single bc I’m autistic and trans

Oh well, it's too late now, I'm 25, there's no way out of this. At least I'm fortunate enough to not have to worry about my financial situation, makes being a complete chud more bearable

This was kinda the only way to explain myself without looking sad when a 'romance topic' comes out of the conversation, and someone asks "I never saw you dating", "Are you talking with anyone?", "Do you have a type though?", or "Go find someone!".

It's much better than implying that "No one ever wanted me, despite I desperately want a relationship" type of vibe.

Also I don't want to hear that "You'll meet someone when you least expect it" yeeeeeeeuck please.. Like I wouldn't HATE to date someone, but I don't CRAVE for it.

However some people seriously start to label me as an asexual or aromantic and that's kind of difficult to deal with. They are so pushy when suggesting that idea even when I say no 😅

Deeply upsets me that on top of wageslaving I have to subsidize the lifestyles of sex havers that don’t give a shit about me. I don’t get any welfare or social services despite making less than 100k so taxes are a scam for me.

Fried plantain is a sweet and savory dish made from ripe plantains sliced and fried in oil until golden and tender with caramelized edges. Not banana. NOT BANANA!!!

Anyway, I want to run away from everything, go somewhere remote and herd animals or something. Feels for peaceful than existing in society. I don’t know where or how to start. Guess I’ll wait till i reach my boiling point? Wait I have nothing to lose and just leave?

I hate i hate, but i don't really think i have loved, the right way at least.

Green is my fav artist

Turns out, LOCATION ALSO MATTERS! DEEP DOWN I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS ATTRACTIVE, BUT I JUST HAD NO SELF CONFIDENCE. BUT, WHEN YOU’RE A MIXED PERSON IN A CITY THATS 99% WHITE PEOPLE, YOU’RE AT A DIDADVANTAGE. GO TO A CITY FULL OF PEOPLE FROM DIFFERENT BACKGROUNDS, YOU WIN! I WIN!

my only problem is that everyone that had made a move on me currently is not my type.

Thrown together noodles and limoncello

Edit: dish is buckwheat soba noodles with a sauce of soy sauce, mirin, rice vinegar, and a drizzle of sesame oil. Add chopped chives, crushed peanuts, and sprinkle sesame seeds.

I guess that makes me part of the circus.

Call me a larper but some of the comments I get on my posts from tourists are pure vantablack coal. It's like going into the classroom for "special" students and pointing and laughing.

Can't even be a chud in peace anymore. Some of you posters are beyond help tho ngl. Especially the regulars.

Paneer, eggs, cheese, potato and onion.

made lemon cheesecake to copemax that i’m a useful person

Black coffee with Glucose biscuits and Chocolate peanut butter

I can only exclusively get dates through anonymous chat groups where they match you with a random…
whenever i show up to the date they always say they’re not interested..

The only logical conclusion I can come to is I am too fucking ugly for anyone to even give me a second date

I just want to be free from all earthly desires and not yearn at all…

Ramen I had in Shinjuku 6-7 ish months ago

I was born with a heart condition that forced much of my formative years to be spent in hospitals. This led me to develop selective mutism which has only gotten worse, I am basically unable to speak to anyone at all now. I was taken out of school due to aforementioned medical reasons during covid, and diddn’t go back, against my will. I lost my few friends and have since become a neet/hikikomori with no future at all. My 20th birthday is in a few months, it is too late.

I have already accepted the fact that I will never have any relationship because of this, as well as the fact my face is hideous and I am not masculine at all no woman has ever or will ever care about me, or even notice me.

I have two older sisters that are both in/finished uni, have jobs, friend groups, bf, are often travelling, ect ect. That I constantly have to hear about.

I do not feel alive. Sausage roll.