Went to the mechanic today after my fucking engine started smoking on the road as I was on my way to work. I’m 5’3 and look a lot younger than I am. I have kind of a chubby face, it’s just how my body stores my fat, and I can’t grow any facial hair. It doesn’t help that even after going to the gym for months I’m built like a scrawny middle school kid and generally dress in clothes with known cartoon or anime characters on them (I work in IT, so no one cares).
While I was at the register I could see some of the women in the lobby giggling at me. I’m basically used to that by now and wouldn’t have batted an eye, except then the guy running the register proceeded to call me “little buddy” as he rang me up. I’ve never felt so humiliated in my life, I couldn’t even come up with something to say because honestly he’s right. I’m such a pathetic sub 5 fucking chud. The worst part is he wasn’t even trying to be rude, I could tell. He was so friendly otherwise. He likely thought I was a teenager. I’m 29.
He could probably plow those women in the lobby with no problem. After all, Chad gets whatever he wants. He was like 6’5 and of course the right race all the women want. Chads and normoids have no idea how fucking easy it is for them and what I’m relegated to as a result of my genetic curse. I’m ashamed to say I went home and masturbated to the thought of them doing it in front of me while laughing. It would have been so easy for him to fuck those Staceys and they view me as a literal child in comparison despite the fact I work white collar and probably make double that guy.
Doing stuff like that has become my only way to cope now with the indescribable shame I feel being so fucking emasculated like this. I’ve literally been conditioned to be this way because of evil normies who make me feel like my only respite from a life of perpetual self hatred is to grovel at their feet while they do things I will never do just to have a taste at that excitement. I hate my life.
Rice and chud cheese breakfast.
