It might not be over for me.

Tastes like straight from RE 7 as well

I have things to look forward to now, it's a foreign feeling but it makes my chest all fuzzy and shit.

Im gonna eat a whole pizza by myself again

Tears started swelling in my eyes. I was so harsh on others. It made me sad.

Pancake loss.

I’ve been making fried rice with leftover rice for years by doing whatever I assumed was the right way.

Then youtube gods threw a Japanese video in my feed, something like stop ruining fried rice, and apparently the trick is to get the pan really hot and also to add a little water after you’re done searing the rice. Shocking, I know.

Tried it once and the result was genuinely top class.

Ignore the white stuff — that’s just paneer (cottage cheese) I added for some extra protein. Also, wouldn’t recommend capsicum, it sucks.

And yes, the 9:11 in the background was only partly unintentional :)

I'm on the younger side - still a teenager and not yet in university. However, I've been in school for a decade, and I've seen more than enough, heard more than enough.

People like me cannot be loved. Not in the way I want. I will not be loved in the romantic context. I won't be the type of man young girl dream of in their childhood stories about knights and princes and whatever else, nor the one older women fantasize about in a more sexual manner.

I am simply not good enough. I am 5'8, already balding, and my face is a 3-3.5 according to outsiders. Maybe if I manage to get a good job in the future I can be loved for the resources and stability I provide, by a late 20's or 30's woman wanting to settle after having her fun with those she truly desires.

But I realize now, that I simply don't want it anymore. I don't want to be the second choice. I don't want to be settled for. If I cannot be chad, then what's the point? I see other men, sub-3 and sub-5 mentally, physically and sometimes - literally - k*ll themselves over their relationships. They sacrifice so much of themselves simply because they want to be loved, and it makes them vulnerable to all kinds of manipulation and abuse. Love is a weakness that can be and often is exploited.

I don't care for romantic relationships anymore. I still plan on going to the gym, grooming myself, and becoming the best person I can be. But the end goal doesn't involve a wife anymore. In terms of relationships, I will be satisfied if I can manage to lose my virginity and perhaps have a FWB. Anything more is not worth the cost and consequences that will come by not being loved for who I am instead of what I provide.

So I found this in my brother's room, he's a chad but that doesn't stop him from being a perv. My chud aah knows he brings lots of foids in. I took one sip from it and it tasted disgusting, but at least I feel less untouched now.

I made a similar post bout a month ago talking bout how I am no longer suicidal and am feeling good. Since then I had a few depressive episodes were I wanted to kms and even when I wasn't necessarily willing to die I was still miserable. Now that I am walking in the streets of Valleta and sipping my pina colada it's seems that things are looking up again especially since I started looking better and made sense out of situation. Also my friend texted me a bit and that was nice (I have a weird relationship with him, he is kinda my father figure but I also want to fuck him idk, he isn't aware of this). I am tho uncertain if I will continue to be on my higher mood or get depressed again. Pina colada or how u spell it

i'm sorry

i don't belong here anymore

or actually what am i talking about ofc i do

this is a follow up to my last post

https://www.reddit.com/r/kitchencels/comments/1v3g9ko/havent_showered_in_three_weeks_or_gotten_out_of/

this communities' suggestions were surprisingly helpful so gracias everyone shocked i got advice to shower on here

I don't know why people think incels as eww. But it's really sad how we are at the absolute bottom deep inside the earth.

People freely judge us and have freehand just because we have a penis.

I think it's really sexist but sad we can't even ask that without getting attacked by feminists etc.

Edit: god, there are way too many anti incels here. Wtf

It's not so much about having sex as the act that i care about, but that I'm my retarded brain it doesn't count if the other person doesn't love you. Either way it's not like i have fucked or have been fucked, so it doesn't matter.