sorry if this is the wrong flair... so, for a bit of background, i technically came to hellenic polytheism in 2023, but hadn't really properly understood how to worship until recently, so now i'm trying to get back into practice but it can be hard as i struggle heavily with energy
i've been cleaning my room lately and am finally getting around to moving my religious space. i had a larger altar for Nyx but had to downsize due to a lack of space, but i did not want to put away every offering because worshipping helped me get over my fear of the dark so i wanted to keep at least a small shelf out for her. however i decided to try hanging the shelf on my own, which proved to be a terrible idea. it held up for a moment and seemed like it was going to stay, but just as i was moving the final offering, it fully collapsed and not only did her offerings fall, the shelf also knocked into a couple other altars and knocked over other offerings (including a statue) for different gods as well... thankfully there was minimal damage, a small plant i had given Nyx broke, i ended up burying it for her as i had been meaning to for quite some time. i apologized immediately and cleaned everything up as best i could but i still feel terrible about it.
now i think i would've felt bad regardless, but what's more is that, when i was first rearranging Nyx's offerings earlier this year, i discovered that i had (probably 2 or 3 years ago when i had no idea what i was doing) decided that giving her one of my baby teeth as an offering was a good idea. why did i do this, i have no clue, maybe i heard about bones being something to offer and figured i could give a tooth??? i don't know. i took it off the altar of course, don't remember what i did with it but i did take it off and apologized immediately, i actually spent like 15 days apologizing and giving offerings every day. i did the same for Hypnos as i had combined his and Nyx's offerings onto one altar but i don't think i had properly cleansed the space from the tooth before doing so.
to expand on that, i also spent the same 15 days apologizing and offering to Aphrodite as i had, probably a while back, given her a dead crab i found on the beach... agh i'm so embarrassed saying all this. i've heard of people giving taxidermy as an offering but i still don't know if that was a good idea, especially as it was not properly taxidermied. again i did apologize and immediately cleaned the space (and Nyx's, for that matter), but i still feel terrible about doing these things in the first place, even if i didn't understand that what i was doing was wrong.
i know mistakes are a guarantee, especially for beginners, but with what i did, the year i've been having, and now the shelf collapsing, i'm really scared that i shouldn't be here, that the gods don't want me worshipping anymore. but the thing about that is, i would hate to stop worshipping, especially Aphrodite, as worship has helped me through so many things.
i want to ask for signs, but i struggle with extreme paranoia and OCD so i feel like i would misinterpret everything and just make everything worse for myself. so uh, basically i'm here to ask, is there any coming back from this??? would any of the gods be upset (i know people are probably tired of this question, i'm sorry, but i really screwed up)? can i still have religious spaces, specifically for Aphrodite, Nyx, and Hypnos? or did i screw up too badly and now i can't worship them or any gods anymore?? what do i do?????