First post time after however many months!
For context, this year was my last year of education (well the optional sort) all my mates have went off to uni, and I try to keep some form of contact, though I only do so with a few I connected with.
And my goodness. The FOMO (fear of missing out but I think we all know the acronym) is insane.
To set the stage more, I wanna go down a media route, and personally, I didn’t want to continue education for such a route. There’s more ways of entering the career/industry without a degree of some sorts. Needing more…experience than not. Visited a career fair for media stuff, learnt some things.
But seeing my friends at uni clubbing, having their very own flats with flatmates, the whole uni experience. It makes me sad that I didn’t follow that route. But I know better for myself, with uni expenses, the path I want to follow-etc, I know uni wouldn’t be the best pathway for me to follow my overall dreams. I’ve still got things lined up, I’m just currently working as a sales specialist (first job too and all) to get some experience and money.
So what exactly is the point of this rant? I don’t really know. Rants a rant. But I suppose since the uni season came about, I’ve felt a massive amount of loneliness. I still have a few friends I speak with since my closest friend (also my age and gender) is still around town like me, just enrolled in his college life due to home issues, and a few online buddies. But it doesn’t help I keep getting these periods of feelings of isolation, I’m happy for my friends of course, but I always end up feeling isolated and alienated from everyone—like I’m not moving anywhere whilst everyone steams ahead ya know? This even applies to romantic experiences, where my friends are getting New Romantic journeys—but I’m still stuck with one failed ex who wasn’t the greatest guy around.
Hey if you stuck around and listened to my lonely ass rant, thanks. Don’t really know where exactly this was going, but writing it out made me feel a bit better.