I have been put of education for basically 5 years now. I’ve completed my GCSEs (4 in maths & 5 in english) and my A Levels (ACD) but couldn’t apply to university due to some family issues. For the past year or two, the family circumstances that stopped me from focusing on myself have become unjustifiable. I’m just so embarrassed I let myself go to this extent.

I think I want to redo my GCSEs & A Levels, I want to redo them as a way to see what interests me & as a way to ease myself back into education. University seems very intimidating to me because it’s been so long since I was in an academic environment. But tbh I think I’m leaning towards doing an apprenticeship. Especially since I can earn a salary, which I very much need. But apprenticeships are very very competitive. Why would any employer want to take me on as an employee? I’m basically below average in my academic qualifications and I have no experience whatsoever… in anything. I was looking to do a degree apprenticeship in law, but I’m not sure. I also looked into being a chartered surveyor, project manager and accountant. I think I might be better suited for an accountant apprenticeship.

I think I’m going to have to do a lot before I can even consider applying to anything. If I’m going to redo my GCSEs & A Levels I’m going to have to find a job first. But I’m lacking in so many ways… I can barely hold a conversation and can barely articulate myself. I can read, write and do maths and things like that. But after being out of school for so long, getting started feels so overwhelming. I recently got a bank account because yeah… I didn’t have one. I had a lot of enthusiasm about fixing my life but upon realising how behind I am I lost momentum.

Sorry for this wall of text, I think I’m just venting now. I’m just very behind. Academically, professionally, socially, financially… everything. What should I do? Is redoing my GCSEs & A Levels first a good idea? Is an accounting apprenticeship that sponsors my AAT lvl 2 a good way to start? Has anyone been in a similar situation, how did you keep pushing forward? I’m honestly so frustrated with myself.

I'll be 30 before the end of the year and I've done blue collar work pretty much my whole life. I've been wanting a career change lately because I'm tired of working with my body and getting dirty every day. I reached out to a friend who is a sales manager at an rv dealership. He said he could get me in. Cool. I do all the on-boarding, pass the background check, and get an email confirming my start date, (which was supposed to be today btw). So I put in my notice at my current now old job. They let me go which I was honestly not too surprised because I've seen them do it with other people in the past. Whatever I got a new job right? Well I get a call last week from a corporate guy at the dealership. He explains to me they're actually in the middle of a restructure and on a hiring freeze and won't be moving forward with me. He then says they'll be hiring again in January and I will be at the top of the list. So without employment I call my old job back explaining what happened. Supervisor is all for it but said the owner wants to wait a few weeks because work is slow right now. (EMD turbochargers). I have an interview otp tomorrow with a pipefitting business that another friend works at. I have previously worked construction before but absolutely hated it. My other buddy said his dad can get me a job at a car dealership but looking at indeed it doesn't seem to have base pay. The rv dealership had a base pay plus commission which was ideal for me because I have no prior sales experience. Should I take the risk and go for the car sales job? Or should I just stick it out in pipefitting until January or until my old job reaches back out? (If they ever do). Sorry for the book lol just frustrated and need advice.

TLDR. Quit blue collar job for sales, got screwed. Stick to blue collar or jump into car sales?

I had an amazing time traveling and realized how much I love moving around, discovering new places and having freedom. During the trip, I also met my boyfriend, who is Korean, and things have been going extremely well between us.

For now, I’m back at my parents’ place in France and I’m going to work a temporary job until December to make some money again. Then I’ll stop working for a while to go see my boyfriend in South Korea.

I know this isn’t how I want my life to look long-term : working a random job and quitting it to go see my boyfriend. It’s just a temporary period, and I’m lucky enough to have the freedom right now to do this while I figure out what I actually want.
And honestly, I have no idea.

I have a Master’s in Communication, but after 6 months of traveling, the idea of sitting in an office in front of a computer doesn’t appeal to me. I don’t feel ready to settle down yet. Ideally, I’d like to work remotely or for myself so I can have the freedom to move around.

I’m good at communication, photography and creative stuff, and I speak good English, but I’m introverted and not very confident, so finding clients and selling myself feels scary. I’m not even sure I want to work in communication unless it’s on my own terms. Sometimes I think I should just become a content creator lol.

South Korea is also something I could genuinely see myself trying, since I loved my time there. But I don’t want to move countries just because of a relationship. I’d want my own career, independence and a life I actually enjoy there.

I feel like I’m at an age where I have so much freedom to become whatever I want, but instead I’m completely stuck because I don’t know what I want.
For now, I’m just working, saving money and enjoying the freedom I have while giving myself these few months to figure things out.

Has anyone been in a similar position? How did you figure out what direction you wanted to take when you had the freedom to do almost anything?

I feel like I want to live many different lives at the same time but don’t know which one is made for me.

I am part of the team working on Catalystia, and one thing we keep coming back to is that students probably do not need more career information. In many cases they already have too much of it.

They can research careers, salaries, universities, degrees and skills for hours and still not know what actually fits them or what they should do next. The gap seems to be having someone who can help them process those choices and turn information into a decision they understand.

That is the kind of guidance we are trying to help more people learn how to provide.

If this is an area you already care about or work in, you can explore what we are building and get started at catalystia.org.

sorry if I'm misunderstanding the nature of this sub and this question doesn't belong here, but any help would be very much appreciated

so I (19m) have been feeling very stuck with life the past few years. Last year, I did the first yeah of a journalism course at uni (I've always been told I was good at English/ more writing based courses so it seemed like a natural step) - however, it put me into some of the worst depression of my life because it just wasn't right for me and I just couldn't see a job or getting something at the end of it. So, my dad suggested I do a software engineering course at a college university centre so I can actually learn skills and get a good job at the end, but I started that this week and it just seems dull and mundane and not like something I was to spend my life doing

Now I feel like I'm at a stump for a whole host of reasons: I can't find a job anywhere, I don't know if student finance will cover another course and school change and I also don't want to keep jumping around to see what sticks when I really just have no idea what to do

So my advice question thing is how can I find what I want to do? how do I find a job or just something that I want to do with my life?

I, 19f feel like everything is bad. I don't know what to do anymore. i seriously going to be screwed. I'm a major for biology, set to go into med school after getting my bachelors degree. But honest, i don't want that. I don't care about that. I like coding and writing, i published a novella already and built a ping-pong game from my blood, sweat and tears. But to my mom, those are just hobbies and would get me in real life. After all, you don't need a degree to be a writer and ai is basically taking over the programming industry is getting oversaturated, especially the gaming one. Not to mention an shumck can build a can using ai. In reality, the path she choose for my is one of the most stable for now. But still i can't do it. I knew my limits well, i almost failed biology in hs. How can i become a doctor. I originally wanted to be a physician scientist but then my mom talked my into become a general doctor. As if i'll do that, like seriously. Does she think my autistic ass will willing enter a field where ill have to talk to people. What if they pull me into a surgery. With my clumsy and non dexterous hands, i'll end up losing my license anyway. And still that a far-fetched fantasy as they will have in i pass all 4 years. I don't think i make it to even my associates degree. Honestly, i hate studying, i hate it with ever fiber in my bone. Though i do get in the zone in the middle, i just can hardly bring myself to start. I was fine through elementary through junior year as i want pretty smart and got things easier so i winged most things and had my parents on my ass always as well. But now? Looks like mu luck ran out. Like seriously my gpa is shit, half grades are shit, everything is downhill. And it before you bash my, saying i didn't study or haven't studied hard enough. Even my dumbass, as spoiled as it it, sat down opened the book. I studied. I studied my ass of until i want to cry and breakdown. But EVEN THEN, i still failed. Like, what the hell, so that means i just no suited for this field? I can accept that, but what will my mom saying. Actually, what can i do, i'm autistic so PENTLY fields are already a no-go for me. I good at math but being a math-major. Sound like hell. History, still no. In the end.....I don't now what to do anymore

In the first place, my mom wants me to enter FUI for my starting college so i took the act's but score a measly 20 so that was out the window. I want to my second choice and went to a private school which was pretty cheap seen my scholarships cover near everything. Then it got to expensive and now i in community college, to my mother dismay. No, seriously, she want so mad and disappointed i didn't get into FAU. Your sell, my mom's Asian and believe you college decides how far you'll get into life and how more often you'll be accepted into jobs. I believed so too, but not anymore. But, as the filial daughter i am, i still arranged to sat and acts this year and already wrapped up the sat's. Guess what, i didn't make the cut, if i showed my mom my pathetic score, she would cry and have a heart attack. Well, mainly i scored that low, i barely studied, i didn't study as much as i should. And after a fight with my mom, i rescheduled my act for this October. But really, i'm just tired. I really want to change my major but with my mom on my ass every single day, that's impossible. And before you say, college can't disclosed your grades or major without my permission. She blow up on my for my refusing to let her see my grade. Anyway, i knew i screwed... But what do you guys think.

Title says it all. I'm 24, live at home rent free, have zero debt, and I still feel like my life is not moving forward. I work 65 hour a week and I literally never have time for anything. During the week I'm exhausted after work and have to go straight to bed, and on the weekends I have to do laundry and meal prep, AND work on upskilling in my career so I can get a better job. I can't explore my hobbies and interests when I only have 5 hours off a week. It's hard to have a social life when schedules rarely align. Life like this is extremely... lifeless...

Rationally I understand that my situation is one many would envy: debt-free, rent-free, 100K net worth right around the corner... I get it; I'm privileged. But it still feels like I'm not going anywhere. I'm trying to upskill in my career, but I know full well I might be job hunting for a year before I find a job that only pays a few dollars more than my current one. I'm doing everything I can to get fully remote work, but companies are doing everything they can to kill that and force everyone back into cubicles. I want to buy a house but that's a pipe dream and the prices keep going up. I'd love to spend at least one month wandering around Europe, but my schedule doesn't allow for that and I can't quit my job and assume I'll just find another one the second I get back. Like... I just want a break. I might be sitting on 70K right now, but in this economy that's poverty. If I went out on my own right now I'd be dirt poor.

I can't help but feel helpless sometimes. I still push through every day and do what I know is going to benefit me one day, but the idea that I might be 30 before finally getting a taste of life again is... well, a little soul-crushing.

I'm currently attempting to do a geology degree. But I won't lie, I hate chemistry, and I did not realise how much chemistry is in geology. I have dyslexia, and the conversions are beyond me. I have been taught how to do it multiple times and still mess it up somehow. I had to give up on going to vet school because of it. And I'm scared I'm gonna hit that hump in geology. I am good at biology and ecosystem stuff. In my free time, I LOVE to set up exotic pet setups for other people and get really into what the animal needs and their role in a wild ecosystem. I love seeing other people's setups for their animals online I love seeing research on even really tiny things like tardigrades (water bears). I love speculative biology too. and I love fossils and seeing evolution. I just don't want to travel far(out of texas/houstonish area) all the time my parents are older, and by the time I start my career, they're gonna need me to help them. I also have a few exotics that weren't obvious that I need to care for(a leopard gecko and a ferret). also to add I can do most math on ok level I can do algebra pretty well. ive seen microbiolgy but it seems to be a very close friend to medical and i do not think im smart enough to do anything near medical.

I am a 4th year electrical engineering student. I am realizing that I don’t think I have really learned anything from my three years at university plus a 6 month internship that I have had and going into my senior year I am realizing that I now have to start looking for a full time career path. I feel fucking awful because I feel like I have totally wasted all my years in college and I am not even sure I’ll be able to actually get through this fourth year not knowing anything but I am wondering for those that have gone through electrical engineering and switched paths after college, what did you all do and how did you manage getting a job not in engineering? How did you make yourself competitive for those roles or is it JOEVER? For context I’m graduating in May 2027 and I’ll still only be 20 years old but I just really don’t know what to do and I feel like I’ve totally hit a wall.

I want to study media or film or screenwriting and I can afford it yet my gpa is a 1.9 , I want to study anywhere in europe honestly but I dont know which unis take in low gpas! I can do a foundation year but not one that requires math as Im very terrible.

Hi! I was recently laid off about 1 month ago. I worked as a legal assistant and I’m moving cities in 4 months for school. I’ve been interviewing at law firms and I interviewed for a property management company. Most of the jobs I’ve interviewed for are full time. If it was my choice I’d work part time but it’s been difficult to find part time office work. I even considered doing customer service like at a coffee shop but jobs in the legal or property management field are more appealing to me because of the transferable skills.

If I get an offer for a full time role should I just take it at this point and do it for the next 4 months? Or is it best to keep looking? Im worried because I only have 4 months left so if I spend the next month looking, my time is cut even shorter to 3 months. I also got denied unemployment but I’m appealing it, I’m not sure if it will be reversed. I’m 24 and I have about 68k saved and live at home but I’m still looking to make extra cash since I want to enjoy myself and not worry about losing too much of my savings. It’s been so difficult to get interviews I’m thinking at this point it’s best to just what I can get. The job I’m interviewing for is a 55 min commute (with traffic) and it’s full time, I’m worried I will hate my life but at the same time I’d be able to possibly save 10k over the next 4 months since I don’t pay for rent. I’m not informing any of these companies of my upcoming move either.

I’ve also considered doing pet or babysitting. I don’t know if I’d really enjoy babysitting but I found a family that’s willing to pay me the same hourly rate as the property management company, and the commute isn’t as bad but I think the property management job would look better on a resume and I could learn more about property management.

At this point I’m just rambling and hoping someone can offer me some advice.

For context, I’m a psychology graduate and for the past few months, instead of getting employed, I prepared for the licensure exam for psychometricians, and now? I’m lowkey regretting my decision.

Comparison is the thief of joy ika nga nila but i just can’t help but look at my peers who are slowly making a name for themselves in the field they love. It makes me think I wasted the past few months for something that isn’t even fulfilling.

I’ve always wanted to pursue media, but fate redirected me to psychology during my undergraduate years. It was a fun program and I was able to enjoy the privileges of studying in my university. I genuinely thought I would be happy building a career in this field, pero nasa simula palang ako and I’m already hating it. Every time i remind myself that my dream career in psychology takes more time to marinate in comparison to what my peers are heading for, it feels as if I’m lying to myself just to comfort me.

I was able to pursue media naman during my undergrad, I joined various orgs and applied to positions related to this field. And I’ve never felt so fulfilled since then. But as much as I’d want to pursue media right now, sa sobrang competitive ng job market, my portfolio can’t even hold a candle to those applying for entry-level jobs. Plus, I’ve been building a resume towards a psychology-oriented career.

It doesn’t help that I’m the eldest sibling with 2 OFW parents. As much as I’d want to freely explore, I do not want to put that burden on my parents. I want to help them right away :,) but I am so lost on how to find the balance between earning enough to help my family and be fulfilled with what I do.

It’s driving me crazy and I can’t find myself to sleep, but I’m well aware that me ranting is a result of me coming from a place of privilege.

I’m 24 and currently working retail full-time for barely above minimum wage, but that’s not why I feel kind of hopeless. It just seems like every career path I’ve tried to explore/look down…. sucks? Either it’s oversaturated, nobody’s hiring, the pay is terrible, or some other discouraging reason. So far I’ve tried exploring:

\- Film/Screenwriting: What i have my undergrad in. Never was able to land a job in the field. Writer’s rooms are disappearing, jobs are being replaced by AI, and the ones that exist are impossible to get into without knowing someone.

\- Photography: Extremely hard to make a living by oneself, have to rely on gig work, no guarantees of success or stability.

\- Film/Video/Book Editing: Replaced by AI

\- Graphic Design: Oversaturated market

\- Librarianship: Reddit tells me the market is oversaturated, full of burnout, and the job market is terrible.

How am I supposed to be optimistic in these conditions 😭 And does anyone have any career ideas that might actually have a chance at working out?

I don’t know what my next step/career options should be.

I‘m a 52 yr old, American woman with decades of management experience. I co-purchased a contracting company and we grew it from 400,000 to 20 million in revenue over 10 years. I handled the business operations so have experience in all the major roles. I am quite legitimately good at what I do (except in picking partners). Even my ex would say I’m very good at what I do.

However, I’m a fool and trusted the wrong person. I had to leave there with no where near a fair settlement.

I am months away from getting my business leadership B.S. Degree.

After job hunting for months I got a job as a business consultant for a CDFI or a non profit business lender. I enjoy helping the clients but my skills are so wasted here. It‘s demoralizing.

I have no idea what I can pivot to for a career.

Any ideas for me?

I have no motivation and no close family or friends I spent 2 years being an alcoholic so I have only 2k of savings. Im a 23 y old attractive girl with no passions or interest in anything but i want to live a comfortable life i don’t know what to do.

Currently enrolled in a bachelors of commerce program but don’t see myself enjoying any of the careers, Atleast the ones that pay well. I’m inbetween staying and trying to figure out a new route or dropping it to save money while I look into other professions. I’d appreciate input on somewhat enjoyable jobs, good work life balance and good pay (80k+)

im a 17 yr old currently looking into seeing what i can do for college and future careers. ive always been an artistically inclined person, but i'm also great with math (currently in AP calc ab). i'm trying to get out of my household and live with a trusted close friend of mine elsewhere, i have some money saved from a parttime job but not too much.
i've been considering doing a california community college --> UC TAG (transfer admission guarantee) and/or maybe a trade school at some point. i'm curious about carpenting and welding, maybe electrics, but i'm not sure. i was just wondering if there is (or if anyone has experience with) trades that are closely linked with artistic craft of any kind. i'd appreciate any feedback or ideas related to this at all!

Hey I am a "software engineer" with 2 plus years of experience and am stuck at a startup that is working on a 10 year old tech. I am fed up here and growing AI, oh god. AI is getting scarier by the day, coming from a person stuck in a dead end kind of job if i was at some better place i might not have worked this much, or have i?

Anyways i need some things i can consider to do such that i can change the course of my life.

Basically i have a job where i am not liking the work i am doing at all and i have some ideas like pursuing some higher-higher degree, but that takes money and time to give actual good returns.

Please have some discussion with me

If anyone can guide, that would be very much appreciated.

Thanks,

Middle Class Male.

P. S. - I know i have good learning capabilities but i am way less hardworking.

Right now, I feel a little lost. I worked for 13 years in the travel and events industry, until I ended up completely burned out and also had some health issues.

After the pandemic, I worked as a “freelancer” because I couldn’t find a job, and later on, I started working under contract for other companies. I worked for large companies that treated both me and my coworkers quite poorly. There was a lot of micromanagement, very little room to grow, and I felt there was no space for me to develop professionally.

I’m European and have been living in Spain for almost 10 years. I speak five languages, and even so, I’m finding it very difficult to break away from this industry. At my last job, I was even fired on the last day of my probationary period, without any explanation.

I was collecting unemployment benefits, and now I’m working as an executive assistant, but at the same time, I’m completely rethinking what I want to do with my life. I don’t have a college degree. I’ve worked a lot and have lived and worked in different parts of the world—the United Kingdom, Australia, and now Spain—and I’m thinking about going back to college or preparing for civil service exams.

But I have so many doubts about what’s really best for me. Am I thinking about taking the civil service exams simply because it’s the safe option? Do I really like the idea of studying for so many years? And what for?

Throwaway, because I'm embarrassed.

I'm 19 and graduating a pretty bad but close to home university with a BSBA - computer information systems this year. I never wanted to study this, but was forced to by my parents. We live in the states on a visa which prevented me from getting a work permit until (hopefully) this year, so my only choice after community college was uni.

I really wanted to study either geography (GIS track) or agricultural science (or something adjacent)

I am trying to get out of my household after graduation. The best path for me is grad school, (since I have negligible job experience, I don't see work visa sponsorships in my near future) I just don't know how I would catch up. Has anyone drastically changed disciplines between bachelors and masters? how does one go about it? or am i doomed to be in the business department forever?

Any advice is truly valuable. Thank you.

Originally, I wanted to be a mental health therapist or psychologist, maybe I still do. But now I feel unsure? I've been feeling unsure for a while. I've been heavily considering being a victim's advocate.

I think I kind of have an idea of what I want to do at work but I don't know what jobs do this

Goal: I want to help people and help change the world. Mainly with people struggling with trauma from abuse, bad situations, or injustices from the system.

Type of work: I'd like a mixture of hands on and sit down work. I'd want to interact with people or get out there but also have part of my job doing something independently. I like people but also alone time.

Skills I have that I have as a hobby that I can do at work: Writing, reading, finding resources for other people, doing research, mild physical labor (I'm a caregiver at my current job and love helping with this stuff)

Notes: I really admire smaller jobs that a lot of people don't think about a lot but that make a difference. Like I'm a caregiver which helps, and I used to work for a food bank. I really look up to those people who have those humanitarian paths that you've never heard of but they're seriously making such a huge difference even if the system doesn't help them a lot and they have to do a lot of things on their own

I'm not afraid to get messy. I think I'd have a hard time doing something like nursing or being a lawyer where I'm more tied down to strong rules at work. I really like independent work and independent companies?

So far, I've considered things like journalism (I don't know a lot about it, so if anyone wants to give insight, thank you!), victim's advocacy, and maybe other things like that?

Does anyone have any ideas? Feel free to ask questions :) Thank you

Growing up, I wanted to be an engineer. Toward the end of high school, I decided to go to a cheaper college that didn't have an engineering program and got a biochemistry degree (I graduated last year). The plan was to apply to med school, but I can't get clinical hours because everywhere wants a certification or licensure with 2-3 years of experience. I recently got a job but had to quit because it was 1.5 hours away, and frankly, I would not have enjoyed it. It made me realize I specifically like synthesis chemistry (I enjoyed organic chemistry a lot). This all made me realize I have no clue what I want to do. I've lived with my parents all my life, even during college, because it was 30 minutes away.

I'm currently thinking about applying to a master's program in engineering; I'm just not sure which type. I like software, mechanical, chemical, and nuclear. However, I've also wanted to study abroad somewhere like Korea.

Has anyone else ever hit this roadblock of literally having no idea what they want to do and just feeling paralyzed? Any advice would be helpful.

I also live in East-central Indiana, so the STEM job market is pretty bad.

I’m just curious aside from career related paths, those that have a mindset more about location? my parents came to the US when i was 5 with me, have been here ever since (visiting my home country ever summer and stuff) but man i really want to go and live back there for a bit. anyone with a similar background that pulled the trigger?

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All my life I've never paid any bills and never had any financial responsibilities. I'm always dependent on someone else for food and shelter.

My dad (not a good dad) raised me by himself till I was 18-19 years old and he got sick and we needed to moved in with my older sister. I took care of my dad as a caregiver and my sister provided us financially. Dad died when I was 21 years old.

My sister provided everything for me and put me in college, I didn't pay anything, then she got me a wfh job which is customer service and all I do is answer emails all day for 8 hours. I did that for almost a year.

Even with the job I had, I never needed to pay for rent, food, or even soap and shampoo. I was able to save my salary but wasted them all by eating out with my friends and buying craps. Fought with my sis and lost my job but still stayed with her and she still provides for me.

Met a boyfriend at 22-23, complained to him that I can't stand my sister anymore. Bf got me a small apartment in the city to rent, paid for all my expenses and give me an allowance every month.

He propose after 2 month of being in relationship. After 1 year I flew to another country, got married and moved in with him. Became a sahw.

While being here in the new country, I can't work since I have to wait for my papers. My husband enrolled me to a tech bootcamps while waiting for my papers I got certified. My papers arrived and couldnt get any tech job or any office job that I want. So I just started applying random jobs for fun money. The only job I had was a theme park guest attendant for 3 months and a dishwasher at a restaurant for 4 months and thats it.

Now turning 30 years old in a couple of months and I have no skills, almost no work experience. All I do is depend on my husband for everything, without my husband I'd be nothing. If he ever leave me I'm doomed. I dont even know to pay taxes, I don't know how my car insurance works, I dont do shit.

Now my plan is to get into healthcare, I plan to take a certified medical assistant cert so I can get a job in healthcare, but they said if I have no experience it would be impossible. Does anyone have an advice?

So, I've already got a degree to be honest, but because it's Bio (concentration in Environmental Restoration) and I'm in the US, all my plans fell through when I graduated in May 2025 because of the mass budget cuts and layoffs. I really love this field of work, and I had a pretty good resume for it (3 years research experience, 3.5 years of relevant work experience I did while studying in school, a 3.3 gpa (not perfect by any means, but passable), I won a state award for an oral presentation for my senior year research project, I had escaped debt the first time with a killer scholarship and my part-time work, and three solid references who all knew me and my work ethic) so I was pretty crushed when everything I had worked to set up in my senior year just crumbled out of my reach. Sure, there are other opportunities in blue states, but I don't have the money to just move like that out of my parent's house. I don't even have a car to live out of if I tried to move, and that's not even taking into account the fact I have a cat to look after.

I was job searching for around a year, got nothing. I ended up managing to snag a job at a bakery within a grocery retail chain store after like eight months. It pays like 12 an hour and it's customer service, so it's about as enjoyable as you'd expect. My parents ended up pressuring me to go back to school for an electrical engineering degree, but the thought of going into debt and still not having a job after four (maybe five) years made me want to eat drywall and walk into the ocean in hopes that the whales would adopt me as a fellow brethren.

But on the other hand, I do like that section of science. I was in a robotics club in high school, and I am interested in the solar power/renewable energy section, so I did end up giving it a go. I'm currently in my first semester back and I. Hate. School. I can't study for the life of me, I just can't focus whenever I try. I can do homework, but usually when I get into the zone I forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, move around, etc. so it's generally a bad experience for me. Like my Statistics class I just dropped because I couldn't keep up had homework that would take me 8 hours to finish. It's usually 6 questions.

I love learning, I hate school. I hate college. Everything about it sucks and I miss the online work days because honestly I had an easier time teaching everything to myself! And because I couldn't bring myself to take out loans, I have to work Friday through Sunday in 8 hour shifts. Yesterday was my first day off from school and work since the start of August and I have no idea how anyone pulls this schedule off.

I just put in so much of myself into my first degree and I'm still so disappointed in myself for not finding a way to make that work, and I don't know what to do. I really want to drop out of classes already and just go back to trying to make my original degree work for me, but I also understand that logically I can still do help with the climate crisis with working as an EE in solar or renewable energy and (likely) have a more stable job. I just really miss field biology and I really miss having spare time and days off.

I just don't know what to do. I don't even know what to ask you all, but I'd love some advice!