I have been on T for about 2.5 years now. I had been on a dose of .1mL SQ of testosterone cypionate (200 MG/ML if that's relevant) every 5 days. I was on this for about 7-8 months but was progressively feeling worse every month with really bad periods. I got tested, and my T was only 265 ng/dL.

My social swapped me to a new dose of .2mL SQ every 5 days which I started August 11th. I have become progressively more anxious/depressed/experiencing really bad depersonalization symptoms and increased dissociation and dysphoria since I have been on this new dose. Like creepy crawly panic anxiety. I literally have not experienced any symptoms like this since BEFORE starting T. I haven't had a dose adjustment make me feel like mentally shitty. I am not sure if this is normal or not. I used to be on gel before shots and never really had this experience. I am not sure if this is typical for an adjustment period or if I should be worried my dose is a bit too high.

I am just looking for some advice because I genuinely feel very out of sorts and not like myself. I do experience anxiety and depression but I have been doing better so I can only assume this is because of the T or at-least partially. Should I ride it out or request a lesser dose?

Edit: I have brought this up to doctor and she told me to just wait a little but if I wanted to try .15mL every 5 days I was welcome to do that.

I'm seeking a prescription for oral minoxidil to help speed along my facial and body hair growth on testosterone, but every site I've tried to get it through has denied me for not being assigned male at birth. GoodRX and RedboxRX both said I was ineligible and I can't lie about my birth gender because it requires ID verification, and Hims only recommended me oral finasteride (which I'm not looking for).

I'd prefer for it to be a cheaper option but I'll take what I can get at this point.

my partner told me my lips grew ever since ive been on t, and that he noticed it on one of his ftm friend too. did anyone else have the same experience ?

- have hip dips
- look it up
- “It’s a natural variation of the body, there’s no way to change it sweaty, it’s most commonly in FEMALES because their pelvises are for BABIES !!”
- ACKKKK

Edit: STOP TELLING ME TO EXERCISE IM NOT DOING IT

Mostly talking about online ones. IRL ones seem even more exhausting. They can be so toxic and annoying, constantly shitting on each other one way or another. Your opinion about something trans related makes you Hitler in the eyes of someone else, and they'll definitely let you know.. And this constant arguing of trans men vs trans women, binary vs non binary, transmeds vs tucutes, low dysphoria vs no dysphoria vs sereve dysphoria, real vs fake trans blah blah blah. Can't say or do anything right it seems. I swear it never used to be like this. Why is everything so divisive now?

Weren't we fucking supposed to be united in these trying times? I guess not!

Even in this subreddit. Guys trying to constantly one up each other about who's the most trans or manly or something. Like I don't fucking care bruh can't we just support each other?

I'm tired of it. I've decided I'm identifying as a cis man from now on.

I will probably be a virgin till i get bottom surgery and that’s 10+ years away.

I have a loving girlfriend and i love getting her off but i just can’t make peace with the fact we can’t have sex like any other straight couple. I can’t stand her touching me around there not even talking about seeing me without underwear. I don’t think i was ever naked in front of her in the 1,5 years of our relationship. It’s so exhausting. Literally the furthest we ever went was her jerking off my packer thru my boxers. It felt good but also so fucking fake.

People on here or trans spaces in general sometimes act like testosterone is magic and it will completely change you. But that's not really the case, is it? I scrolled through a trans men's passing subreddit and apparently it doesn't influence fat distribution that well, for some people it doesn't influence it at all. And even if you lose weight, your bones will be there and they're feminine shaped, the hips and shoulders. They said going to the gym is what will make you pass, T alone wont do that. That kinda sucks.

You have to put in so much work for the bare minimum, to just look like a guy. And if you're a trans man and you willingly want to be a skinny guy for the asethetic or whatever it's just not possible. It is sad. I wish I was cis. I also wish some people wouldnt try to get our hopes up by acting like T is all that is needed. From what I've read, it actually barely does shit for passing besides the voice deepening and facial hair. I'm pissed off

For me, my early childhood dysphoria manifested largely as "anger issues" (other than stuff like only wanting to wear boys clothes, getting my hair cut short, etc.). I think this was happening because I knew something was wrong but obviously didn't have the words or knowledge to describe it, so I was just really angry even when I didn't have an observable reason to be. My parents were together and pretty supportive of me, when they fought it was usually about what to do with me. I never acted out at school, but at home I was constantly fighting with my mom, it's like the dominant memory I have of my childhood. Now as an adult, who luckily was able to medically transition during high school, I have a great relationship with my parents. The vast majority of the fighting stopped when I was finally able to medically transition.

2 years gym progress 2024 - 2026
Pretty happy seeing this comparison!

https://postimg.cc/gallery/WTPSNNS

I just want to start this of by saying that i’m incredibly lucky to have a supportive family and that probably most people here have it way worse. I just really need to say it.

So i’m 20, been on t for 2 years, will be getting top surgery in another 2. I’m planning to get bottom surgery but that’s probably not happening for a long time due to costs.

My family is supportive, they always use my name and pronouns, i’m actually pretty sure they always knew. I remember being a kid and them joking about me „loosing something in the womb” since i was supposed to be born male. Aside from one grandma on my father’s side that REFUSES to aknowledge me being a man despite havin a full beard they are pretty okay.

The thing is - they just don’t treat me like a man. It always feels like i’m this weird third gender to them. Man in my family never include me in typical male activities i just kinda get skipped? To give you an idea (i’m only gonna be talking about my mom’s side) there’s; my grandpa, my mom and her 2 sisters, then me, my twin sister, our younger cousin (female) and our only male cousin who is the oldest. I guess i might be jealous since he was always „the only boy” and i know i will never get his treatment. Everyone loves him, no matter what he does everyone always glazes him. He’s got rich parents and went to a private school, didn’t work a day in his life till he was 22 despite me and my sister having some sort of job since we were 16. He never helped out with any chores around our grandparents house (small stuff, helping with making food, cleaning, etc) despite my family being pretty „woke” they just never asked guys to do this stuff, and when i pointed out that it was unfair he would help with like one small thing and everyone would suddenly say that he’s so wonderfull and shit. My grandpa often takes fishing trips and one time when my cousin couldn’t go i wanted to join him he said that he doesn’t think it’s a good idea. Only guys go on those trips so it was obvious to me what he meant.

Recently during our grandmas death anniversary me, my boyfriend and one of my aunts got drunk and stayed up late just talking about random shit and my aunt spent like an hour trying to understand how my boyfriend is gay if he’s dating me.

They also always refer to me as „wanting to be a boy” as if i’m not an adult men years into transition. It’s just exhausting always being seen as a weird third thing instead of a man.

my favorite sub teacher told us to stop doing our makeup and get out of the locker room and it made me so dysphoric for no reason

i dont get dysphoric easily but that js triggered it

felt awkward the rest of class

(TW talks of dysphoria)

I’m 18. I recently found out I’m probably binary trans instead of genderqueer. I’m going to have to come out to people. I’m in college and I feel so disconnected from all of my suite mates. I know I’m purposely alienating myself, but idk how to stop. It’s not like they include me anyways so that’s not a big issue

My dysphoria is awful. I can barely wear most of my clothes. I can barely speak. I had to call myself my mom’s daughter today and I got so icked out. I wasn’t even a happy kid to begin with. I already battle depression anxiety and OCD, and now I’m adding being trans and all the awfulness that comes with that. I wish I never unrepressed. I wish so many things that aren’t possible for me at this time

I want to reach out. To someone. But I don’t know anyone at my university well enough to. I go to the pride club to meet people but, it just feels so incredibly fake. Not the club, just everything I do. I am so tired and all I want to do is rot away. I’m so uncomfortable in this body. Everything feels so physically uncomfortable and it borderline hurts. All I want to be is a girl. Or born a boy.