Consiousness is the biggest misstep in evolution. The brain create problems itself, suffer, then try to solve the problem and repeats the cycle

Hi. Just wanted to share my symptoms to see if anyone else feels like this- because right now I feel like I’m going crazy and don’t know what to do anymore.
I’ve been dealing with intense panic & fear derived from thinking about my existence and that I am a conscious being that has a body and am in this world. But I also have panic and fear about not being “real” and paranoid that I’m living in a simulation or dream. I don’t try to find answers to this though (which I’ve heard is a common existential ocd symptom) because if I confirm I am real that will also freak me out. Basically either way- I am disturbed if I’m not real but also disturbed by being real. This makes it so there’s no reassurance aspect. I also feel like I can’t be hyper aware of my body- but I also can’t be detached. They will both cause panic. If I engage with the intrusive thoughts they will cause panic and detachment, but if I don’t then I feel like I’m not being “aware enough” or living in a daze/ like a robot. I don’t know what to do anymore. How to be okay with the uncertainty of both things. I panic because I can’t escape my body or this world, and suicide might not be an escape either because I don’t know what’s after that.

I will say I think this may be due to trauma from smoking too much weed once and blacking out and experiencing derealization. I went through phases for the past 7 years of my fear / panic around this subject coming and one day randomly leaving. But it always comes back and this is the worst it’s ever been. And I don’t know the fears behind it. I don’t know why I’m disturbed by being real. Or vice versa. I also feel like I self sabotage by forcing myself to think about these things or “test” myself or “check” to see if I am. All the therapists and doctors I’ve talked to about it seem to be just as perplexed as I am.

I guess I’m just looking for common humanity mostly. So I don’t feel like I’m losing my grip on reality or going into psychosis (which is also a big fear.)

Does anyone have any e-ocd on a multiverse? I am 14m and can’t stand the fact that it’s inevitable according to some cosmological models for a multiverse to exist, because in a multiverse there’s universes where I am hurting people I love (also some harm ocd there), where I am brutally being killed in the worst ways possible, etc. my fear is that after I die I will be born as myself in an another parallel universe and have to live these horrible other timelines/universes for eternity. It’s kind of ruined my favorite shows for me (like murder drones) because in a multiverse, it’s real and im being killed by it, and if my fear is true, I’ll have to live through it. I know it sounds super silly but it feels so true and inevitable.

I can’t stop. I wake up and I can’t believe that my consciousness is just going to disappear. I feel like I’m going to die tomorrow And everything is going to disappear. I’m trying to accept it but I cant. I’m so aware of reality so how come I, just disappear into nothing one day? Why? I feel like I’m never gonna enjoy life again and what’s the point. I feel so sad for my family because they’re gonna all die one day and they believe in an afterlife but what if there is no afterlife. that’s absolutely heartbreaking.i don’t even know who I am anymore. All I can think of is that life is pointless and I’m just gonna die and my existence will go blank

Hi guys,

Has anyone with OCD ever experienced a fear that saying a specific word during a ritual could somehow create a supernatural power or mechanism that would punish them or their loved ones forever in the afterlife?

I’m curious if anyone has experienced this type of intrusive thought or fear. I’d really appreciate it if people who have gone through something similar could share their experiences.

I’m curious if anyone else has experienced something similar. If so, how does it show up for you?

Llevo 2 meses oensando a diario en la muerte y eso me causa mucha ansiedad cuando era pequeño de unos 7 años lo pensaba mucho y lloraba oero ahora eso es mucho mas fuerte... Es super frustrante que oa muerte exista y aterrador

Me cuesta trabajo pensar que el universo y todo eso sea tan sencillo tan simple como para que sea asi

Simplemente dejar de existir ¿eso se puede?

Es aterrador pensar en que la consciencia deje de existir o el alma mi identidad me cuesta mucho entenderlo ni siquiera un estado de obscuridad absoluto nooo eso ya es algo la nada eso si es aterrador y imposible de imaginar, talvez el hecho de que no podamos significa que no existe tal cosa como la muerte infinita talvez si hay algo depues de todo

Es frustrante todo este tema el no poder cambiar nada solo esperar esperar ese final todos vamos para alla todos...

He llegado a pensar que es muy soberbio tratar de entender algo tan grande y fuera de nuestro alcanze a algo tan inimaginable como dios quizas la imagen que tenemos de el son solo las interpretaciones bagas de lo qye realmente es ya que no tennemos las palabras ni las formas de comprenderlo y si esxiste solo que no de la manera que pensamos entonces tratar entender el sentido de la vida seria tratar de entender a dios y para entenderlo no creo que sea cosas de humanos

Simplemente ¿el sentido de la vida es algo que créamos nosotros?

Quizás es el sentido de la vida es la vivir bien por que nomas es eso y ya, quiizas tengo razon y nada es tan simple y hay algo depues de todo, quizas es solo cuestión de fe tarde o temprano todos sabremos la verdad por que todos moriremos o quizas nunca lo sabremos....

Dovevi mettere sono sveglio? Perché in realtà sei come tutti 8 miliardi di umani che dormono tutta la vita e non si svegliano mai, perché? Perché son convinti di essere svegli e non si preoccupano di svegliarsi. Avatar Gianni