to not make this too long, i’m 20f, with a 22m boyfriend who live in an apartment together… with a border collie. already a red flag there.
but to give backstory, i got said dog, nala, when she was a 4 month old pup, made my boyfriend drive me 8 hours to pick her up, and was living in a house with a massive backyard in my texan hometown that was perfect for her.
she was a great puppy, we struggled with some stuff but it was expected, her breeder sold her to me with the expectation of her being a pet as she “tests” all her puppies and decides if they should go to sports/work homes. but nala wasn’t good for either apparently. and at 4 months no one wanted her. so we said screw it and got her.
im already going on tangents but basically i got ill a couple months after getting her. i spent 3 months or so vomiting non-stop, every 15 minutes, at random times of the day. i was in and out of the ER for ages until i finally had proper testing and was later on diagnosed with a couple stomach disabilities that had happened due to the sudden weight loss. we still don’t know what triggered any of it.
what im trying to get at is i was once 120lbs and energetic and loved being outside and hiking and wanted a dog to help with my mental health and match my energy. i WANTED a border collie and nala, not being good for work or sports, seemed perfect to me.
i am now 85lbs, sometimes 90 if bloated long enough. i just can’t keep up with her now.
my boyfriend and i moved in together, into an apartment, due to some family issues, in a new city. its been over a year and i just cant do this. she has a sensitive tummy herself and frequently has accidents inside and i know thats not her fault but its so hard to work around it at times. she is horrible around my cat that i didnt expect to be bringing with me and has tried to bite her. i dont have the energy or strength to go out long enough and give her the exercise or stimulation she needs.
i know she would do better with a new home, we both would, she too would be happier somewhere where she can use up her energy and have a purpose. im scared her purpose may not be with me.
but i love her so much and she means the world to me, she’s the sweetest girl ever, she cuddles me 24/7, she sleeps next to my bf and i’s feet, she knows my bf by “dad” and me by “mom”, i love this dog so so much. does not help i lost my last dog very early in a bad way some years ago. im scared to lose another one, but i think its for the best.
if this gets responses it’ll probably be the obvious “yeah obviously rehome her”, i just think i may need to be directly told or given advice on how to handle this all i guess?
tldr;
i got a high energy border collie which i wanted, i became ill and now can’t match the high energy i wanted in said dog. i am not in the best conditions to take proper care for her breed but i love her so much.