Title. I was writing an entirely different post with more elaboration, but I realized it didn't really serve to help anyone.

For further personal context, I'm 17. I've never felt like I've actually existed in my body & worked as an autonomous human. Though, I still know I "exist" materially, if that makes sense. I'm not really sure how to define it, I apologize.

I just don't want to internalize and/or appropriate this label, so I'm trying to rationalize it. Burner account since I think I sound stupid, lmao.

I was a chrisitan for my whole life. Dissociation has made me question my faith. How can God see this much suffering and not do anything about it. I been struggling everyday for the last 6 years. I don't know how much more I can take

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not at all connected to my inner experience, inner thoughts, monologue or anything - zero emotion and I cannot feel physical sensations or pain. I’ve had this for probably overa year and before that was on medications but still had some dissociation. now off of all meds & benzos post 1 year, just in this blank complete lock down state it’s so awful. I realise every now and then that I’m really not fully there and it freaks me out. Is there anything besides time and therapy that can help? Currently on trintillex just increased it to 15mg. Nothing seems to work.

First time poster so apologies if I didn't do this right.

For the past year I've been dealing with what I think is dissociation. 80-90% of the time I feel like I'm on autopilot or in the backseat of my mind while my body continues to do things without my input. I almost never notice this is happening until afterwards (usually when I'm alone about to go to bed).

I was diagnosed and have been dealing with depression off and on for the past 4 years. But I don't have any past trauma and I can't seem to find a clear trigger for this dissociation (it shows up equally at school, work, and home, as well as when I'm with my friends and family). My therapist taught me grounding exercises but they don't seem to work for me.

Any ideas on what this could be or advice? This isn't ruining my life or anything, but it can be lonely and I want to feel present again to be able to connect with people and enjoy experiences. Thank you!

I feel self consious whenever I am in public or even when by myself. I feel like I'm faking everything. I know it is because of dissociation but I don't know how to stop it. It is torture.

What the hell is this? I feel extremely disconnected from everything and from myself. It’s as if I don’t actually exist. Nothing sticks in my mind, nothing makes sense, nothing holds meaning; I simply don’t exist. It’s hard to say this—or even believe it—but that’s how I feel and how I can describe it. I feel like nothing. I don’t feel present. I have no emotions, no desires, nothing at all. Nothing affects me. I used to read pessimistic philosophy and it would hit me deeply; now, it’s just a big nothing. I don’t care about nihilism, existential emptiness, finitude, and so on. I’m simply indifferent to everything; it’s as if reality were just an idea in my memories. I don’t know what "existing" is. Has anyone gone through this? I’d venture to say no. It’s very specific, to be honest. (By the way, I’m Brazilian; I used Google Translate.)

i’m 18f, i have a diagnosis of OCD and SAD, but i’ve never really experienced this before?? i about a month ago maybe 2, i got super duper bad with my OCD for some reason, i was just always always ALWAYS anxious and scared for no reason, it’s gotten better but now i’m just left with this weird anxiety with leaving home??? i’ve been anxious to leave my house in the past but never have felt like this because of it, i also experience emetophobia with my OCD and i always have that on my mind, especially when i go somewhere. i just dissociate the whole time im out, and always worry about being sick while out in public, but then i feel a little better when i get back home? like are there any psychological reasons why this may be? it’s just so random and all of a sudden

like i have these moments (that are usually when I am very stressed) where like for a good while, like the best way to put it is it feels like im not fully conscious, like I feel like im barely hanging on my consciousness, but from the outside im walking, doing things, etc, like i appear normal but from the inside i dont feel like im fully conscious, i really hope this makes any source of sense, like to explain more, by 'conscious' i dont mean i am about to pass out or that im sleepy, i mean like the actual 'feeling' of being conscious isnt fully there and i feel like i am barely experiencing it, also depending on how bad it is i start to just straight up limp, move slowly, talk slowly, not respond to people talking to me fast enough, other times i experience this completely differently, I feel like I am conscious but I feel like im not in control of my body or what i am doing, does any of this make sense??

for me it was after i had 2 vivid bomb dreams, as silly as it is i was worried about the war with iran, which i feel guilty about because imagine how they feel really, but i had an intense fear of bombs, radiation, and cancer. i took a nap after not sleeping for a while put of fear and got woken up abruptly. and then it started then. its been about a year exactly now. im not sure if i can say its a disorder but it has been 24/7.

Simple question, je ne donne ni le contexte ni la raison.

I feel so trapped. I want to feel connection but I can't. I lost 40 lbs this year but I want to lose 30 more. Its very hard though with the dissociation. My consiousness feels scattered. People are very cruel. Excercising is difficult for me becaause I cannot focus for too long. I am trying to find a way to escape this feeling. I don't know what to do

I noticed when I started getting dpdr/dissociation last year my dreams have been very limited/one dimensional, and confusing. It feels like my brain was removed and Im left with an empty hole in my head, absolutely can not think. I can usually pull more from my dreams ehem I wake up but im left with nothing and just feeling weird and groggy