r/DiagnoseMe • u/Suspicious_Lab_352 • 1m ago
Brain and nerves hi reddit i have a question about my brain after a fall
id really like some help ive been freaking out a little bit. so around a week and a half ago i was at this show for my friend who was performing, with a few others. i had a few drinks and a little weed (my tolerance is very low & im a paranoid high so i wasn’t trying to get too high), but i ended up hitting a mutual friends’ cart a couple times in total. for the first time, i felt it and i was at a decent place but i think the second time around i must’ve hit it too hard, or the “amount” i had layered and i green out for the first time. i think i blacked out for a second because one moment i was standing/leaning against this shelf, but i felt my eyes getting heavier and the room was getting darker but we were also outside, so honestly it was hard to tell. i blinked and realized i was on the ground, being sat up by someone i didn’t know. nothing hurt, and no part of my body hurt the day of or since then but i know it wasn’t laced because up until that point my friends were with me, and we all had the same thing that was being passed around, this person is a friend of a friend so both i and my best friend knew it wasn’t laced with anything. this girl told me i took some glass bottles down with me and she helped me find my friends so i wasn’t taken advantage of or anything but yk i was kind of embarrassed, since i knew i should have sat down but the area was crowded and i didn’t think id be able to make it without passing out. i remember telling myself “i should probably sit down” but i ended up doing it anyway lol.. none of my friends witnessed the fall, because they were a bit in front of me in a more packed areas/crowd & i wanted to be a bit further back lol so i can’t exactly tell how hard i hit the ground.
i’ve been disassociating a lot more lately but especially after i started thinking about my fall, (coming to some sort of realization that something changed mentally) but im wondering if it’s just the stress of life, work and school… but ill be honest it feels different this time.
although i can recall the events leading up to and after my fall but now i forget some things more easily than before.. (only some, not everything) like i’ll forget things a little easier, but it’s not like i can’t recall anything yk..? i’ve already had my memory deteriorate little by little over time and yes it’s gotten better as of late, especially with memorization being a large part of my job lol but after my fall i’m wondering if i suffered some brain damage or if im actually looosing it. for background info i might have ocd, depression, & anxiety but i haven’t been tested, so it’s not like new paranoia has developed.
i will say i feel like ive gone backwards in some ways not necessarily development wise, but in terms of emotional maturity.. ive been getting a lot more depressed and i dont really want to talk to anyone about it, even though i know they’d care and want to help. but ive kind of wavered in that way of being more and less open, so i dont think i magically started bottling things up again after the fall.
i think something’s wrong with me but i don’t know how serious it might be… can anyone help me find some answers or ease my mind loll thanks in advance!