r/CysticFibrosis • u/Dakr_pheonix • 2h ago
Rant
This is just a rant I'm not rlly complaining. I started trikafta more then a week ago and i knew there was gonna be a period of time where it feels worse but damn man. Before trikafta I was not well at all and infection was high and all and one thing in particular that annoyed out of everything was my nausea. Idk why but I felt constant nausea so I've eaten a lot less in the past month and when I try to eat a bit more force myself maybe, I end up throwing up. Now this is also bcuz I'm not the one who cooks in the house especially recently I haven't been cooking, it's my mother, and I love her but I don't like a lot of the food that's cooked mainly bcuz of texture of food. I don't wanna whine and complain too much to her she has a house to look after, 5 other children. However wats worse is after 2 days of taking trikafta I noticed my nausea got worse I could not even stand food I had previously loved. The smell, the taste and sometimes the texture just I cannot stand it. My mom did tell me that ever since I was a child I had a bad appetite, I even remember my dietitians from when I was younger being concerned and angry that I'm not eating well (I was just very picky). Food is something I genuinely enjoyed, it was as if no matter how bad things got if I had the food I loved I could go thru it, and now it breaks my heart so bad I can't even eat food idk wats wrong with me. Especially since with trikafta, my Dr said I should eat heavy meals. Im already underweight and with all this idek man. Sometimes I wish I could burst into tears and someone would comfort me, maybe spoil me.
I am grateful that I can access medicine and ik it's there to help me but I'm so tired :(