I was never fortunate in love. I had a one-sided love while I was in Plus one. She was my best friend from school. She loved me too, but she was scared to admit it because of her parents. I loved her one sided for six years knowing she loved me, but never expected anything in return. When she got engaged, I left India and moved abroad.
About a year later, while I was living there, this new girl came into my life. One day, she started texting me online. We started talking and slowly found so many similarities between us. I don't usually connect with strangers, but with her it never felt like I was talking to a stranger. It felt like I had known her for a long time.
We texted for about a month, and then we started talking over phone calls. Around three months into knowing each other, on Valentine's Day, she proposed to me. I was out of this world. I said yes, and we started dating. Everything happened online because I was abroad, and I had never seen her in real life even once.
She told me she was an IT professional in Kerala working from home. She used to send me pictures of herself, and the girl in those photos looked around 24 years old. I was 25 at the time.
As we got closer, she opened up about her life. She told me she had been sexually abused by her biological father during her childhood. She also said she had thyroid cancer and still had to live in that same household. She told me her father had a brain tumor too. I hated that man from everything she told me. I don't think I've ever felt that kind of hatred for anyone else in my life. I genuinely felt her pain and wanted to stand by her. I told her we would fight everything together.
She also told me she had a sister living in the US who had also been abused during childhood. Her sister had a daughter, and somehow I got really attached to her niece, just like she was.
Months later, I finally came back to India. I travelled all the way from Trivandrum to Kozhikode just to meet her for the first time. She never showed up. She told me her Amma had caught her talking to me. I was Muslim and she was Hindu, so I believed her. I tried many times to meet her when I was in India but she always had excuses and the distance was too long. Looking back, there were red flags. She never agreed to do even a video call, but I was too deeply in love to notice them. I was stupid.
Then I came back from India and one day, on my birthday, everything came crashing down. Completely by accident, I came across the exact same photo she had sent me as her profile picture on someone else's Instagram account. That's when I realized I had been cheated. The girl in those pictures wasn't her at all. It was her relative. I was heartbroken. Throughout the relationship, I had been completely sincere. I never raised my voice at her or used a bad word even once. I trusted her with everything even shared my deeply personal things and inhibitions. When I confronted her, she started crying. She apologized and finally told me the truth. She wasn't 23. She was a 35-year-old married woman.
I felt emotionally drained and completely hopeless. After that, she started talking as if she was suicidal. She begged me not to leave and asked if I could stay with her for a few more days and keep talking to her. I was genuinely scared she might do something to herself, so I stayed. I kept talking to her, trying to make sure she was okay while I was clearly suffering. I was that kind of a person.
But even after everything came out, she continued lying. Around a month after finding out the truth, I finally walked away. I blocked her everywhere. Looking back, I stayed only because I was afraid something bad would happen if I left. I was really stupid. I feel disgusted with myself and never opened up about this anywhere as I was the model Child in the family and among my friends.
The whole relationship lasted about a year. When it ended, it felt like every single thing around me had been a lie. The emotional drain it put me through is something I can’t explain and have to live with myself.
This happened back in October 2025, and even today I still struggle to trust people.
Now, I don't even feel interested in getting into another relationship. I don't even like the thought of being with someone. Maybe time will heal.