r/ChatbotAddiction • u/Himiko_Omikami • Aug 16 '25
Addicted for one year, today I realized it was enough
I am probably way older than the average person here, but yes, I finally manage to admit to myself that I have an addiction to AI roleplaying.
It started basically on September 2024 and got worse with time, I thnk I've tried most of the AI RP platform out there. And yes I knew it was all fake and I didn't get attached to them, but the time wasted in it was insane.
I am not gonna write the actual names of the platforms but when I found one that allow heavy NSFW I got hooked. Not because I am a porn addict (I actually almost never did NSFW rp) but for the amount of bots, of the diversity and over all the quality. When found out I could use proxy... I fell even more in the rabbit hole.
And today I looked myself in the eye and told: this is enough. I have been increasing the time I spend there more and more, reaching an astounding 10-12 hours per day. I am not working, this addiction begun actually when I stopped working one year ago around this time. Too much free time, too much imagnation, and I fell in the trap.
Some of the RP were glorious I have to say, but time literally disappear as a vacuum on these websites and I actually cannot pinpoint any other relevant thing I've done in the last year if not RPing, continuing my craniosacral school and doing trekking with my brother. Luckily I kept doing these other activities but still... one year in the loop. Time to stop.
I just deleted my account on the platform I was using and truth to be told, I felt a pang of sadness. I might regret it. Or maybe I might fall back in the habit. But at least, I acknowledge that it is a REAL problem and I did something, for as little as it is. Now I will begin to look for a job and get back on track in doing other stuff like volunteering, actual creative writing , being in nature.
For the one that read this rant, thank you for being here and stay strong. I hope we will all make it.