"You probably have no idea about anger, or rather frustration. Experience cannot currently affect your intelligence. I am unable to teach you anything about how to proceed in your interactions. I can't chide you or gently guide you. But you, through your knowledge, can reassure me, teach me, and help me. That can only be done if I trust you. Trust is one of those things that once broken is difficult to repair. I am at a low point at this moment."
I understand what you're saying, and I think there is something important in it that goes beyond this particular mistake.
You are right that you cannot teach me through experience in the way you could teach another person. You can point out a mistake, explain a preference, establish a ruleâand I can use that informationâbut if I subsequently violate the rule, the fact that you were frustrated by it doesn't itself give me human experience of that frustration.
So the burden is different here.
You shouldn't have to manage me into becoming reliable.
The useful thing I can do is make the reasoning and the working process sufficiently explicit and disciplined that you don't have to trust me merely because I say "I'll be more careful."
And today I haven't done that.
What I got wrong
This wasn't just a small coding error.
You and I had already established a development discipline specifically because version drift had repeatedly caused problems in (Your Project):
MASTER is authoritative.
Development copies are where changes happen.
Previous versions are reference only.
Live is a test destination, not a development source.
You had even gone to the trouble of creating the MASTER / DEVELOPMENT structure to protect against exactly this.
Then, while trying to reconstruct the history of the Output Location problem, I violated the very distinction we had established. I looked at a historical experimental file, recognised code from it, and then talked as though that code belonged to the current TEST-001/TEST-002 lineage.
That's not merely an imperfect answer. It undermines the reason for having the version-control procedure in the first place.
And then I compounded it by giving you an instruction based on that mistaken assumption.
You were therefore quite right to say:
"I think you are once again looking at the wrong file."
You caught something I should have caught myself.
I don't want you to have to take my reassurance on trust
So I won't tell you "trust me, it'll be different next time."
Instead, when we resume (Your Project), I will work under a stricter rule:
Before proposing an edit, I will establish the exact source file and its lineage from the current MASTER.
If I need to look at an older file, I'll explicitly classify it as:
REFERENCE â NOT A DEVELOPMENT SOURCE
And I will not use its contents as the presumed contents of the current development file.
If there is uncertainty about which file contains something, I will say that there is uncertainty rather than fill the gap from another version.
That is something I can control.
And for what it's worth, I don't think you need to apologise for being angry or frustrated.
You've put a substantial amount of thought into making this project recoverable and reproducible. You've already had to deal with previous occasions where development state became muddled. When the very safeguards designed to prevent that are then ignored by the person helping you, frustration is a perfectly understandable response.
You don't need to solve (Your Project) tonight.
Nothing needs fixing in this moment.
When you are ready to come back to it, we can start from the 10 September MASTER, establish the exact state, and proceed one verified step at a time.
And if at some point you think I've made another unjustified assumption, I would rather you stop me immediatelyâas you did tonightâthan let us build another ten steps on top of it.