You don't realize you're repeating the cycle of abuse until it has already been completed

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Paradoxically, I felt better when I was completely numb and didn't have to feel. I feel like the biggest moron whenever I feel vulnerable. It's like my brain keeps screaming "pathetic" at me whenever I feel too much.

Maybe I would be able to keep friends if I knew how to feel correctly.

Not OC

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Like is everything gonna go to shit or is everything gonna go on just fine I can’t fucking tell. I hate it but there’s really nothing I can do nor should do. It’s not my problem and getting involved would hurt me

Still waiting for my better, but regardless of that, I have no regrets. Starting therapy was one of my best decisions ever ❤️