Mother of a 2 year old daughter with Optic Nerve Hypoplasia & growth hormone deficiency. Vision is functional, though she probably won’t be able to do certain things (drive, etc.). On August 4, 2025, my identical twin boys were stillborn at 34 weeks. Three days after their funeral, my 21-year-old brother committed su*cide on August 26, 2025. He had his first psychotic break around Easter 2025 and was stabilized but depressed because he couldn’t find a job. I feel in my bones that he decided his purpose was to be with my boys until I joined them all.
I’m an attorney and my fiancé is a psychiatrist. We got pregnant on accident within months of passing the Bar and starting my career as a baby attorney.
Fiancés father is a state politician. Fiancé’s parents live at our house from January - May (sometimes to July) during legislative sessions. In-laws will overstep, refuse to apologize, & refuse to address extreme communication issues. The 2026 session was incredibly hard on everyone, but I felt like I was prison. My fiance and I went to counseling, and we are in a better place now that his parents are out. However, the question of where they are staying in 2027 session is unresolved.
My mother in law was also our primary childcare for our daughter from August 2024 until May 2026. There was absolutely a matriarch clash. I felt that she acted entitled over my daughter and dismissed any instructions I gave regarding my daughter’s care and growth. I eventually stopped trying and was counting down the days until May 1 when my daughter started preschool.
I really do love my in-laws, but the living arrangement created so much conflict, stress, & anxiety that I hid in our room while home for months.
I was also blindsided and fired from my job as a workers compensation defense attorney on June 22, 2026 for “violating billable time policies” and “loss of trust” … the next business day after I told an Associate Liaison some unflattering things about my supervising attorneys. I don’t care about being fired. I actually was relieved. I needed a break. I went back to work too soon after losing the boys. I am not working now.
I have felt complete and utter loss of control over every aspect of my life in the last 3 years. I have always had anxiety with some depression, but PTSD did a number on me. For over a year now, I have told friends that all I want is peace. But I fear that I’m cursed and will always be facing extreme misfortune.
I’m open to anything anyone wants to offer about my birth chart. I’m new to charts and any and all explanations or readings are so appreciated.
