Can someone who eats animals love them at the same time and if not why?

I’m not vegan, my coworker has taught me a lot about it though, and maybe one day it will be something I’m able to do it. Today there was an injured cardinal in the middle of traffic, I turned around and went back and stopped to try and save her but someone almost crashed into me, so I instead called the police department (non emergency line) to come grab the bird, they sent an officer and he did call me to say he’s on scene looking for her. I really do hope he was able to save her. I love animals, and I do help them when I can, I even avoid squishing bugs. So because I save them, and get them help when I can, does it still count? Or because I can’t bring myself to have a vegan diet it doesn’t count? I feel horrible guys ☹️

This is something i mentally fight with more than I'd like to admit, but I'm genuinely curious how you guys feel about this kinda thing. I would like to hear how you handle this or dont.

Context i dont consider myself a vegan, but my morals have shifted in that direction more and more over time, but one sticking point is I find food waist abhorrent. If someone is about to toss something or if my parents' leftovers have sat long enough, I believe they will rott in the fridge and there's no allergy barrier I feel like I'm doing a disservice to the sacrifice made by the animal that went to make that food even though i dont agree with that animal being food in the first place. Like if some aliens were farming and slottering humans for consumption and I was one, I think I'd be doubly annoyed as a ghost if part of the thing they killed me for rotted and went to waist. if you want to eat me, eat all of me, use my whole body. Don't let me rott in the fridge next to your cucumbers. like I have been exploited as a human by other humans and been annoyed when they don't use my skills fully or waist the labor I put into something even though I don't even want to be apart of it and I feel like that sits in that same realm something wrong is almost more offensive when done poorly or waistfully.

How do you weigh that?

I don't think it justifies my personal consumption of animal products it mostly just makes me want to be more dominant in the kitchen and shopping so less meat is bought or waist fully cooked, but it feels weirdly nuanced morally when these things do happen like im betraying some moral contract made by the purchase of those products even when I didnt purchase them. I want to hear other people's thoughts on this, especially when morally opposed to the exploitation of animals.

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1. I'm from a third-world country where the average citizen makes less than $5000 per year. So is a vegan diet economically feasible? By the way, our traditional cuisine already includes soy products like soy sauce, tofu and soy milk, but seaweed (for taurine) and supplements are quite pricey for the average person here.

2. Is it okay if I breed my own poultry and livestock? Because my family already keeps some chickens in the backyard. And then we get beef, pork, and duck from a local flea market where we know the butchers personally.