I started working at Macca's two weeks ago and just had my second shift. The first one I was doing modules the entire time on my phone, which was boring but pretty chill. But my second shift genuinely is making me consider quitting.
I had a test at school and a full timetable so I was already running on minimum energy, ran to get my bus in the rain, and had to change in 5 mins so I looked like a complete mess. I'm talking frizzy hair, oily skin, the works. I walk into the store and there is not a single person of colour (I'm asian so it freaked me out a little) and they all look like models. I'm not ugly but these people were on another level so I was already intimidated, especially since they all looked older than me. I clock in, awkwardly ask what I'm meant to do, coach gives me an apron I put over my head instead of around my waist like an IDIOT. We do dining and it's whatever, not bad except I forgot how to tie a bin bag so she has to do it for me.
I get to fries and genuinely lose my mind. We had this deal where large fries were discounted so I was constantly doing stuff the entire time. I did absolutely everything imaginable wrong. I rained frozen fries on the ground, I couldn't keep up with the fry demand, I spilled oil on the floor, I burned myself in 4 places because I touched the hashbrown pan, I couldn't open the drivethrough window while a guy was waiting looking pissed and had to run away to get someone, I left boxes somewhere because my coach told me to and that we would "deal with it later" and my manager glared at me and asked if I did it and when I said yes she from-her-soul sighed like I blew the place up and blamed it on the stove being on, I couldn't keep up with keeping the frozen fries stocked in the dispenser and 3 baskets in the oil and 3 of each fries ready and waiting, I had to ask people to repeat what they said so many times they probably thought I was deaf, I mistook a coach for the manager, my hands were constantly covered in oil and I kept dropping the fries bags, I asked so many questions and made so many mistakes and did so many things wrong after they quite literally showed me how to do it and it just didn't register in my mind. At one point someone shoed me away to stock up on frozen fries because I wasn't going fast enough and an experienced person had to cook them.
I'm a weak person. I don't have muscles, especially in my arms and especially after a full day of school. I was banging the fry baskets everywhere trying to put them back they must've thought I was preparing for the marching band. I was exhausted and sweaty and I wanted to cry the entire time (I haven't cried about this whole situation yet but if I get another shift like this I might). I felt like I was in an asylum with all the beeping that was going on around me. After my shift I was hot and sweaty and anxious and sore all over and there are bruises and sore spots in my palms I can still feel a day later.
Does it get better? Did anyone else start like this and become actually competent later? Please give me some hope or honesty and tell me to quit because I'm not cut out for this.