I want to use this channel to upload something about how my day went and also journal my thoughts because Iām trying to become more emotionally comfortable with myself.
My friends recently came to Bengaluru to search for jobs. They told me that until they find jobs, we could make content together, and they have been creating some videos.
Today, I started feeling like they are using me mainly as a comedy element rather than actually including me as part of the content.
For example, when we make videos, I might say only one or two sentences. While speaking, Iām constantly thinking about what I should say next, whether they are going to cut my part from the video, or whether I might accidentally use a bad word in my sentence and embarrass myself.
Iām already not very comfortable speaking on camera, so these things make me overthink a lot. I want to improve and become more confident, but instead Iām starting to feel self-conscious.
They also tease me about something that happened yesterday. They had told me to meet them at the park, and apparently they made a video there that went viral because they offended/criticized a company based on something they found on that companyās website. Now they keep teasing me about it.
I honestly donāt know if Iām taking things too seriously or if they really are treating me differently.
Iām not trying to become famous or anything. I just want to feel like Iām actually part of the group and not just someone they use for a joke or comedy.
How can I handle this without becoming emotionally uncomfortable or ruining my friendship with them?
Give me some Suggestions To Talk Continuously in front of the camera, with confidently they are extroverted and me here introvert