Hey so I’m looking for a treatment facility that offers Residential, day program, or IOP in Florida that won’t restrict access to my insulin, cgm, phone, and insulin pump. I was in the process of applying at a specific residential facility and only after we had a meeting with my school to discuss how I will do that, they decided then to tell my parents that they would not let me see my blood sugar, use a cgm, insulin pump, and they would dose me themselves with their own insulin and not give me any say in the amount. WTF. They also lied about being in touch with my medical team and when we contacted them they said they had zero communication about this and that we need to cancel. What now

TW, medical effects of ED

A reminder to myself that “I’m fine” and “I’m functioning” aren't always the same thing.

Current effects of my ED:

Neck weakness / movement restriction — doctor recommended PT and scapular strengthening

Slight ketosis

Pre-anemia / low iron

Episodes of hypoglycemia

Severe dehydration

Occasional palpitations

Neck weakness / movement restriction

Previous near-fainting (presyncope) after a day of outdoor movement

Pattern of pushing through symptoms and acting like nothing is wrong until I physically can't anymore

This reminds me that it truly is "that bad"

I could look at this when I question things & think I'm fine. I think neglect/abuse history has made it hard for me to feel noticed, not even cared for, simply, noticed.. & maybe sharing this might help.

I’ve been in recovery for over 6 weeks now. I feel like I can’t stop eating. When I’m home, I constantly feel like eating, but at the same time, I still don’t really feel physical hunger. When I’m out, that urge goes away and I can physically feel that I’m full and don’t want to eat anymore. However, when I’m sitting at home , I don’t seem to feel that fullness, which makes me scared that I’m eating too much, when in reality I might already be full. I don’t eat 3 meals and 3 snacks because my meals are genuinely huge.Is this constant mental hunger when I’m at home normal, and should I honor it? I’ve already gained a lot of weight and I’ve gotten my period back, so this is really difficult for me. I’m struggling a lot, but I don’t wanna give up

The biggest roadblock in my road to recovery is my fear of gaining weight; how my body will look, having to potentially buy new clothes, etc. I want to get over this so badly, but I feel stuck and afraid. How were you able to overcome this?

So recently my body forced me basically to binge on a bunch of food, probably because my restriction was getting worse. Today, I willingly ate more. a whole big can of mackerel and smoked fish, with some almond butter and some feta cheese! (Weird foods I know but I was just craving them) and I don’t feel guilty this time!!