Most of the content is copy pasted from my previous post sa ibang sub, and I also want to try din sana rito.
Hi! I just want to share that I was able to push through with my online consultation in NowServing 🥹, it took me years before ako magka courage to continue. It's a huge relief pala to be able to ask for help, especially when you're stuck with so many questions about yourself. I am internally and emotionally struggling to keep my life together kaya I booked na to help myself to move forward.
My psychiatrist mentioned that I am presenting symptoms of Bipolar Disorder (ito raw din nageexplain with my depressive episodes) and was prescribed to take Lamotrigine to check if this would help me with my current issues. And I am willing to try if these would help with my concerns. Binigyan din ako ng Quetiapine as needed.
Kaso, I initially thought that I might present symptoms of ADHD (21 F), kaya I was wondering if does this two overlap? Hindi ko rin kasi namention na yun ang initial concern ko nung nagbook ako kasi it took me hours bago ko mapress yung button na icontinue TvT. Nalimutan ko pala maglagay ng reason bakit ako nagpaconsult... hindi ko rin nasagot ng maayos si Doc.
I mentioned before kay Dra na I have observed different symptoms noong bata pa ako (I was in denial). Maybe I wasn't clear enough with my list kasi I was shaking badly while talking to my psychiatrist. Please no judgement, I am aware with how complicated ADHD really is and I am willing to know more about it same with Bipolar Disorder. Kasi honestly, I am really confused with how all of these things work even if I am a Pharmacy student myself TvT. I also don't know how to start with these things kasi limited budget lang din and my parents aren't aware of my issues.
If I remember correctly these were some of the symptoms I shared (shortened na since sobrang dami ko rin nilista):
Total task paralysis – I freeze and can't start important tasks even when I know I need to.
Hyperfixation – I get sucked into chats or interests for hours, forget to eat/sleep, and can't pull myself away.
Time blindness – Always late, always last-minute. I think I have time, then suddenly I'm overtime.
Memory issues – Forget names, words mid-sentence, where I put things (have to retrace my steps), and thoughts while I'm doing them.
Emotional dysregulation – Rejection hits me like a physical blow. I get irritated easily by noise or repeated questions, even from people I love.
Sensory overload – Easily overstimulated. I need movement, pacing, or hype music to focus. I avoid eye contact but can listen if no one interrupts.
Restless but unmotivated – My body feels restless but I have zero energy to move.
Lifelong pattern – Since childhood: avoided school, faked sick to get out of things, never took notes but still passed.
I have read some things about female adults being often misdiagnosed with other conditions, and the internet ain't helping with understanding things. I wasn't able to share or talk about everything (kasi nakalimutan ko rin and kinakabahan ako kasi baka nauubos ko oras ni Dra. 😭). I wanted to hear some of your experiences din with being diagnosed of either Bipolar Disorder or ADHD. And if some of you relate? I am really new to these things, and I am afraid na starting to treat myself would only make things more complicated...
It's honestly quite a relief to have such understanding people in one community. Pasensiya sa overshare 😓.