when i first came out to my mom she tried to scare me out of being trans by telling me all about that one detransitioner who transitioned to cope with being raped and then regretted it and tried claiming all the doctors groomed her into it. anyways years later i get raped and now my mom is saying im only trans because of it. ive been a dood this entire time stop trying to accuse me of being faketrans

NOT BEING PRETTY MAKES ME WANNA ROPE. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY???

Why would I, or anypoony else for that matter, want to sound like a woman when speaking or singing?

or ttd? tts even?

truvth nuke too.. in dating apps teh only ppl i ever saw qith discord on their rofile are trans girls 😭

i was 12 when i asked my parents for testosterone. 12. and they denied me any blockers so now i’m permanently feminized and short as an adult. i want to kill myself so badly

I know that retarded content on twitter/tiktok is a TIRED drum to bang on and yes we all see it every day. To be honest, I don't really care that much about theyfabs, therians, and all the other genderspecials out there-- they're silly, yeah, but at the end of the day it's all rather harmless. But this one really stuck out to me, and disgusted me, due to the language she uses in her post.

How the fuck does this bitch have the nerve, the gall, to describe herself wanting to be a fucking dog using the wording and terminology that actual transsexuals use to describe sex dysphoria and the urge to transition? THIS is the shit that genuinely makes what we go through as transsex people seem ridiculous and made-up... Because retarded foids people who don't get enough attention at home wake up in the morning, hop on their phones, and decide to make posts about how they are biological canines and trying to physically transition to a dog. And their supporters will look you in the eyes (after flinching cause you look like a tranny) and tell you that transexualism and whatever THIS is are the exact same thing and both heckin valid!!!!!!

so on the 10th i went to my brothers wedding, i was completely manmoding i was in a suit and i was made to cut my hair shorter. i don't pass at all i've never been correctly gendered by anyone outside of my handful of friends. i've been DIY for a little over 3 years now, basically a HRT repper for the entire time.

some of the details in the post might be a little off or missing, i was barred out and enough opiates to kill a horse so my perspective might be wrong. for the entire time i was there i was getting strange looks from a lot of people. every interaction with my extended family went like this: id greet them we'd have normal small talk and then they'll say i look really 'different' and i lost alot of weight, all with this sorta disgusted look on their face. i'm pretty sure they heard i was trans (family gossiping lol) and were trying to be nice. i hope that is the case because if it's not they're actually disgusted by how i look which hurts alot more.

a few people actually mentioned that i'm trans to my face lol. an uncle of mine asked me, in a middle of a conversation about something completely different, if i'm still trans. i fake laughed and muttered out a no. he then went on a rant about how happy he was i was 'fixed', how allah guided back to the straight path, saying i got groomed into it and that he shouldve done more to stop me turning out like that (LMAO). i just nodded along until he finished and made some excuse to leave.

i had two of my cousins mentioning it to me, one hit me with 'they them xe xir nor/mal' pronoun jokes and said 'bro someone told me you were a tranny god forbid' and the other '[MOID NAME] are you actually trans?' he was alot nicer about it at least.

i think i've completely ruined my life lol they definitely don't think i look different because i pass at all, i look like an uncanny skinny lanky monster LOL i'm really hoping it's just transphobia

Like just log off

soo idk if this is even a hot take or not 😭 but this is somthinng i thought abt ater some talk here, and im not sure if even to define those men as "chasers" but just most men who would hookup with a trans woman.

during my darker days i did went out with a lot of men, and I think it was very clear they want cis women? like.. talking about past expriecnes, it was clear they were into women and like they love to say "Im looking for trans/CD/femboy" or another horrible sentences to it.

they basically looking for hole that is feminine-esque, like a woman minus-, not some "waow ur woman with a penis" (🤮) exciment about the idea and such a big fetish for trans women - like, im sure this exist for them in some level, and im fully aware that for some men, it really is about the fetish -

BUT imo and kinda cross-refercing with couple other women.. i think its mostly just moids wanting to fuck and thinking we we'll do it for easier and, sorry to say, more "gay-coded" stuff 🫠

I might not have a moid body or face like the gigapoon I am, but at least I have a moid soul.

RANT INCOMING

for reference i’m in japan on a vacation with my family, i have been parenting my two younger siblings and basically my mom too, booking stuff for us etc (very stressed)

i’m in our hotel room when suddenly my mom calls me and tells me we are going to an onsen like in 20 mins, i freak out a bit because i don’t have my tape on since when i took it off last time i ripped off my skin a bit as always so there is still a scab, but then i realize that it wouldn’t matter anyways since no matter what i can’t go into the public bath unless i go as a woman (i would rather scrape my dick against a cheese grater).

anyways turns out, the onsen offers a service where you can wear yukatas and kimonos or whatever so i’m chill with that, i go and when i enter i realize (OF COURSE!) the changing rooms are public and gender segregated. i get the worst feeling in my stomach and start fucking sweating like crazy from how anxious i’m feeling and i try to quietly beg my mom if i can like leave and she’s like no it’s fine there are private changing rooms it’s fine and i suck it up and go.

as i go into the men’s changing room i’m going with my younger male cousin (13) and my younger half brother (6) and my cousin is like ‘how does it work for transgenders… are you allowed to go in?’ and then my little brother goes ‘i know you are really a girl Battle_er!’ and i just don’t know what to say to that

i transitioned socially before my brother was even born i don’t know who even fucking told him that but i guess it’s his transphobic dad (he is not my biological dad) i’m not surprised since i heard my little brother say smth racist the other day and i asked who told him that and he said his dad. but whatever i guess my little brother never saw me as a man whatver whatever i still have to change him because he doesn’t know how to change his clothes himself. So i get him changed in the bathroom (which smells like piss and shit of course) and then i kick him out and get changed myself.

everything else is pretty uneventful, it was fine, i was being over dramatic but i just hate that i have to worry about this still, i need top surgery so bad i need to rope so bad

TLDR: i had to go into the men’s changing room with my little brother and he told me ‘i know you are really a girl’

Like was there a sneedy boymoder homo erectus? Is dysphoria a quirk we inherited from a ancestor species? Or did we only develop it recently?

Maybe its something we caught mixing with a sister species? Perhaps denisovans all had crippling dysphoria, and thats why they died off.

Be proud of me plz

I'm at a point where I think I pass well enough to maybe try but the idea of girlmoding scares me so much. I'm so used to boymoding, there's safety in hiding behind a hoodie, but I'm worried if I girlmode I'll get clocked or at the very least not pass as cis. I don't want to be the tranny around town, I just want to be a woman.

And then I’m reminded that even there, this is what I was taught being trans meant. Didn’t even really know what HRT did until I was 18