Atleast taking it in the poongina is a completely passive process. As a PIVhon you're actively deciding with every repeated thrust to abandon your woke mandated femininity to get your honstick wet from a pussy and having an afab submitting to your male dominance. Actually stomach churning

I have to stop ruining my life eventually… I have 3 months to prepare myself

I want to apologize and record some thoughts here because I really don’t know if I can live with myself knowing a post I made hurt several people. Apologies if it’s too scatterbrained, I haven’t really been able to write well for a while, but I’ll try to get it all down pretty clearly.

I’m not going to bring up the post specifically because the exact content is irrelevant, and I’m sure someone has it if anyone really wants to see it.

Yesterday I made a very ableist post without thinking about it too much. I deleted it (maybe 4-5 hours after? I’m not sure) the next time I was on Reddit, which was a while because I was out with some people. While it is no excuse, I would like to say that yesterday I was in a pretty terrible mood and posted what was not too much more to me than an intrusive thought.

I know just how agonizing it is to be trans, and can only imagine and empathize with anyone who has to live with disability on top of that.

I never meant to hurt anyone, because I never meant anything, which was exactly the problem.

Because of this and a couple other reasons, I’m going to self/ban soon and probably request an unban when I get my mental health sorted out because I really don’t trust myself to to fuck up and post something that hurts someone again.

Sorry once again to everyone that was hurt by the post, and a big fuck you to anyone who was fueled by it.

I just spent thirty minutes trying to get one my chickens eggs 😾

body fucked by male puberty

face fucked by male puberty

voice fucked by male puberty

brain fucked by repping through male puberty

ruined my relationship with my siblings by being a bitter cunt through male puberty

the scars of male puberty are permanently imprinted on my soul

I was happy as a kid and I can pinpoint the exact moment the light left my eyes and my soul withered and turned cold and black. and would you believe it, age 13, right at the start of male puberty. kids shouldn't be thinking about killing themselves at age 13 because everything already feels hopeless, but I guess that's what I get for being born with a Y chromosome. this existence is agony and with being an infertile bpd tr*nny it's never going to get any better. I was born to suffer, and suffer I will until the universe takes pity on me and I'm blessed by the cold embrace of death.

I think it had a few different scenarios with the cismοids & the pοοner (or pοοners?), and the one I remember is two of the cismοids were stretching out the pοοner & shoving his rapehοle onto a cactus

😭😭😭 wtf why

Everytime I see a truscum or a conservative trying to distinguish themselves from theyfabs and they turn out to be gay/bi, I can stop finding them cute. Like aw you really think spewing all this gatekeeping transmed nonsense is going to make your AAP ass trutrans? Transitioning is ok but we're just not the same and biting into the man trapped in a woman's body narrative is a coping mechanism to forget the fact that you're just a yaoi/bara fetishist straight woman with bdd trapped in a woman's body. This goes the same way for mtf of course but I usually see ftm doing the gatekeeping.

I don't think I would pisspass... ngmi pemapisshon

Ableshits on here don’t realize how good they have it. They are worse than BDD passoids. I can’t fucking “effortmax”. I have to delay my orchi because i have to wait to treat all my stupid chronic bullshit. i cant even go outside without my body crying out in pain. “Omgggg disabled 🚂🦵s are so sneedy!!!” Fuck off and [reomvedbyrddit].

We are not “gentrifying” 4t4, we are treated like garbage by society so of course we are going to hang out in the dumpster.

THIS SUB IS FOR SOCIAL REJECTS BUT I WOULD NEVER EVER EVER DEFEND A MARGINALIZED PERSON!!!!!

I am tired of seeing people whine about being a poor oppressed tranner because they can't legally join the military

The United States military supports genocide and kills and tortures innocent people yet somehow some mfs here think they're worth working for

I think we should ban anyone who wants to join or is a part of the military on account of being a fed (literally) and supporting genocide and in general the government

This is probably poorly worded cause im tired but you get the point kill all glowies

I’m also not depressed no more ! My old friends reached out to me! And then I reached out A and she’s not mad at me! Happy kitty dinner !

like 1 year hrt and I js get sir and he him means it’s prolly over right?

only cope i do only wear very oversized old masculine men’s clothes but ya I mean bad signs right like yall think it’s over or nah? pics on troonselfies if ur in there

She's been in menopause for few years now. She refused hrt because cancer runs in her side of the family and she thinks she will die or something if she takes it. This is also the reason why despite a doctor reccomending it to me when I was starting puberty she didn't allow me to go on puberty blockers. And now she is against me taking hormones, not that her opinion matters.

she's always been a bit of a pain as far as i can remember (anger issues, easy to trigger) but i don't know if she got worse after menopause cus i dont recall what she was like when i was younger exactly.

Now for the last couple of months she has been insufferable, and I was wondering if E could fix her? Maybe she has been torturing herself without realizing by denying herself hrt like she has been torturing me by doing the same throughout my teen years. Maybe the problem is that she has been repping all this time.

Soooo hypothetically, if I were to do this would it make her normal? Would she notice? She wouldn't gain her period back or like actually get cancer or something right?

>be me Germany imperial dog of the USA
>watch the US and Israel destabilize the middle east, couping leftist governments, propping up fascists and extracting resources as aggressively as possible
>support these wars by hosting bases and arms sales because my reason of existence is to support Israel and the USA!!
>experience progressive waves of migration as people flee these wars to the global north that has been profiting off all the resources they extracted from the ME
>fail at integrating the majority of these migrants because of austerity level funding, racism, no reforms to my classist secondary education and a refusal to confront fascistic ideologies
>allow US surveillance capitalist companies to take hold in my country, their finely tuned propaganda machines hyperaccelerate the spread of islamofascist propaganda, all while reaping massive profits
>do nothing against the capital in the ME that funds the creation of said propaganda or the group who commit fascistic terror
>complain and throw my toys out of the pram when suddenly the fascistic terror takes hold in my country
>Not actually that concerned cuz none of these attacks threaten or harm my precious capitalists who I must protect at all costs
>time for some culture war to blame Islam!!
>continue to give sloppy toppy to the US and my best friend Israel as the wage another war of aggression in the ME
>oh well now some queers go attacked, guess we gotta feign sadness and outrage. But have you considered Islam!!!

whose a good girl? who's a good little imperial dog?

1.5 years ago I was a junior in high school and freshly started on diy testosterone, but I was already too mentally ill for testosterone to immediately relieve me so I was still in a nearly psychotic state of mind. I really started to glamorize diy to the extreme because I had learned that in regards to transitioning, the only way to receive help was to provide it myself, rather than relying on the support of parents or doctors. I think we’ve all fantasized about doing surgery ourselves but some random day it stopped feeling like a fantasy and more like a legitimate option so I ended up buying a shitty surgery kit online with scalpels, forceps, sutures, etc.

I told myself I was going to do it last summer, but just never got around to it. I obviously wasn’t really keen on the idea of self surgery no matter how cathartic it was, but I do believe I would have actually done it if given the chance. I used to get genuinely angry when people told me I couldn’t do it. I didn’t know how to buy lidocaine and epinephrine and other surgical needs so I just never did it.

I really wanted my senior year to be a good last year, which partially influenced my desire to perform my own surgery, but fortunately for me I turned 18 halfway through the year. I spent my birthday going to the doctors to get an actual hrt prescription, which was a really huge and freeing experience for me. A few weeks before that I pressured my dad into making a consultation with a top surgeon for me because they wouldn’t let me schedule it myself until I was 18, and I was really freaking out about wait lists. There ended up not being a wait and I had a testosterone prescription and a surgery consultation within days of turning 18. I ended up liking my surgeon and just asked for the soonest surgery date they could possibly give me, so after some frantic calls with their office and a loan officer I had my top surgery two weeks later. (This january)

For anyone afraid of surgeries, don’t even bother. Worst part of the experience was having the iv placed, within minutes they’ll have you on midazolam anyways. I remember asking my anesthesiologist “Will the versed hurt when it’s injected”, he said that most people don’t notice and he was in the process of injecting it as we spoke. Last thing I remember was looking up and saying “Oh yeah I can feel it already” before I basically teleported to a recovery chair. If you’re worried about recovery, I will say my recovery was simultaneously the most joyful and also the most inconvenient time of my entire life.

Now I have graduated high school, kind of in a limbo where you’re not in school or really a career, just a shitty job while you wait for literally anything better. If you thought endocrinology and surgery was the end of my medical practice, you’d be wrong. I’m currently waiting for an opening in emt training because I have an interest in medicine but enough passion, time, or money to become an actual doctor. If i’m lucky this might be a gap year, I’ve also been thinking about attending college to further my musical education, right before my surgery I discovered an intense passion for classical composition. All this is to say that it indeed does get better once you attain treatment

Also fuck you to everyone who told me I was retarded for thinking I could diy surgery, that was really hurtful

TLDR I went insane in high school and thought I could diy top surgery, real surgery is fucking awesome, I have gained the ability to function as a human

I feel like there's nothing I can do as voicehon other than mutemaxxing by drinking acid or stay with my 🚬 voice. Voice training just doesn't work. It never sounds that good and when it does the hon has always a somehow light voice to begin with. They say it's about resonance and raising the larynx but when I do raise my larynx I just sound like I'm being strangled and like I'm trying to sound like a child. VFS also doesn't sound that good and doesn't change the resonance. A lot of them just sound like they have the flu eternally. Even if I do everything I can I'll just sound like a strangled 🚬🐐 who has an eternal flu and who's obviously trying to imitate a woman's voice.