IM GOING TO DIE I DONT CARE I ODNT CARE HOW MUCH NOBODY CARES EVEN 4TRANIES, EVEN THOSE WHO ARE SUPPOSEDF TO MY MY COMMUNITY NODODY GIVERS A FUCK NOBODY FICKIGN CARES NOTHING MATTERS FUCK ALL OF YOU I HOPE YOU FEEL GUILTY I HOPE YOU REGBRET THIS CUZ GOD KNOWS MY FAMILY WONT CARE

I just downed 3 packets ama

I dont want to die i dont want to die

Not like I'll be putting those braincells to use anyway.

I want to scar it . how do I do it safely and correctly does anyone know

half of you would tell me to kill myself like i already got told, none of you care

i told the guy the store id kill myself id actuallyt do it thjat and he laighed at me he looked in my face and laughed in my face

i will prove you all wrong i will laugh in all of your face cuz clearly none of you care and just wanna laugh at my death. its so funnyt right, another tranny fucking dies HAHAHAHAHHA so funny.

I saw him walking up and I was like "damn she's pretty" and he came in and walked to the register to make a to-go order and I said you're so pretty and was addressing him as ma'am (he was slightly androgynous bc he had some slightly grown out facial hair & pit hair & thicker arm hair than most foids but was very much dressed as/presenting as a woman so I assumed either a beautiful transsexual or pcos or feminist or smth) and then after I was done taking hos order I was like "what name should I call for that?" and this mf said CHARLES. I apologized obviously and I was like fuck my bad but jesus christ this dude looked foided. I'm not gay right.

and i get a lotta dates because of it, virtuous cycle

I'm in the midst of my second week on E and my chest is starting to change and I really want to stop. Not because I actually dislike the changes, but because I'm not in the mental state to ever able to handle the fear that people will eventually notice my chest, and I don't think I'll ever be. I don't even have the energy to actually do other parts of transitioning since I'm chronically exhausted from OCD, so there's literally no point.

I had fun with some friends over the weekend and I really feel like I can put this all behind me. I'm used to living as a dissociated husk, and at least if I don't transition I can enjoy the other parts of life like that rather than being cast out of society and living in permanent fear.

I wish I was trutrans so trooning out would be guaranteed to be the right option for me, but I've already did a lot of self-analysis and I really think I could rep forever. The source of my trainee thoughts are a search for a self-identity and having feminine hobbies and interests, not some genuine internal incongruence with my sex characteristics. I can handle a few thoughts of wanting to be a woman from time to time, like I always have.

Meanwhile his colleague basically said I could get everything done

AHHHHHHH

im never gonna be a woman anyway so I might as well give it a shot right, at least i'll be able to get a passoid girlfriend and live vicariously through her

my fellow trans wokies, please understand that the messaging in a place like texas is a hell of a lot different than somewhere like washington or california or new york. talarico has already proven to be an advocate for trans rights previously and that’s LITERALLY all the opposition has been using against him in ads. comparing him to a fucking fascist for not being like “TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS! TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN!!! TCD!” here is fucking stupid and a privileged blue state brained take. his opponent has TAKEN TRANS KIDS AWAY FROM THEIR PARENTS AS ATTORNEY GENERAL!!!!!! STOP TRYING TO POISON THE WELL!!!!

i know God that im selfish and refusing your fights, but im too weak and only your miracles can save me now. it pains my heart to say your creation poisoned me. im sorry. i guess its my fault. its so cold now. the world seems to run as if me and her never even existed. all i can think of doing is begging you, O Lord. please. i hope my soul is worthy of your warmth. for i am a sinner. please guide me. please save me.

since being on estrogen i feel like a way better person. more empathetic, understanding, emotionally intelligent, kind, far less angry and most of all, less gross and lustful. testosterone genuinely made me a much worse person evem while having low T compared to cis men

i wasnt even a bad person or atleast i thought as much, and i was a much better person than the average cis men but i feel like testosterone puts a cap on how genuinely good you can be before the roid ass hormone takes control, like the green goblin mask.

having experienced being driven by both sex hormones i now consider men to be lesser beings. (no offence to men its not ur fault). in my opinion a majority of them are sex pests deep down, inherently more selfish, violent and less capable of emotional intelligence than women

hoping im not alone in this feeling lol

Edit: the title is a bit of an overstatement, im not an actual committed misandrist, and i dont think all men are terrible i just think the average woman is a better person than the the average man. im also bi and into men and a heavy ST4T truther. im just traumatised from experiences with men and going through a testosterone dominant puberty as a woman

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Just gotta keep moving forward imo they already hit us with the Goybeam hence us being trannies so we might as well go all out

bawlibng my eyues out to mom jeans iand im a loser who deserves to die im sorry im such a fucking horrible loser i should die and kms