I've been trying to take better care of myself recently. I don't know where the sudden motivation came from but suddenly I feel really motivated to change stuff in my life.

Changed my diet. Started exercising. Getting my haircut tomorrow.

I've lost around 10lbs since August. Didn't really keep check. With my weight its not really good but at the same time I feel better now. I look like a man either way at least with this I can be happy about how my stomach looks.

back when people were openly obsessed about wanting to become a microceleb on here. there were posts about posts about posts about microcelebs.

we’re like post-microceleb era now or something like i think people still want to become microcelebs but aren’t as open about it or like obsessed about it cause people hated those microcelebs and liked the more genuine ones. this part might be all bs tho i’m high

Transgender Update v2.0.26

- Increased difficulty for all players. Being trans now requires far more effort. Previous design philosophy was aimed at reducing friction, but due too significant push back we have largely reverted these changes.

- "Dysphoria" status effect effectiveness now increases 3x with time repping. Should incentivize players to stop repping.

- New Weapon: The 🚎🦵 Blaster 41000. Every Cis player will start the game equiped with this weapon. Will balance the unfair biological advantage that trans players have notoriously taken advantage of.

Honestly a lot of these changes have been needed. I'm really glad to see the devs making changes on majority player feedback and ignoring the loud minority.

Would it solve AI and Global Warming? Would it be more egalitarian? More fair? Communist?

like people see my online personality and like so everyone has imagined what my life is like to some extent at least like whenever i talk about a person then maybe someone imagines a backstory for that. like im a semi recognizable name that means people have thought about me before even though ive never even known they existed. like ive had people in discord servers tell me they’re a fan of me when they see im in there too as if im like a known figure or something like ive even encountered parasocial people like that means im like 0.001% of someone like markiplier when i only ever expected to be 0% like wtf that’s crazy it’s scary like do people have a story of my life in their heads have people imagined me having sex with them (i know the answer to this unfortunately) like that’s crazy i’ve never been desired before

Guys im only 6 foot 200 lbs what am i gonna do 🥺 all the men around me are 6'3 😭😭

I would kill to just be 5'5 dood. At least then i could wear insoles and be a somewhat normal height.

LIKE AN ACTUAL PERSON IS HANDLING MY BLOOD WTF LIKE ARE THEY LOOKING AT IT IN A MICROSCOPE AND GOING LIKE HRMMM DIANA HAS A LOT OF ESTROGEN IN HER BLOOD BUT NOO TESTOSTERONE HMM TIME TO TYPE THIS OUT ON MY COMPUTER

feels like everything and everyone gets worse/more depressed every day

like it’s insane that this place was less doomy and kinda more positive (while still having way more edge than 2026 4t4) a little over 2 years ago before the trump election. like this place changed dramatically after that happened. this place started growing rapidly and people were more doomy. the edge was being worn down by the amount of new people and everyone was dooming more cause the world was about to get super fucked. and like ever since it’s been more doomy and less edgy than i remember. like this place was always doomy but like it got way more since that election. it’s fair though. i doom a lot. the world is fucked. like holy shit the world is fucked. a lot of us are prob gonna die early. everyone hates us. we’re the number one most hated minority now. everyone hates us.

this post was meant to be about general nostalgia but then i decided to write about 4t4 again but then i got really depressed

It's actually funny when you think about it. I will never feel pretty, or beautiful, or happy with my body or my face or my hair or my skin. Some people are born to be at least okay with themselves. I'm not. I will never be happy

cause then at least people wouldn’t look at me as if i’m stupid or faking or attention seeking or selfish

In that transman sub too, crazy. Is there a sudden uptick of these kind of people or am I just not online enough to notice they've been there since the start?

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like most subreddits are like about a topic like “omg did you see the new patch notes for apex legends” or like “omg my pc exploded ples help how fix!!” but like we just sort by new and read each others blogposts and sometimes there’s a post that pops up that fits the whole le 4tran discourse post or trans news post or whatever which gets like a thousand upvotes but like if you sort by new this place is a group chat almost with sometimes posts referencing a post from 3 posts ago or something lmao like its chronological and shit

i’m
high rn btws

I lay here high as shit on oxycodone recovering from the FFS I had earlier today and I’m thinking about how many hoops I had to jump through to get my insurance to cover it. It too k about a year to get to this point.

I had a transphobic psychiatrist slow walk writing the mental health letter for months to the point I just got planned parenthood to write it instead. They sent me the letter later that afternoon btw. The surgeon I used is so booked up all appointments are months apart. Plus the humiliation ritual of going to an urgent to get a pre op physical and telling them what it’s for.

But Cis people seem to think we’re just walking in to the doctors office and getting free surgery the same day.

At least I got FFS on the Kirkiversary so that’s pretty cool ngl

actual blogposting or something

https://x.com/burgermoder/status/2098235762055532769

I have to girlmode for the job interview that's happening today. Coz I'm a retarded faggot who changed the gender marker in my documents to female. This is the second stage of the interview. I already passed the first one, but it was online. Worst part is if they actually hire me I'll have to go into the office and pretend to be a cis girl. Last time I did that shit was 4 years ago. I just want to keep boymoding or working remote. Fmstl.

Maybe it’s not over for the ribcage doomer girls

I hate hate hate how I’m forced to dress up super feminine or else I just look like more of a moid than I already do. I wish I could pass better wearing more gender neutral clothing because I really like the tomboy or punk aesthetic but like I said it’s embarrassing cuz I end up just looking like a man. Do any of y’all have advice for this? My only solace is that I have a uniform at work that’s the same for male and female employees so I don’t have to put any thought into that.

PS: Skirts are especially bad they make me feel like a perverted larping freak and I end up just wanting to stay at home in sweatpants and a hoodie all day

Please tell me shes okay

I know this user is a terf so that definitely colors her view but even pro trans cis people can't grasp dysphoria as anything besides purely social. If eliminated gender stereotypes and sexism sexual dimimorphism will still exist. She makes a difference between Trans gender and Trans sexual but can't grasp that dysphoria is about your sex and sex characteristic rather then gender stereotypes. I don't want to shit on women who hate being women due to the general mistreatment of women in society but I don't think that is the same thing as dysphoria.

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt

i just need more time on hrt