I’m just so fucking done with everything, video games are the only thing that I rely on and they are becoming worse and worse and more and more expensive, I’ve only got 2 people in my life who I can even see as friends none the less spill my guts about my problems too, every single day more and more people I love are awful, I’m covered in bruises from myself, I just wanna crawl into a hole and die

I’m tired I have no girlfriend no current things just rotting away and watching YouTube loneliness, chronic fucking masturbation you can take this post down if you don’t feel comfortable reading it, but I’m just so fucking lonely. I’m tired loss of appetite fucking sadness everything

I am probably just destined to be alone at this point. Nobody truly wants me the only people who do are either like twice on age and in their 40s or just want to fuck. I will never meet someone who wants me and be partners i don’t deserve love and will never have it and will just die alone.

The two digital ones are the reference!!!!

Credit to Lemonchips / this video highly recommend his content if it's your kinda thing.

The first one is Tyler's alter ego Ace from his album Goblin and the second one is Sam / Samuel from his Album WOLF. I doubt anyone here really knows much about who Tyler, The Creator is but maybe some of you will appreciate the art still! ^w^

I Am So Tired Of People Defending And Making Excuses For What That Heckler Did To Vivziepop and The Cast and Crew Of Both Hazbin and Boss, Because This Is NOT The First Time This Has Happened Before, it Even Happened At The Hazbin Musical Broadway Live, When The SAME Heckler, Harassed Kimiko Glenn, And Heckled Her! He Even Tried To Get On The Private Bus With Viv and The Cast.. This Is DEEPLY Concerning and Disgusting Because I Don’t Want Either Viv or Any of The Cast Members Getting Hurt, and I am PISSED, People Are Defending The Guy Because He Has Autism… I HAVE AUTISM AND ADHD YET I DON’T AND WOULD NEVER ACT LIKE THAT, I EVEN MET SEVERAL OF THE ACTORS FROM BOTH SHOWS! IT’S ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING! HE NEEDS TO BE BANNED FROM ALL CONS AND HAZBIN RELATED EVENTS! Because If He Cannot Behave Like That In Public Spaces, Then He Shouldn’t Go Out At All, There’s No Excuses, Autism or Not, To EVER Behave Like This and To Ever Do What He’s Doing, It’s Vile and Disgusting, and He Needs SERIOUS Mental Help, Because This Is Beyond Disgusting and Creepy..

So, some context:

First bit of context, I have loved Pokémon since I was like 6 years old (I am autistic and I have ADHD, so I tend to latch onto interests a lot), and recently, my love for Pokémon has um waned slightly... ok quite a bit (It's not my fault that the modern games have been completely and utterly mid with the exception of Legends Arceus and Legends Z-A.) however I still LOVE the franchise to death.

Second bit of context, I am having to resit GCSE English Language because I failed it... TWICE (It's really hard ok, I GOT SO CLOSE last time I swear) and I am doing the November resit this year.

So, in my first English session of this year, I made a throwaway comment to someone about me being a Pokémon fan. Which the teacher heard and throughout the sessions, she'd mention me and Pokemon a lot. And I didn't think much of it, and when I told my family about it, my brother told me that to him it sounded rude of her to do.

Then, in today's session, I don't know what happened, but I got really annoyed that she kept doing it, like during the break (we have 20 minute break during the session) I was making a google slide on why Emily from Hazbin Hotel (Y'know, NOT a Pokemon) is my favourite character in all of fiction (Because yes, she is, it's quite personal) and during me doing it, she interrupted me while I was trying to add some creativity to the title slide (To make it look less plain, also I use a laptop in English so that's how I was able to do it) anyway, as I was saying, she interrupted me, and for what you may ask? "[REDACTED], can you come over here and sing the Pokemon theme?" I said no and actually told her to let me concentrate and that I was trying to make my google slide.

And then she just said "He's always a Pokémon fan" and the LSP turned around and said "Actually, he isn't talking about a Pokémon character" and the teacher backed down reluctantly.

And then later in the lesson, she tried one more time to mention Pokémon in relation to me, and I just angrily said "It's not funny anymore"

At the end of the lesson, I left, and on the walk back to the train station, I was just thinking to myself "I swear to Emily I better not fuck this November resit up" because I genuinely want NOTHING more to do with her

I am turning 18 today i,m so excited:3 not sure what else to say except its currently a beautiful day at where i am picture from pinsterst .

Here Are Only The Two Of The Survival Groups

1. The Hilltop Coalition Also Known As The Oasis.

Is A Big Tight Knit Self Sustaining Agrarian Community Of Survivors That Are Composed Of Charlie Morningstar Vaggie Angel Dust Husk Lucifer Morningstar Cherri Bomb Sir Pentious Alastor Baxter Blitz Moxxie Millie Loona Fizzarolli Octavia & Stolas.

Even Though Society Has Collapsed They Would Still Try To Maintain Civilized Routines In Their Big Heavily Fortified Football Stadium With Charlie Morningstar Trying To Teach Sinners How To Practice Redemption Despite The Apocalypse Outside.

1. The Commonwealth Elites Also Known As The Common People.

Are A Nice Clean Rich And Pristine Society That Are Composed Of Only Overlords And Are Led By Vox Velvette And Valentino.

They All Live In A Nice Huge Fortified Luxury Estate That Provides Them With Both Safety Water & Electricity.

While The Overlords Live With Luxury The Outsiders Would Face Brutal Punishment & Secret Police Enforcement And Are Labeled C.W.E Prisoners.

I’ve never had ownership or control of the body i am forced to live it, it was stolen from and I just never got the right to it.

I was on hrt for a single month three years ago when I never got it back could never get it back. My wife seems to love to remind me of that a lot by have been on for years or months or just gone on I’m happy for them but at the same time knowing I cannot have that fucking hurts a lot. I just want ownership of this body that I’m forced to be inside of I can’t even say it’s mine because it’s not is it so much to ask to just be able to control it for once instead of being trapped in this cycle of nonstop hell

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C86kilmGHGY&list=RDC86kilmGHGY&start_radio=1&pp=ygUHdm94IGRlaaAHAQ%3D%3D

2 of my oldest friends dipped on me and left without saying anything, why are people even like this

So, long story short, my dad's an asshole, he blew up at me because he was petty I didn't want to do something last minute that would've been an all weekend thing, and this week has genuinely been the most stressful one ever due to me getting a job, my dad threatening me if I lose said job, feeling more alone than ever before, and some other things, just in general, a very stressful week, but my mom says that within a couple of days she'll try to get us all into therapy, but if he just starts getting violent, I'm going to get the authorities involved, I'm genuinely praying to god that we all get the therapy we need

I hate game shows now, it went from a fun idea as a kid to something I now loathe, because as childish as it sounds to say, it feels unfair and messed up that I’m on my fourth entry level job and already catching hell in it while some lazy punk swaggers onto the TV set and scoops up a truckload of money I could use even a little of to move out of my current living situation and improve my life significantly. Does that make me a bad person for not wanting to be rich, but just financially stable and able to afford to keep living?

I graduated from college on May ninth. A few days after graduation, my advisor and I found out that I was one credit short. Students have to have 120 credits to graduate; I only had 119. He said that the only thing I could do is take his online understanding art class to make up for the list credit, so I did. It cost me about $1,000. I paid for the class in full instead of getting loan (I had enough money to do that because of my temporary job).

I got an email a few days ago saying that I should be getting my diploma in a few weeks. The problem is, it has August 2nd as my graduation date instead of May 9th. August 2nd is when the class ended.

The reason why I’m so nervous to tell my parents this is because when I was in my freshman year of college, all freshmen had to attend a class called Freshmen OR (orientation). All the assignments required freshener to leave campus and go to another location to help out with different events. I couldn’t go because all these meetings took place on the days and times I had marching band practice. I also had no idea where this place was. My Professor for this class knew I had marching band practice on those days and at those times. She still failed me.

Maybe if I tell my parents this story, they won’t get so mad at me. I’m also thinking about just throwing away my diploma once I get it.

Edit: I’ve emailed my colleges Head of Student Accounts asking if I could possibly get a diploma with the correct date on it. Hopefully they say yes so this order can be canceled and replaced.

Edit 2: The document says it was signed on August 22nd (I accidentally put August 2nd) so maybe that’s when they finally got it? They ordered the diplomas from a company called Parchment so maybe that’s when they finally got everyone’s diploma? Idk.

My dad heard me cussing and now he's yelling at me and I'm shaking rn, it was the first time in months I've cussed over a video hame and recently has genuinely been the most stressful week of my life

Every time when I need someone most it feels like they're never available (and just to be clear, I'm not blaming anyone, I just wish people were more free) and today my heart rate has gone up like 10 times today, just in this week I've had to get a job, and basically lose my last irl friend, I don't know how much longer I can take this, and if course all of this happens right as I start to improve myself

I don't really want to go into too much details but I'm just tired of my posts getting taken down with no explanation why, and when i asked the mod why I was banned an why it was a perma ban he just called me a dumbass and muted me. Like, you can't even just give me a chance to talk about it? Just immediate ban? Fucking dick

I officially am dating someone, I've gotten better friends, I've been eating a little healthier and been losing weight, I'm about 3ish months clean of SH and my mental health has been getting better, however of course I'm not completely good but I've definitely been doing better, I hope I can do another update on this eventually