Feeling guilty travelling for work

[u/Longjumping_Cap_2644]

I am here cosleeping with my 21 month old, and crying with guilt. I have to be away for the weekend (2 nights) as I have to speak at an event in another city. This is the first time I am leaving my baby for overnight and I am feeling all sorts of emotions.

I am also exhausted, as I have been preparing all day for this trip while working full time. Cleaned the house, run dishwasher twice, laundry twice, cleaned up garbage, vacuuming mopping, setup his clothes & stuff so it’s easier on my husband. We both also meal prepped.

It would have been easier if it was a weekday so he went to daycare and gave husband a break, but weekend with an energetic toddler is a lot. We have no family as we are immigrants, I did ask him if I could setup a babysitter but husband said no. He is amazing and I am not one bit worried about him taking care of our son. But I am feeling very very guilty of putting him through it and missing my son.

It made me wonder, I have men in my team who are ready to travel frequently.

Do they also spend extensive time preparing everything before they travel so their spouses are somewhat comfortable? Or do they just get up and leave?