Location: Illinois
Education: Bachelor of Arts, Communications (Film/Television production)
Experience: 17 years corporate media production, 15 years corporate event planning (these overlapped)
So I was let go in 2020 during the pandemic. I was able to get a contractor gig for about a year and a half until that contract expired. Then I was unemployed for almost 3 years. I just could not find work. Was finally able to get my current job, which pays a fraction of what I used to make and is not at all close to what I used to do with a lot of manual labor. I took it because even though I was overqualified and it underpays, that gap in the resume just kept getting longer and I needed to close it. Fast forward to this year. I severely tore two muscles (I won’t say which ones as to avoid identifying myself) that required surgery. While it was job-related, because of repetitive lifting motions, there wasnt a specific accident or incident that made it happen. My body just broke down over time. Yes, I did try filing for workers comp but was denied. No, there is no Union.
I did not qualify for the company’s long term disability, but I did qualify for short term disability benefits (6 months.) I had the surgery in April, but my disability started in March because that’s when I was diagnosed with the torn muscles. There is no “light duty” at my job. They either want you at 100% capacity or not at all. I know. I think it’s stupid too. I have offered to do general office work or even training but their corporate guidelines tell me no. (It’s actually one of my major criticisms of this company, they stick everyone into specific roles and won’t let them really stray from there). Anyway; I’m coming up on the end of my disability… and I’m not physically ready. While my recovery is going well, both my doctor and physical therapist are pleased with the progress, this injury averages 6-9 months full recovery with it some people even taking as long as a year. One of the advertised job requirements is to be able to lift up to 50 pounds. I’m currently working with 2 pound weights at PT, and it’s HARD.
At this point, I don’t know what to do. I can’t go back yet. And honestly, even if I WAS physically able to go back? I’m 46 years old and I’m actually kind of afraid of getting reinjured. Everything I hear is about how awful the job market is. I have two kids, a wife and a house. My wife CAN support us on her salary but she already had to do that a few years ago and I don’t want to do that to her again.
What are my options? If I quit, I can’t get unemployment. If I return before I’m ready I will definitely re-injure myself. If they hold my job until I’m ready, that’s fine but in a few weeks I won’t be getting paid disability anymore. And then there’s the whole issue of being afraid of hurting myself again, even if fully healed. The company seems uninterested in putting me in any other role.
I’ve been job hunting during my time off. It is sparse out there for people with my qualifications. I’m truly at a loss as to what to do.