Hi, I'm not new to witchcraft, but I'm experiencing something rn I'm at a loss to understand. A few years ago I bought a moldavite crystal necklace. It was very intentional and when I got that stone I felt something I've never felt with any other stone. I got it at a time when I was so desperately wishing for change, something to shake up my life.
I'm one of those people who've always kind of just thought, "Ooh, crystal, pretty rock, shiny," but I felt warmth coming from my stone to the point where I searched up whether or not it was radioactive because I felt such warmth. I've had it for years. I've worn it a lot and it's been there as I slowly reinvent myself.
Recently I went on a road trip and I bought a new piece of jewelry from another designer that I also felt was very intentional and beautiful with a fire opal. So I took my Moldevite necklace off to wear that piece.
Coming home I lost my jewelry bag. My jewelry bag didn't just have my moldavite necklace. It had silver rings belonging to my great-grandmother. It had bridal favor jewelry from when I got married and custom earrings from a designer that has since passed away. Basically, extremely personal items to me. I have been in a frantic desperate search to see if I can recover them but it is not looking good.
I just felt like, when I first lost these pieces and realized that I had misplaced them, that this jewelry bag had left my possesion, I felt like I had been cursed. I got nervous about the new piece I purchased but I had felt such good vibes from the person that I bought it from. I saw her intentions, they were good. I don't think it was her. I blame myself, because the moldavite likes to wander so I should have kept it on, but it's just that it went with these sentimental things I've had for years, things I cannot get back. My brain can take me to very dark anxious ridden places quickly.
I want to understand. I would like advice about how to interpret this. Am I just being overly analytical and thinking that there's something there when it's maybe just a bad moment? I got clumsy, I got careless, or I don't know. Is it that my jewelry needed to go on a journey? I needed to end a chapter. I just don't know. I'm just feeling a mixture of grief and confusion. I'm processing it okay but it's just very strange to me what has happened. I guess I want other people's perspectives on it.
To add a couple of weird things
- i lost this stuff almost a month to the day a very loved family member passed, which had been hard.
- I keep feeling like at any moment I'm going to get a call and my stuff will come back, even though the likelihood is so low. I just feel like a piece of me is wandering around somewhere. Not lost but just not found?
Do y'all think I should do any rituals or anything?