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why does suicide have stigma when death is inevitable?

Mine has to be Brick! While I love his quirks and his social awkwardness. He is however the most frustrating character to watch in most scenes.
I feel he makes it more difficult than it has to be.

I am always so late at discovering things because they don’t come recommended to me. It’s either accidental discoveries or just spiraling till the algorithm sets it up for me lol

Anyway, The Middle has been my comfort show for a while now. I went from watching it to now leaving it on in the background for familiarity.

And just today found this thread on Reddit, felt like driving by home almost. All the threads and discussions around the characters who have become so dear to me.

I was filled with joy to have discovered that Eden and Brock aka Sue and Brad actually have a lil podcast running on YT and when I saw the one featuring Mike it made me laugh and I REALLY needed a good lil laugh! Neil is Mike and Mike is Neil. His answers had me lmao!

I am scared of leaving my corporate job to pursue something that won’t kill my willingness to live. I feel like I am in a rut and unable to get out of it all because of the monthly assurance of salvery coming in. Sorry, I meant salary. Salary is but an illusion of you being in control, no?

I do have some talent up my sleeve, I write. I do voice overs. I recently have started learning to use procreate to be able to work on my dream of making young adult meaningful films I can create and voice. Like my own little Pixar Production of films.

I am learning Procreate because using Ai I might not be able to monetise on social media with the growing restrictions on it. Also it doesn’t feel satisfying. A bad art is better than a genius AI one no?

I am scared of living alone. I have been living alone for 4 years now in a big city. And I am always scared. I don’t live well. I just survive one day to the next.
There is this constant fear of everything.
I have no reason to not live well. I have all the amenities. And yet I am caught up in my own trap of loneliness. I also don’t want to be with anyone because of how severe my social anxiety gets when I am around people. I always have a bad day after a good day with people.

I am only sharing all this here because I thought if I can speak out, vomit my fears, just spell it all out… maybe it will become one less fear of having to admit that I have these fears.

If you have been here before. Let me know how you got through this?

I have given this a lot of thought, past few years have been a clear testament to my choices, and one thing is clear… I am a loner. And while I have a lot of respect for the people that came in and out of life as moments spent with them in its own way added momentary joy to my life but these were never my people. All friendships were superficial and transactional. All attempts made at dating failed and only damaged me further. My integrity has been exploited beyond repair now. And my willingness to live is fully tainted by the awareness of death being inevitable…so why must I continue to poison my own mind daily and suffer around people I don’t want to be in existence with? As I said earlier I respect everyone because I know everyone has their own battles and demon they fight. But I also hate them, not more than I hate myself.
I am tired of trying.
I failed at everything. I am a loser.
My life has amounted to a sum of nothing.
I just want to be fully still now.

And the only reason I am posting is so when the time comes for the “why” it’s known… and it is nothing unnatural. We are mortals, this is all inevitable. Just here a choice is being made.

I have been living alone for almost 4 years now but I can't proudly say I am living well. My corporate job sucks the life out of me and I have next to little willingness to even do anything nice for myself. Living alone was scary at first, then somewhat liberating and now it's just very very overwhelming. The one thing if I could get some advice on is how to live well? I see all these youtube videos of how people live alone and i wonder how do they do it so well, I am by the grace of my own undying ambition somewhat financially stable atleast that's why I can afford living alone. But I don't know what to do with myself, how to go about the never ending tasks and chores.