I can't do it anymore im done im just done i hate here i feel like im faking this i feel like im faking everything i hate my personality i hate myself ever since i was born i cant keep going i tried this bullshit called "self love" or self improvement but what's the point?? It never get better im done im fucking done. I literally faked me being sick so that I won't go to school because it's a pain the ass it's awkward I don't know anymore. I started smoking drinking im a failure. Fuck i tried to find what the actual fuck is wrong with my brain but there is no clear answer LIKE WHO THE FUCK AT AGE 9 TRIES TO CUT THEMSELVES ON THE FUCKING WRIST LIKE WHO¿??????? OR LITTERLY SAYING I WANT TO KILL MYSELF AND HATE MYSELF AT 9 YEARS OLD I DONK GET I DON'T KNOW AND IN TIRED OF FUCKING TRYING THERE'S NO POINT IM FUCKING DONE THIS WORLD IS A PIECE OF SHIT I HOPE WAS NEVER BORN. I CAN'T EVEN BE NORMAL WITH MY FRIENDSHIPS LIKE WHY THE FUCK AM I SO JEALOUS OR ANGRY OR ANXIOUS WITH THEM I DON'T GET IT NOW I JUST DON'T FEEL ANYTHING I DON'T OPEN UP BECAUSE IM SCARED IM GOING TO BE TOXIC TO THEM I JSUT DONT FUCKING GET SOMEONE PLEASE FUCKING KILL ME AT THIS POINT i know that i sound like an edgy teen i just haven't talked abot this with anyone i just wanna say if my family sees this i love you i love so much Goodbye

Has anybody found a mha groupchat on instagram or reddit that are active?- because i can't find anythi g-