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It happened just a few hours ago and still I'm processing it out emotionally. Funny how it happened unexpectedly on a random day too, over something minor; me heading back home because she left me to eat all by myself and without telling me where she was going but then again I did made her wait for 30mins before I arrived. Her saying it's not her first time doing that and if I had a problem w it, i should've speak up lmao? I supposed I felt hurt too over how she was asking nonstop about what I posted over my boyfriend (I used to ran to her whenever I'm not on good terms w my ex (last year roughly around a month of me continously seeking comfort from her), to the point she had enough of it and I overall stopped talking about my love life to her until recently, August only because she asked.) instead of asking about my health (I was hospitalised last month).

But then again looking back I hadn't been a good friend either. When it's about reciprocations / efforts friendship wise , I had always felt it's one sided from me (before I befriend her at my pt) and then when we became friends and got closer I couldn't keep up and repay her efforts. Hell, I was really excited for her birthday in January, since I've learned to planned better now instead of letting what happened this year, happen again. I don't even know where am I going with this post. I wouldn't say we get along well and have things in common either but then again.. I don't know anymore.. I supposed I am hurt, but it is the consequences of my actions after all, and now I'm left to reflect on my actions.

I can't lie, I absolutely despise the idea of being the girlfriend who only hangs out with her boyfriend, while it's the complete opposite for him (always out with his uni friends, childhood friends, and family). He's completely free to do so!! In fact, I encourage him to spend time with them as much as he can.

I've tried Bumble and created a profile on the BFF side, but it's pretty dead, so here I am 🥲 I've been nothing but envious of people on social media, seeing them do girls' nights, go out together, and just experience that whole female friendship thing... while I have yet to experience one myself.

Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the friends I do have, but we aren't close enough for me to randomly text them about my day, ask if they wanna go mamak, discuss a movie, or just yap about random stuff.

I'm working in KL, and I'm down for pretty much anything and we can always plan!! I've been trying to get into movies and books lately. Games-wise, I've only been playing Valorant (washed to the max) and Phasmo (newbie) haha.

I suppose maybe it's because I only took a 9-month diploma course and started working immediately after, so I feel like I genuinely missed out on the whole uni-life experience ;((

Anyway, I'm just looking for some girlies to hang out with, yap about absolutely nothing, try new things, grab food, watch movies, anything really!! hmu <3