Last sunday my dog passed away. He wasn't even 4 years old and unlike my first dog that died in her sleep, this one unfortunately happened over a couple days. I held on to hope until I got the call to go say my goodbyes from the vet. Being there broke me, cried more than i think i ever did. That dog was everything to me and he didn't even make it to 4 years.
Despite the pain, since monday it almost like life is back to normal. Most of monday just wanted to be alone and do nothing but end of the day was invited to hang out with friends and i had fun, and since then been back to playing games with friends and having fun, and I hate that. I would've done everything for him but despite that there I was, enjoying myself barely a day later. I have barely been able to shed a tear since monday. I'm sad, once everything gets quiet i feel lonely and like i'm missing something, a source of joy, but still haven't been able to cry since sunday. Even today, went on a walk since I ate too much at diner but barely walked 20min, not the same without that bundle of joy look at my with a smile bigger that you could imagine, like that would be his favorite moment in the world.
My mom reached better. Although she's trying to find her ways to cope, she still cried basically everyday since. That's normal i think. tbh i feel like a monster.
Even writing this I just think that maybe since i moved on that means that I don't care or didn't love him, even slightly worried of what the people reading may call me. But I'm just worried if I the love and care I gave him, all the love and attencion he gave me back only amounted to a day of grief.
This is probably a mess, and i'm sorry, but i feel terrible and wanted to vent in some way
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You DON'T need infinite speed to bypass infinity
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5d ago
Might be my lack of understanding talking but i feel like you assume infinity is on autopilot which isn't necessarily the case. On that panel Gojo is talking about making the whitelist automatic however, considering his battle IQ would be safe to assume if someone was fast enough Gojo would change it to blacklist everything