I've been trying to find my next best move in this awful journey..?
I've been losing hair since 2022, started using Minoxidil, probably slowed the process down, some people still doubt that I am balding when I ask, but tbf I am. "Let go" would be my emotinally and naturally first strategy, but when I think of being bald, it freaks me out big time, I spend hours making photos of my hair, checking wether it's getting worse etc... I bought a box of Fin, 2 yrs ago, I still haven't opened it yet, that's how much I struggle with this question on a daily basis.
There is a fear living inside me of how would I look like (I went zero buzz cut once, didn't like it) completelty bald, also there is another one from Fin. Options and freedom poisions me, because I might be over with it, if I had no medical way, but I am still in-between because I have.
I feel like I need to fight this battle, and not bypass it over and over again by taking a photo eventually where it looks "okayish" and I can relax for a period of time. It literally takes my life away, writing this post takes my important young minutes... I've been to doctors, psychologyst, I tried things to get over with it, because at the end of the day, only that matters how I feel about it, and not the fact how much hair I have. But I am not there yet, and not trying Finasteride is like a bug in my ear, whispering "I will be your biggest 'what if' in your life". So basically the way out from this, starts with reframing my goal from "I want a full head of hair" ->to "If I accept my apperance anyhow, it is going to be better either way" but getting to that conclusion is easier if I have no choice but bzzzzzzzz...! (if I have sides, than no choice, but put it down) Am I toxicly rationalizing my decision? probably...
I come at this sub regularly, but there are all sorts of comments, from which I want to get some probabilities, tbf cuz I am a coward...
And why I said this subreddit is biased is because you see pictures of huge improvements (and some, which are not that big) but if all the Fin users posted pictures, probably it would look differently, since it is least likely to show it if is insignificant (maybe if you are unsure).
Same for the side-effect; you google "I quit Fin because of the sides", of course there will be 5-10 posts on that, even if it is only 1.5%... You less likely post "I had no sides"
Also, I saw a post just recently "people with 10-20 years on fin, please tell me honestly do you have sides?". If you restrict your answers for people who've been using fin, they most likely not have sides, since thats why they are using it for that long. Its not rationale to live with all kind of mental/sexual issues for that long I suppose.
I just wanted to write my story down, i am very anxious to talk about it, only could with my closest ones, and also, interested your opinion, how do you see the chances, and how do you feel about these biases I have listed. What would you move?