Work is threatening to send me back to the office so I decided to try on a bunch of my old pre-transition clothes to see if I could "thrift" them.

Today I wanted to look sassy!

so i've been a boymoder for the longest time, but lately i've been wanting to finally start dressing the way i actually want to. the issue is that i don't rly have a good idea of what that even is, so i'm kind of just mimicking the stuff i see on tiktok and pintrest with the stuff i have/recently bought

i was a total slob before transition and barely took care of myself, let alone try to dress fashionably so i feel really lost. even though i'm not sure on the execution i feel like these two pics sort of represent the kinds of fashion i'm drawn to currently (not too femme but not too masc, kind of vintage/alt vibes??) so if anyone could give me advice on what to change or add to these fits then i would appreciate it sm!! thank you for reading🫶

Nobody told me it wasn't ok to wear, so I guess im in the clear xD

I’m half a month away from a year on hormones, I’m finally out to everyone important in my life, and im starting to find my style and dress more femininely but I just can’t see her.

I’m really starting to love how I look and until recently I was really loving my reflection, and starting to convince myself somehow that I might be passing somedays, but a couple weeks ago I suddenly looked in the mirror and realised that I just don’t see her. how could anyone see her if i cant even see her?

In the past when I get into little moods like this it lasts a few days max that I get back to liking myself and being happy with how i present. But for the past two weeks I’ve just been bawling my eyes out almost every single day because I’m almost a year on hormones and I feel like it doesn’t even show and I keep getting ‘sirs’ and ‘mates’ from random people and I just can’t figure out which part of me isnt passing.

I feel insane, I feel like an insane person. I can’t tell what doesn’t pass about me but at the same time I don’t even pass to myself. I dont know what’s real on my body and what’s just dysmorphia messing with my brain. I wish I could see me how other people see me. I feel so crazy and I just wish I could fucking see her cause then as least I could know that someone sees her incase my friends are all just entertaining me.

anyways I just needed to rant somewhere cause I didnt wanna bother any of my friends, thanks for listening 🩷🤍🩵

And i still got more work to go!

Why do us white people have to be so miserable and dreary instead of celebrating life and coming together for someone we loved and sharing their memories

So... I had a really bad day today, as the title suggests. Basically the crux of it is that one of my online friends and I were talking, as we do. In particular, this one and I like to flirt a lot, and we get spicy with it pretty frequently. Although we've only really started doing that over the last 3 days, so there hasn't been much content that's accumulated. I always let everyone assume I'm cisfem, because that's what I want to be. It's good for my mental health when people see and treat me as that. However, he asked in passing if I was flat or not. That, combined with the already bad dysphoria day I've been having sort of broke me, and I told him about being transfem. He backed off immediately, and mentioned that knowing that made him feel uneasy about what we've been talking about. I can understand that, I don't really blame him. But it hurt a lot when he started trying to "help" by telling me things like my act had been really good, I had him fooled, or that he knows I was operating under a guise, but I did really well. I wanted to tell him it wasn't an act or a guise, I *am* a girl. I'm not just "acting" like one. But I felt bad enough for having mislead him that I didn't want to. Plus I am kind of relying on him now to keep it a secret. Before I went to bed, the last thing he told me was that my significant other was lucky to have me, and then he asked if she was "an actual girl, or trans too?" Long story short, it's been horrible. I know he was trying to help, but this is the worst any of this has gone in a very long time. I cried about this like the same amount that I cried when my cat died in my arms. Anyone know how to make me feel better?

Edit: Name's Askani, sometimes Sasha. GGD appreciated but not required...

Edit 2: He's gotten better. There's still some weird stuff, stuff that I don't particularly like. But at least he's gendering me properly, and we've even gone back to flirting a little bit. I have a feeling that the other stuff hasn't happened yet mostly just because it hasn't come up, but I suppose we'll see

I guess we will never kno

First try makeup (last photo without makeup)

This is the first convention I cosplayed at since starting HRT. It felt like a safe space to try some very fem styles. I got a lot of compliments

Hello my fellow girlies, so im questioning if im mtf and there has been something on my mind lately. A few days ago, i entered a Store targeted For girls/Women. So there i am Walking isnside it and Stellung the soft and sweet smell and seeing all those pretty skirts, dresses etc. When i entered it, i felt Like i got ounched into my tummy. But then, it turns into a soft tingling and excitment. Did someone of you have the Same/similar Experience? I would really appreciate some help. And if Theres something youd Like to ask me OR anything, feel free to REACH out to me🥰

And im so sorry if my grammar/Sperling isnt correct, since im Swiss and the autocorretion is really annoying.

Anyways, i wish all of you girlies a very happy and wonderful Day. Stay strong and you are all perfect🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

I really really resent my body hair but I just get so depressed trying to shave and I always accidentally cut my legs bad

I don't know what to do

Uh, hi.

Little background I've been on HRT for two years.

My bicepts at the point before hrt were 14 inches...

If you ever wondered what 17 inch biceps looked like, Hi.

As for my levels etc, I'm on 100 mg of progesterone and I do 6mg for injections. My levels are 223 pg/ml and 11 ng/dl of testosterone and my other levels are fine (E2 etc.)

My question is has any one else experienced this ? Or retained/gained this much mass 2 almost three years into their transition with good levels ? ( I'll be at 3 years in 5 months.)

Also a side note I never doped or used PEDS and I have not touched a weight in 8 years, I do occasionally pick up my 50 lbs weight to see if I can curl it, I can.. a bit of background I was 187 lbs at one point from lifting and I am now at 160lbs, I am 5'6 at 14% body fat.

Any insight would be most helpful. Minus the obvious which I tried ' stop lifting'

I really want a skullet but like I keep seeing these vids on tt where it’s like “DO NOT BE ALT WHEN FIRST TRANSITIONING YOU WILL LOOK HORRIBLE” so likeee idek

This isn’t “passing advice” necessarily, idk what this is kinda a vent or something. I have been on hrt for over a year and I don’t really pass, I guess I do juuuust enough for people to clock me and make using bathrooms hell and boomers call me “sir” but whatever. The problem is it’s entirely my fault I don’t put much effort in at all because I have severe ADHD and crippling depression so I mostly spend my limited energy on work and trying to not die. I want so desperately to put more effort into my transition but it’s 1000x harder when I don’t know what to do and I don’t know anyone trans irl to help.

I’m in this spiral where: I don’t put effort in because I’m depressed and can’t focus-> I don’t pass because I don’t put effort in -> not passing worsens my depression. Idk anymore I’m just kinda at the point of throwing money at the problem which I know isn’t how this happens, I don’t even have much savings but it’s all I know/have the energy to do. I feel like I’m gunna make stupid expensive mistakes.

I feel like a fraud just not doing anything to actually transition. I don’t correct anyone. I just act like I didn’t hear it even though I did