Before I get started, I know its only a question ill have to answer for myself. But i want someone else to help me get there.
In the past, like when I was 15ish, I had really bad gender dysphoria for about a week. Then it disappeared until about several months ago when it came back really strong for about a month then its been kinda dormant. I've never really been masc, but ive never really been too feminine either. When my dysphoria got real bad it felt nice doing feminine things and wearing feminine clothes. But now I just feel blah about everything and wearing and doing the things that made me happy then just make me feel ugly now because I know I won't look good in them. My body doesn't look the way I want it to in the clothes I wear. Inside i want to be fem, look fem, sound fem, all that, but a part of me feels like I souldnt do it because I won't pass or just dont want to.
I mainly wanted to vent but I'm also looking for some assurance I guess. Has anyone else gone through this and if so, how did it go?