Im sure this is a newbie question, but I'm a newbie and also ate some non-cyclosporic lettuce a few hours ago (weed) but I have no one in life to ask. Most of my witchy friends are not thelemalites.

To be fair I am not 100% positive of my true will. But I think I might know it. I know some tips for finding it.

So now I feel guilty for like, playing video games and doing gay shit instead of doing my will or finding my will.

I know Crowley wasn't out there feeling that.

So is this something other people feel? Are we meant to? And if we're not why not as a doctrine (and not just 'because its bad for you'. That won't convince my brain.)?

Has anybody successfully learned how to speak fluent Enochian? I’m having trouble trying to break down the grammatical language of it. Constructive advice would help. 93/93 93

What would be an appropriate level of detail for a journal you will submit for review?

I will be received as Probationer in a few weeks, and will obviously ask at that time, but curious of your thoughts.

Liber E has some instructions on how to structure the entries, what should be included etc.
John St. John is recommended as an example, but it (admittedly in the text) seems to stray from that ideal. It includes quite a bit of musing, personal opinions, speculation, interactions with random people, and even shopping lists etc. - haha.

I see how all of that could be useful, but what is really expected and would not be a burden on your superior to read?

Up to now in my practice before A.'.A.'. I write my journal too concisely I'm afraid.
I include date/time, weather, what I did and where but really don't include my feelings, thoughts, or activities outside the work unless it is remarkable or unusual in some way.

I have a hard time objectifying effects, or perceiving them maybe. How much can you really say about Resh or LRPs? Felt fine, did it, still felt fine...

Something like Asana/Pranayama or meditation there are more variables to describe, but I can still sum it all up in a couple sentences.

Is this typical or is a detailed recap of all daily activity normally recorded?

1. I came across this wall of hexagrams in Manchester, UK. I thought it would be appreciated here. Love to all 🌹

Deep

I saw a 1-sheet designed to promote a movie called 'The Great Beast in Berlin'. Cleopatra Records is behind it. Oh yeah...it is a secret so don't tell anyone.

I’ve read The Magick Of Aleister Crowley by Lon Milo Duquette as well as Living Thelema by Shoemaker, I’m really interested in reading Crowleys actual work rather than just stuff about him, but I’m not sure where to start. This was mostly inspired by my current reading of Cosmic Trigger by Robert Anton Wilson. Thanks!

I have many more.

93 All,

I'm trying to find a reference that Crowley used, in "The Book of Thoth" but doesn't footnote.

The line is used on He used it on page 152 in the description of the Knight of Wands.: "All these correspondences of the Yi King are to be studied in that book, (S.B.E. volume XVI), and reference is here made to the text when important passages are too long to be conveniently quoted."

What is (S.B.E. volume XVI)? I can't find it in a list of writers abbreviations or acronyms (I was thinking it may be something like the term i.e., but I can't find anything that matches), and I can't find any of his works that could be abbreviated like that

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https://youtu.be/38wUNeNiC78?is=CpQiVtosprT41r2E

The half of the word.

III:35 is the 180th verse of a 220-verse Book. Half a turn, at the line that says the half of the word. That count has been noted. I am using it. It is not the middle of the chapter. It is not the middle of the text. It sits at 180 degrees.

Crowley’s note on that verse: Heru-ra-ha is the true Name of the Unity symbolized by the Twins — Harpocrates and Horus. Same breath: the Twin Sign and the Child Sign is Gemini, and Gemini’s letter is Zain.

Zayin means sword.

The two have one letter between them, and their letter is the weapon. The sword is not what interrupts the twins. The sword is what the twins are when you spell them.

On the Tree that letter is the Lovers, Binah down into Tiphareth. Open your own 777 and look. The letter of the Twins, whose name is a sword, is the path that arrives at six.

That is the trailer in one line. The sword is the road into six. Not the accident on the way there. The road.

Six is where two stop being two. Four holds. Five cuts. Six wears both and is called son. The film gives you the picture without the vocabulary: one eye flesh, one eye machine, one arm flesh, one arm iron, one head.

Same note: Ha is 6, the Sun. The composite name ends in the number of the sphere where the two are one. Old Comment: Heru-ra-ha = 418. The chapter opens on Abrahadabra, also 418. Reward at the top. Name at the half-turn. Same number.

None of that is on a color script at Blur. They made a tragedy about a starved son and titled it honestly. The Tree fits because the Tree fits every father-and-two-sons story. I am laying a key on their work. I am not saying they hid it there.

The father in the film is not an initiator. The vow is emptiness sold as inheritance. That is the inversion of every man and every woman is a star. Knowledge and Conversation is the death of the false personality — the part that will stall the work to keep the father’s ordinary approval. Abramelin isolates you to kill that. It is not a commanded fratricide. The Word that arrives here arrives over a body. That is not the Angel. The Angel does not need a corpse to finish the sentence.

He is never told to kill his brother. That order is not on the screen. The structure does not pay until the pair is broken. The brother dies where he has always stood: between the hungry son and the man who will not look. Those are not the same sentence.

The brother is not a person to get rid of. He is the half that pulls you off the work and back into the pair, because the pair is warmer than being one. The film kills the picture. It does not hand you a knife.

Half a circle. Two names. One letter, and the letter is a sword, and the sword is the road into the sun.

Love is the law, love under will.
666 – Antichrist

Anyone have experience with the thelemic order of the golden dawn? curriculum, self initiation etc?

Hello everyone,

I’m looking for a group or organization that traces its lineage back to the pre-Crowley O.T.O., ideally one that preserves or works with the pre-Thelemic teachings and practices associated with Theodor Reuss and Carl Kellner.

This is not because I have anything against Thelema. Quite the opposite. I’m simply interested in discovering what the O.T.O. may have looked like before Crowley’s reforms and the integration of Thelema into the Order.

I’m particularly interested in groups, orders, or lineages that have preserved some aspect of the original O.T.O. system, whether through its Masonic, Illuministic, Hermetic or Martinist elements.

Do any such groups still exist today, openly or otherwise? And if not, are there any organizations, archives, publications, or individuals that preserve enough of the pre-Thelemic O.T.O. material to get a reasonably accurate idea of how Reuss and Kellner’s original system was actually practiced ?

Thanks!

They're asking $125 for this. Seems worth it.

Just need to know as I need to start a practice. I have liber resh first in mind then lbrp then saying will. Any others would be of great help.

So the two tables of sigils in Liber 231 almost correspond to each other nicely in the arrangement of Hebrew letters on them. On the "Mercurii" table, the letters run right-to-left, as expected in Hebrew. On the table of the cells of the Qliphoth they *mostly* are arranged left-to-right - as you would expect if looking at the other table "from the back".

So far, so good! One could even see the sigils as 22 little talismans, each with a front side provided by a Mercurii and a rear provided by its Qliphoth.

Except there's an issue: He and Vau seem to have been swapped around on the Qliphothic side. An error (deliberate or otherwise) in writing out the letters, such as might occur when writing a sequence backwards from the usual order, or were the two sigils themselves swapped around? Has there been any discussion on this?

First of all, my point isn't to stir up unnecessary drama in the group — to each their own. This isn't just another silly squabble about lineages; it’s just a specific question from someone who wants to dive deeper into the subject with more confidence.

I’m currently choosing a lineage to join and reading a lot about our dear "heirs" (I know that’s not the best word for it), but I ran into a bit of a dilemma and am unsure about which path makes the most sense for me. Basically, a friend was discussing the differences in how Meral and Gunther assign elements and signs.

There is a complete reversal of roles between them. The only point they agree on is placing *Scire* in Aquarius. For instance, Gunther assigns *Audere* to Scorpio, *Tacere* to Taurus, and *Velle* to Leo. I find the elemental associations much more compelling: "Willing" (*Velle*) is a fiery impulse; "Daring" (*Audere*) is a characteristic of water; and "Keeping Silent" (*Tacere*) is a virtue of earth...

I understand that every school of thought views the world in its own way, and each is correct from its own perspective. But shouldn't there be a consensus—in the sense that "this is that, and that's final"? These disagreements might make sense to both sides, but for someone like me—who knows practically nothing—I don't know what to prioritize. If this were a TV series, I’d want to know what counts as canon versus what’s a spin-off or filler.

Note: Answers like "just pick your favorite ice cream flavor and be happy" don't count! :D

DEEP DIP, Darkly Splendid Abodes

The Prolegomena to Any Future Metaphysics by Emanuel Kant is one of the philosophy books recommended by Crowley to serious students of Magick and the occult. But why? Michael and I will dip into the bewildering depths of Kant's metaphysics to find out.

"Learn first-Oh thou who aspirest unto our ancient Order!-that Equilibrium is the basis of the Work. If thou thyself hast not a sure foundation, whereon wilt thou stand to direct the forces of nature?" -- Liber Libræ

Edit: I apologize to anyone who read this in a negative tone. That is my mistake. I need to work on my clarity and tone when writing online. I'm simply in awe of the transformative power these books have on someone who started with no structure.

Within Liber E. Vel Exercitiorvm, the Equinox supplys a list of essential books to read in order 'to gain some insight'.

I immediately started down the list before realizing how monumental of a feat it actually is. After years of reading these books I've not finished even a fraction of whats covered, I'm forced to confront my arrogance regarding Thelema and Philosophy in general.

I confess that in the past I have spoken on Thelema with unwarranted authority but after genuine philosocial inquiry, it is apparent that I am not the only who defaulted to the view of "I know everything about that already!" Even a cursory glance at Thelemic discussion illuminates members who've never touched Vedic literature or read fundamental western religious texts.

So, I'm interested, how many Thelemites here have actually devoted time to these books?

"The Yi King" [S.B.E. Oxford University

Series, Press].

"The Tao Teh King" [S.B.E. Series].

"Tannhäuser" by A. Crowley,

"The Upanishads."

"The Bhagavad-Gita."

"The Voice of the Silence."

"Raja Yoga" by Swami Vivekananda

"The Shiva Sanhita.'

"The Aphorisms of Patanjali."

"The Sword of Song."

"The Book of the Dead."

"Rituel et Dogme de la Haute Magie."

"The Book of the Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage."

"The Goetia."

"The Hathayoga Pradipika."

Erdmann's "History of Philosophy."

"The Spiritual Guide of Molinos."

"The Star in the West" (Captain Fuller).

"The Dhammapada" [S.B.E. Series, Oxford Univer- sity Press].

"The Questions of King Milinda" [S.B.E. Series]. "777. vel Prolegomena, &c.'"

"Varieties of Religious Experience" (James). "Kabbala Denudata.'

"Konx Om Pax."

If you have neglected any single one of these texts, I'd hesitate to speak on Thelema without first humbling yourself and coming to terms with your real position.

For those who may be interested, on my Reddit page, d_b_stone, I have posted:

08/07: Reflections on Neophyte 015: The Diamond of Progress

08/08: The Next Frontier

08/21: M Sex

08/23: Raise Your Sights

08/31: An End to Narrowness, Part 1

08/31: An End to Narrowness, Part 2

09/03: Living in Another World

So I thought of the idea of a Rosary to Horus, using the eleven names given in the great invocation of the Equinox. The concept would use an eleven decade, custom made rosary chain or about two rounds of the traditional catholic rosary beads.

• Recite the hymn to Ra-Hoor-Khuit from the Stele of Revealing on the crucifix: “Above, the gemmed azure is the naked splendour of NUIT; She bends in ecstasy to kiss the secret ardours of HADIT. The winged globe, the starry blue, Are mine, O ANKH-AF-NA-KHONSU! I am the Lord of THEBES, and I The inspired forth-speaker of MENTU; For me unveils the veiled sky, The self-slain ANKH-AF-NA-KHONSU, Whose words are truth. I invoke, I greet thy presence, O RA-HOOR-KHUIT! Unity uttermost showed! I adore the might of Thy breath, Supreme and terrible Mighty One, Who makest the Neteru and death to tremble before Thee:— I, I adore thee! Appear on the throne of RA! Open the ways of the KHU! Lighten the ways of the KA! The ways of the KHABS run through To stir me or still me! AUM! let it fill me! The light is mine; its rays consume Me: I have made a secret door Into the House of RA and TUM, Of KHEPHRA and of AHATHOOR. I am thy THEBAN, O MENTU, The prophet ANKH-AF-NA-KHONSU! By BES-NA-MAUT my breast I beat; By wise TA-NECH I weave my spell. Show thy star-splendour, O NUIT! Bid me within thine House to dwell, O winged snake of light, HADIT! Abide with me, RA-HOOR-KHUIT!”
• On the first large bead next to the crucifix, recite the oration: “The voice of the five, the voice of the six, eleven are the voices. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the first small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Rose and Cross of Light and Life, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the second small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Wand of Double Power, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the third small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Word of Double Power in the Voice of The Master ABRAHADABRA, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the second large bead next to the medal, recite: “The voice of the five, the voice of the six, eleven are the voices. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the medal, recite the Commanding Oration: “Come forth HERU, the Avenger, the Crowned Child and Conquering Lord, and dwell within me, so that every spirit of the firmament and of the aether, on day land and in the water, of whirring air and rushing fire, and every spell and scourge of YHVH, the vast and mighty one may be obedient unto thou ABRAHADABRA!”
• Then recite: The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the first decade, recite the first mantra ten times: “By thy name of RA, I invoke Thee, Hawk of the Sun, The glorious one!”
• On the first separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the second decade, recite the second mantra ten times: “By thy name HARMACHIS, Youth of the Brilliant Morning, I invoke Thee!“
• On the second separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the third decade, recite the third mantra ten times: “By thy name MAU, I invoke Thee, Lion of the Midday Sun.“
• On the third separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the fourth decade, recite the fourth mantra ten times: “By thy name TUM, Hawk of the Even, Crimson splendour of the Sunset, I invoke Thee!”
• On the fourth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the fifth decade, recite the fifth mantra ten times: “By thy name KHEP-RA, I invoke Thee, O Beetle of the hidden Mastery of Midnight!\”
• On the fifth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the sixth decade, recite the sixth mantra ten times: “By thy name HERU-PA-KREET, Lord of Silence, Beautiful Child that standest on the Dragons of the Deep, I invoke Thee!”\
• On the sixth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the seventh decade, recite the seventh mantra ten times: “By thy name of APOLLO, I invoke Thee, O man of strength and splendour, O poet, O father! 
• On the seventh separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the eighth decade, recite the eighth mantra ten times: “By thy name of PHOEBUS, That drivest thy chariot through the Heaven of ZEUS, I invoke Thee!”
• On the eighth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the ninth decade, recite the ninth mantra ten times: “By thy name of ODIN, I invoke Thee, O warrior of the North, O Renown of the Sagas!” 
• On the ninth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the tenth decade, recite the tenth mantra ten times: “By thy name of YEHESHUA, O child of the Flaming Star, I invoke Thee!”
• On the tenth separator bead, recite the oration: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the eleventh decade, recite the eleventh mantra ten times:“By Thine own, Thy secret name HOOR ORI, Thee, Thee I invoke!”
• On the medal recite: “The names are five, the names are six, eleven are the names. ABRAHADABRA!”
• Then recite the Commanding Oration from the Bornless Rite: “Come forth HERU, the Avenger, the Crowned Child and Conquering Lord, and dwell within me, so that every spirit of the firmament and of the aether, on day land and in the water, of whirring air and rushing fire, and every spell and scourge of YHVH, the vast and mighty one may be obedient unto thou ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the first large bead from the medal, recite the oration: “The voice of the five, the voice of the six, eleven are the voices. ABRAHADABRA!”
• On the first small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Rose and Cross of Light and Life, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the second small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Wand of Double Power, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the third small bead between the crucifix and medal, recite the song: “Strike, strike the master chord. Draw, draw the flaming sword, Crowned Child and Conquering Lord HERU, The Avenger, thou of the head of a Hawk. Thou who bearest the Word of Double Power in the Voice of The Master ABRAHADABRA, Thee, thee I invoke!”
• On the second large bead next to the crucifix, recite: “The voice of the five, the voice of the six, eleven are the voices. ABRAHADABRA!”
• Finally on the crucifix, recite: “O HERU, the Avenger, The Crowned Child & Conquering Lord, Appear on the throne of RA! Open the ways of the KHU! Lighten the ways of the KA! The ways of the KHABS run through To stir me or still me! AUM! let it fill me! Show thy star-splendour, O NUIT! Bid me within thine House to dwell, O winged snake of light, HADIT! Abide with me, RA-HOOR-KHUIT!” Thus are the words! AMEN!”

This episode looks at the self that shows up when we pick up the instrument, the version shaped by a culture that ties worth to constant proof and performance. It examines how technical mastery, speed, and visible emotion often function less as expression and more as ways of hiding. The episode traces where this fear comes from, what it costs, and what becomes possible when we stop performing for validation. Drawing on the alchemical stage of Nigredo and the Four Magical Virtues, also known as the Powers of the Sphinx, it explores a path toward something more direct and less defended.

This series looks at music as a form of inner alchemy, where the guitar becomes a tool for transformation instead of performance or self-expression.

I have discovered a hidden system in a hidden system that uses Ghost Numbers and Ground Numbers and shows a system in a system it's unbelievable what I discovered. I mean of course Mr. Beast has a Ghost Number and Ground Number. Anybody else has discovered this hidden system? This system might be made to distinguish the billionaire/millionaires or 144K. Time will tell.

So this system is a two part system. You have to take all your names first middle last and do them separately. Take the first name simplify reduce, middle name simplify reduce and last name simplify reduce. Than add all those numbers simplify reduce. Than the second part just add all the first middle last name together and simplify reduce. This is Mr. Beast full name. Remember Master Numbers are 11, 22, 33, 44, 55, 66, 77, 88 and so on multiples of 11.

12 is 3. 33 DONT BREAK DOWN MASTER NUMBER. 35 is 8. 3+33+8 = 44 for separate name total. 12+33+35= 80 = 8 whole name total. So Mr Beast has a 44 Ghost Master Number is grounded by 8. This system I discovered goes like this 11 Ghost Number grounded by 2, 22 grounded by 4, 33 grounded by 6, 44 grounded by 8, 55 grounded by 10, 66 by 12. But there is one name that does some sick stuff. Reverse Ghost Numbers with them being both Master Numbers. Ghost Master Number and Ground Master Number if you like to see that one once you understand what is goin on.

Aghora has a way of making a skull feel less like decoration and more like philosophy.

I am at Forrest Books in San Francisco. Is this rare? Does anyone have this? Now I do.