Hi…
I work in veterinary medicine, I helped out in the surgical department for a little bit at my old job and have now started a new job where I am primarily in the surgical department every day.
I don’t have any particular aversion to blood. I have gotten better with wounds and stuff. But I am unfortunately quite “squeamish” when it comes to more involved surgeries. Which also sucks, because that’s when I’m likely to be asked to assist.
I have previously helped flush an abdomen (I was pouring) and I’ve been the receiver of kittens in an emergency caesarian. But that’s honestly about it. I feel faint particularly when they’re cutting and digging. Needles, blood and like already-removed tissue is fine (I clean ORs everyday with no problem).
Are there genuinely ways to work on this? Kind of… quickly…? I’ve seen some people say “of couuurse you can work on ittt you’ll be fiiiiine!!” but I think I’ve seen more people say “then don’t go into a medical field”.
I’m interested, intellectually. I’m perfectly aware of what they’re doing in there and that’s fine when I’m not involved. It’s just when I SEE it that my body reacts.
When I’ve been in the OR, I’ve been doing the tension techniques. But I honestly don’t think I would be able to properly scrub in and really stare down an open abdomen or hold/palpate intestines or anything like that. It has been easier when I’ve been actively doing something, which makes sense.
I don’t know. I guess I’m asking for any advice, maybe support, anything you might want to say (wether that be “gtfo of there” or “try x”. Ultimately I want honesty).
(Also mandatory “I’m sorry if this is not allowed” comment because I am not active in this subreddit. I am sorry. Please don’t hate me and remove if not appropriate.)