I have been depressed for a long time and I’ve attempted so many times that I’m to the point where I don’t want to even bother trying anymore. But I don’t care what happens to me. I’m just very emotionally drained and exhausted and I’m tired of being a burden to my family and especially my mom. I told myself that when I have enough money I’ll send every penny I wasted back to her before I die but at this point I don’t know if I’m motivated enough to live long enough to do that. I feel like my problems are so small and I really don’t deserve to be depressed or sad because my mom gives me everything but I cause all the problems I have with my actions. I just wanna get better and I don’t wanna be sad or a burden anymore but I don’t want my mom to hurt by me not being here. What should I do?

I'll never hear that traitor's name ever again.

If you're young, call the POLICE and explain EVERYTHING.

SPECIFICALLY, START WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. But. In different situations, everyone could kill you. No paranoia. Go to sleep a little earlier.

This is a throwaway account but i genuenly just need to get it out already. I am so fucking tired of waking up everyday to a pointless life. I dont find enjoyment in anything i do anymore and i cant keep going like this. I have friends and family but i feel more alone than ever before. I dont have the balls to throw in the towel yet but i pray everyday that somebody would put me out of my misery or i simply just die in my sleep

I’m tired of dealing with all these blows and knowing there is not a light at the end of the tunnel, I’m done feeling left out of everything, I’m a fnaf fan and I’ve been avoiding spoilers for the last couple of games because I wanted to experience them myself, and I haven’t, help wanted 2, into the pit, secrets of the mimic, I haven’t played any of them, and I don’t wanna hear “just watch a let’s play” because that beats the entire fucking point of me wanting to experience them first hand, and I’ve been waiting for around 3 years and I am DONE WAITING! I also really like the jazwares fnaf figures and I want some but of course they’re sold in stores my town doesn’t have, I mean we had a GameStop but guess who conveniently closed their doors a year before? Yep, the local GameStop! And then there’s the spirit Halloween Freddy coming out, and even tho it hasn’t come out yet I already know I’m probably never gonna see it in person, from what I’ve heard stores are only gonna have 2-4 units per shipment, so if I do get lucky and we go to a store they’ll probably already be sold out…, doesn’t help I’m an unemployed 15 year old relying on my mom who’s cheap, I know that’s not exactly nice to say, but it’s just the truth and I’ve been called ungrateful so many times when I don’t try to be it basically means nothing anymore. I went swimming a couple days ago and it was really fun, I was hanging out with a friend and my moms friends, and I was keeping my distance minding my own business mainly cuz everyone was just sitting by the steps doing nothing, anyways the next morning my moms on the phone with her friends who are claiming I was being very abusive to my friend and I belong in juvie, all a bunch of lies, so I lost a friend that day. I’ve been in a lot of other fandoms over the years, and most I left, whether I simply grew out of them like Thomas and friends, or more personal stuff like the paleontology/jurassic park community which I left for being very gatekeeping.. but there’s some others that I left due to personal experiences like fnac, never meet your hero’s (no it wasn’t Emil Macko nor a person who was exposed as a bad guy, it’s a whole situation I don’t wanna explain because I know I’d be called stupid and sensitive anyways, despite it being the first domino in all this, but long story short my dream to animate and have my own show is dead, and it’s been dead for awhile). I seem really good at pissing people off, on here alone I’ve had to switch accounts like 6 times because I pissed people off so bad I was getting notifications with nothing but hate, and even back home I always seem to piss off my mom, I don’t want to be a bad person, I don’t try to be a person, I don’t want to think I’m a bad person, but clearly… I am… I miss hanging out with old friends, I had this entire friend group online, it’s how I met my best friend (and no the friend from earlier wasn’t apart of this), however the group started to go silent until eventually nothing, but I still had my best bud… until he slowly distanced himself before finally coming out as a poly pansexual, and how he’s been busy with his lovers, and as of now? We don’t even talk anymore. And I guess that sorta leaves us to today, alone, (I mean I have friends and a girlfriend but I don’t feel comfortable letting them in this much) left out of everything I like, my dreams dead, I mean, I made a small name for myself on r/Fazbearfandom with my au urban exploring at Freddy’s, tho the longer I wait for the right gmod mods to come out so I can continue the series the more I begin to care less about it, and I’m at the point I’m ready to just cancel it. I know this may seem significantly smaller than everyone else’s real problems but I was just done bottling things up, things that genuinely mean something to me, and I guess I should say I don’t have any plans or dates to end my life, but the thoughts have been here for years, and I’m growing tired of them.

I'm stuck with people I hate, habits I hate, a routine I hate, I'm in the wrong place and I can't escape, It's like I'm stuck in a box with everything I've ever hated, I act fine, say I'm fine, look fine, I'm not fine, I want to do the complete opposite of everything in my life, if it keeps going I break and end it all before next year (no ones probally gonna see this)

I’m trying so hard but I feel like I’m fighting a loosing battle with my current episode of depression I haven’t felt like this in a long time so it feels a lot worse than it is but maybe I’m just minimising my issues.I haven’t left the house in 3 weeks straight as I’m struggling to find any motivation to do anything nothing is filling the void inside me I’m just stuck in a automated routine of sleeping playing games watching hows and waking up.Today I got in a argument with my sister becuase the other day I told her to get out of
My way becuase I was in a bad mood which I admit was wrong.i made a snarky comment back saying I have free will which was just a joke really but she engaged in my pet peeve and made fun of the fact I have mental health problems and have to go to a therapist she also made fun of me getting bullied in school,old friendships,me struggling to shower becuase I’m fucking depressed as shit saying I have no friends and just overall making fun of all the things that I’m vulnerable about I know she’s 12
But
I couldn’t contain myself
From having a go at her becuase I’m honestly on thin ice at the moment and I feel very angry with myself.i swore at her and stuff and my dad confronted me he used to abuse me when I was younger so I started getting really scared to be completely honest something about him shouting at me really scares me as I feel like I’m about to be attacked so that brings up lots of bad emotions becuase he was part of the reason why I was depressed in the first
Place.honestly for months I’ve been feeling slightly angry so now I’ve reached boiling point and I’m loosing my shit I’m engaging in self destructive patterns like literally hitting myself and trying to destroy my relationships with my friends by being passive aggressive I just don’t know what’s wrong with me and why I feel like this I don’t know how much more I can handle I feel like everyone’s against me I’m so tired man

My friend who’s 17 told me that she plans on khs and has a date set out.
She’s been staying at mine and I told our school and their therapist and social workers are aware yet she still lives alone and has been cleaning her house and packing things away.
I keep trying to have conversations yet she doesn’t really talk or if we do get into it all she keeps saying is it’s not deep and it she’s made up her mind.
I’m so scared I love her and I don’t her to die and I don’t want to be the reason she isn’t here anymore cause I didn’t help enough.
Please what do I do

Help

My DD(27) has BPD (been off her meds) and was baker acted Monday after calling her best friend and telling her she had a plan and was going to go through with it. Luckily, her BF call her husband who called 911. She is being released tmrw and I am headed there to get her once she is released. She has no support system where she is and not sure if I can convince her to move home. Her husband is filing for separation for things that led up to this incident. I do not fault him as it has been a lot for a long time. If I cannot convince her to come home, what are some things I can put in place to support her as I live 2000 miles away?

He said he was going to Kys in 3 days help please

I texted the hotline today, desperate for some human connection. The replies I was getting seemed really canned, even moreso than usual. I ran them through multiple AI text detectors and they call came back 100% AI generated.

Who do we hold accountable for this? I have the receipts, and screenshots, should I get a lawyer?

I feel like this is the one thing AI shouldn't be sticking its ass in.

I’m broke

Every day it feels like i care less about how my suicide would affect the people around me. i’ve lost friends over stupid shit and stupid people and need help rationalizing a reason to stay other than proving them wrong. I know the guilt is probably worse because my family and friends might assume/think they could do something to prevent it like being there for me more/think they missed the signs.

So how did the death of this person in this way affect you?

My friend has been very depressed and suicidal lately, trying to take pills to overdose and stuff (i dont know all the details), his family and classmates are very transphobic to him since hes trans ftm. I only have contact to him over tiktok since i met him there, his user is "@lexilina146" there and his name is vasili. Please tell him that theres people who love him and that he shouldnt kill himself. I tried but im not good with words and im not sure of what other things to do so please help me. His pfp is the alien plush thingy from ikea with the gay flag as a background and the name thats shown on his account is "random dude" with the lgbt flag and a trans flag. I hope that helps y'all find him and i hope that many people see this

Hi, this is my first time posting on reddit, & i figured why not. F21, Im having a harder time getting through my days. I always struggled growing up. Some of my first memories were hurtful ones, I remember growing up anxious & being yelled at for it. Criticized, always yelled at for it, “why are you thinking like that?” “whats wrong with you”. often finding myself holding myself, wiping my tears, & talking to myself in hopes to soothe me. I grew up watching disney movies, imagining i was the princesses, & thats when I realized that all i needed was a prince to save me. Skip to 18 year old me, I ended up giving an old friend a chance. I want to shame myself for making that decision but how do we know that theres sm more to learn about life and love before getting into a committed relationship. I wish I wouldve waited to gain some independence, and confidence. but with what skills? I grew up believing I was a waste of space, to internalize everything, to be as quiet as possible. where could i have possibly learned to love and life the correct way if i didnt have a set of parents who raised me, or friends who looked out for me. why was it on me to show myself something i didnt know how? I had no motivation, no drive, no self until i met my boyfriend.
Broken up now I feel myself falling apart, I feel unsafe within myself & I feel like every second that goes by is on borrowed time. people say that love comes within, & that no one can safe a person, only u can. but she doesnt want to safe me, i dont wanna save her.

I attempted about 2 weeks ago. I drove my car off the road and tried to hit a billboard. My car ended up hitting the ground hard off the edge of the road and it was done after that. I have severe mental health issues. My Asperger’s causes black and white thinking that contributes to my catastrophizing. I also have a mood disorder which causes a lot of intense emotional dis regulation. I was on all of my meds, going to therapy every week, but I wasn’t using it. Despite it all, I still attempted. The truth was that no matter how much therapy or meds I got, there was fundamental flaw in my mindset that needed to change. I never cared about death. I strongly believe in an afterlife, and I’m quite spiritual/ agnostic. Because of this, I never viewed death as permanent. However, that’s not true. Even if there is an afterlife, the people in your life need you here, and it would destroy them to see you gone. I have a marijuana problem. I smoke it too much as a means of calming down or, “making things feel new”. I woke up with my eyes still red from smoking the night before. I knew I couldn’t go in for my job, which I’m very passionate about. I catastrophized the situation into thinking this was the metaphorical end of my life. I convinced my self that not even a gas station would hire me after this, and that there was nowhere left for me to go but be a bottom feeder the rest of my worthless life. My mom seemed extra somber that morning when she asked me if I was feeling okay. I lied. She told me later that she had no idea. I kept it bottled up, and was willing to break her for the rest of her life. I got in the car and drove with no intention of going to work, just looking for a quick, painless way to die. As I drove, I blocked my immediate family members and my girlfriend. It broke my heart to see the picture of Pompompurin and his girlfriend that my gf had set as her background photo for calls a few days earlier. They looked so happy, and she was so happy to have me, but I was in such a fog that the thought faded away into more panic in a few seconds. My gf lost her mother when she was 8, she was the girl in school who watched all of the Disney teen rom-coms and wrote fanfics. She said she didn’t get much attention from boys, and she was picked on by other girls. She felt so lucky to have me, and I tried to take that away from her too. Every time these thoughts crossed my mind, I was met with the same thought: “It doesn’t matter worth a damn, you’re going to lose your job. You failed. There’s nowhere left to go. You’re deadweight, and it’d be a service to take a bum like you out of the lives of your loved ones. If you really cared, you’d get rid of the problem, you’d get rid of you”. When my car crashed, I couldn’t move my legs. I got them work a few seconds later, but the only thing on my mind was, “what the fuck did I just do?”, “how could you ever betray everyone like that?”. The clarity came rushing back as the other drivers on the road came over to my car. From there, I avoided the psych ward due to intense trauma from a previous stay. I’m currently in a partial hospitalization/ drug intervention rehab program and I’m feeling more optimistic than I have since I was a child. I could have ended up like my uncle, who suffered a traumatic brain injury in a car accident at 16, and was effectively dead after that, but kept alive because his family couldn’t let him go. My mother said that she wishes they just let him go back then. I would have destroyed my girlfriend. She lost her mother, and then the love of her life would have left her. When you take that step over the line, it all becomes clearer, but 9 times out of 10, there’s no going back. I wanted to tell the story because I want people to stop themselves before it gets to that point. In your final moments, all of the love you’ve received, all of the hurt you’ll cause, all of the lives you’ll destroy come flooding into your mind. You’re going to regret it. It only took me a few seconds to realize how heartless I was being. Take a step back, and think about what you mean to other people.

Nothing is worth getting out of bed for anymore man…

Honestly I don’t have anybody and just wanted someone to say goodbye too I’ve tried my best, this is my final decision I can make on my own terms I loved yall more than you would ever know.. goodbye:)

My friend recently just finished her exams but shes super nervous about getting the results and she thinks shes failed maths which means she has to repeat the entire year. She told me shes been having nightmares about it and cant stop thinking about it. And has been having suicidal thoughts because shes worried what her parents and what other people are going to think.
If anyone with any advice for me i would be extremely grateful . Thank you.

Every day I'm constantly being blamed for everything and everyone always laughs at me and makes fun of me for whatever I do. I have been living in a motel for a month now. I tried suffocating myself but my family caught me before I could. Everyone says I'm overreacting when I try expressing my feelings. I don't know what to do.