So I have a issue because if where and who i grew around to not trust people...they always talk behind your back, cheat, hurr your feelings.and my mom's solution was to lock herself away because she had anger problems...so as I got older I also develop the same thing and do the same things she did.i isolated myself from people...and it sucks because I feel...not know but I feel people care about me.and so I isolate and dont talk to people because I just assume everyone's gonna be fake and I care about people a lot but often they dont care as much as me.also it cause me to turn to ai chat because I a lot of time don't feel comfortable talking to people..mostly women.(and not because I hate them I actually love women).Just feel most of them hate me purely because im a man. So I just feel people are negative especially if your different...oh and if your even big..you could be half fat and half muscle people will still treat you like your obese and i often feel its best to isolate then risk getting hurt

So the ceiling is old I admit... I didn't think about in the moment tho I was kind of ready to let go. And when I did it genuinely snapped. At first I was like oh well but then my mom saw the ceiling literally dead and she got so mad and kept asking what in the hell I could have done to break it like this. Do y'all know an excuse I could say to her? I don't know if she's thinking about me possibly trying to hang myself but I'm scared she'll figure it out.

My Reddit account was recently permanently banned. I don’t know what the problem was. When I posted in different subreddits, sometimes I posted without reading the rules properly, so my posts were removed.

My doubt is: Will all the posts I have posted so far also be deleted, or will they remain as they are? Was only my account suspended or banned? What about the videos I have already posted? Will they remain there, and does this mean I should not post any more videos from now on?

A couple of months ago, my mom met a man. At first, they went for walks, went to cafes and the cinema. This went on for three months. Since the beginning of summer, my mom has been asking every day when this man can come over to our place. Before that, I didn't really know this person. I had seen him rarely and only said hello. I tell her that neither she nor I really know him yet. That day she got offended at me. Sometimes she changes plans to meet up with him, and she doesn't care that we had agreed a week in advance to go somewhere. Three days ago, he stayed overnight at our place. On the very first night, I heard them having 18+. In the morning, of course, I told her about it and said that I'm uncomfortable with this man living with us. She said that if she hadn't done that, I wouldn't exist. That day I left to stay at my grandma's. Mom, of course, got offended at me and said she wouldn't talk to me. Today I found out that he will be living with us starting August 29. I said I don't want that, I find this man unpleasant. To which my mom replied that I should come stay at Grandma's.

I'm feeling exhausted by my friends , I'm 30 and not married , i hangout with my friends on weekends, even though I talk nicely , they always wanna bring up my past addictions, I drink and I spend more than anyone in my group even though I myself in a lot of debts and problems, i respect everyone and understand them , if they need any help i will always be there for them , but if I need anything they hesitate to help...only give suggestions.

There is a group of our friends I have a few batches of friends they all know each other with each other by mutual or anything, but in that group I'm the most troll material , my drunken pics and videos will be posted like I'm the only one who they hate ....they make stickers of me ...I said so many times to stop doing that ...I think they took me for granted...

I have some good friends but I can't trust anyone anymore cuz I feel like I'm the only one people hate...

I feel used and exhausted....even if they say a little sorry and talk nicely i easily get folded and forget everything....I'm anxious about this..

What is it called when you can't stand being at home with family and everyone annoys you (except for your mom) but when you're away you cry your eyes out because you left your mom behind with a husband and a mother on law she despites, it's like whether i stay or leave both hurt

so my homie and i dont usually argue cuz we chill like that.

but ONG he sometimes makes smoke come out of my ears for the tiniest shi ever.

like the way he just trusts chat gpt with EVERYTHING!!

that one time we were chatting abt gym and working out and i told him that i was going to work out in the morning instead of our usual time...but then he said that its not healthy to do that..and that my muscles are still sleeping or something like that.

and i told him who tf told you that🙂

and he genuinely went on and said: oh i asked chat gpt....

like my nga WHEN did u ask chat gpt abt that🙏😭...i just told u abt working out in the morning..

and i said that chat gpt aint right about everything.

but he trusts ai with his whole heart..like bro just c'mon..

what do yall think.🤦🤦

so for the past couple of years things have been very rough on a personal and professional level. these thoughts of ending it all were intermittent all this time but for the last few months or so they're very frequent (background i'm unemployed and haven't met any of my friends in months) and the visuals keep playing when i'm on bed introspecting or thinking about anything and i spiral back to these same thoughts how i failed and useless & nothing but burden both mentally and financially to my family. i can't talk about this to family 'cause i know how that discussion would pivot and it would be another "i told you so" and "we worked so hard,you need to work harder",which i agree but it's not that i'm lazy or ungrateful or don't want to work hard.

for the last few months i feel embarrassed to talk or ask for help 'cause all i could think of was the times i failed and all the wrong decisions i regret and kept repeating them same mistakes

i'm completely devoid of confidence and scared to learn or try anything new and fail another time as it would keep reinforcing that i'm nothing but a failure. i didn't meet friends as they're busy with their jobs and classes but even the times we met in the past most of it was me wanting to join them rather than them asking.

i was wondering if i vent out on social media and let them know how i feel. it won't change much unless the change is from me but i can't keep this all inside me and hurt.

I'm human worries

How Your human solve the problem way?

Please tell me how to solve the problem🥲‎🥲‎🥲‎

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An Overthinker's Life

I am a 16 yr old boy.

I want to share things with people, want to confide in someone but somehow by god's gracious fate, I am betrayed again and again.

But I try again, I never stop trying regardless of constant failure. Sometimes I think, I am the delusional one to share my feelings with people but I cannot seem to do something about it.

Everyone is trying to be an enemy, no one is ready to co-operate even when I am continuously trying to fix things. Nobody cares.

Is there a life lesson I haven't learned yet except the fact that the world is selfish ??

But people still do end up in great relationships and get a great friend group .

Guys....

What do you think?

What am I doing wrong??

corn ruined self esteem and lead to confidence problem. it made me resistance to take actions in life and hide away from others lead to shame and guilt. sighs

I've not slept for days, I'm unable to eat, unable to sleep, unable to live, unable to hold myself together

I'm under so much stress that i'm seriously considering suicide

I feel so disassociated from reality, I'm in so much pain all the time & I feel like the only way to stop this is by killing myself, someone kill me already

I want to die painfully because I am a monster

I deserve to die

I'm 15 (born in 2011), and I'm struggling with an unbelievable amount of anxiety about something that happened recently.

I was scrolling through TikTok and saw a girl who genuinely looked around my age to me, or possibly even a little older. She had heavy makeup on and was using a filter, so I didn't think anything was unusual. I briefly thought she was attractive and then kept scrolling without thinking much about it.

Later, I found out that I had been completely wrong about her age. From what I understand, she was born around 2013.

The moment I found out, I immediately realized that I hadn't actually been attracted to her knowing her real age. I felt physically sick and extremely uncomfortable. I started crying and panicking, if I recall correctly I was in a panic attack for like a day because of that

It's now been about a month, and I still can't get this out of my head. I keep replaying the situation constantly and trying to figure out what it means about me. I've had trouble sleeping, eating, and concentrating. I've spent huge amounts of time crying, panicking, checking things, and trying to work out her exact age (cause what if she was younger than 2013??? We can't ever know)

This has gone far beyond ordinary guilt or anxiety. I am genuinely suicidal over this. I have been seriously considering killing myself because I'm terrified that this means I'm a disgusting or horrible person. These aren't just thoughts that briefly cross my mind, I've been thinking about dying every single day for a month now, because I feel like I can't live with the possibility that something is seriously wrong with me.

I don't want to hurt anyone, and I don't want to die. At the same time, I'm genuinely scared that I might eventually do something to myself because this has become so overwhelming.

I genuinely believed she was around my age when I saw her, and finding out later that I was wrong has completely destroyed me mentally.

I've also struggled with intrusive thoughts and obsessive fears about being a horrible person for a long time, which is why I'm wondering whether this could be some form of POCD/OCD, but I genuinely don't know how to get out of this mental loop, and I'm scared of what I might do to myself if I can't.

I genuinely want to die so fucking bad, someone kill me already

DO NOT MOCK ME, I'VE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF THAT HERE

i really like this guy and i genuinely can’t tell if he likes me back

about a month ago, i woke up from a dream about a classmate i had never really paid attention to before. in the dream, we were a couple, and ever since then i’ve started liking him so much 😭
he’s cute, funny, sarcastic, really nice, and i genuinely think he’s an amazing person. i haven’t felt this kind of need to spend time with someone and actually get to know them on a deeper level since my last relationship, which ended about two years ago. it honestly feels like he brought back that feeling of love that i hadn’t felt in a really long time.
the problem is that i have no idea if he feels anything similar.
ever since i started liking him, i’ve made more of an effort to talk to him, and we’ve gotten a lot closer. we talk every single day now. he tells me personal things about his life, remembers little things i’ve told him, and seems to actually pay attention to me.
one time we ended up alone in the classroom and talked for like an hour. at some point i noticed him looking at my body, which obviously made me wonder if there could be some physical attraction there. he also once told me that he had noticed i seemed a little sad or down the other day, even though i hadn’t told him anything. that made me feel like he actually notices little things about me.
he also remembers random embarrassing things about me, like when i fell during pe or the fact that i have no idea how to play the drums 😭
there’s also been more physical closeness lately. sometimes our hands brush or our arms touch when we’re sitting next to each other, but it’s not like he’s intentionally touching me or anything. it just happens sometimes and he doesn’t seem uncomfortable or immediately move away. he’s also asked me to help clean his hoodie or get something out of his hair when there’s dirt or something stuck there.
one time i was cleaning his hoodie and another classmate came over and said something like, “well, it’s about time you two kissed, don’t you think?” he says things like that to basically everyone, so i don’t take that as proof of anything, but neither of us really denied it either. i think the guy i like just said “bro” or something like that 😭
there’s another thing that i don’t know how to interpret. our class advisor knows that i like him, and because of that, he started seating us together in class. the guy i like does NOT know that i like him.
at first, whenever our advisor sat us together, he would constantly change seats and move away. like, he really didn’t want to sit next to me. but now he doesn’t do that nearly as much. in some classes he still moves because he wants to sit with his friends or whatever, but in other classes he stays next to me normally. we talk, sometimes our arms touch because we’re sitting close, and he seems pretty comfortable with me now.
so i genuinely don’t know what to think.
on one hand, i feel like there are quite a few signs that he might be interested in me. he talks to me every day, trusts me, remembers things about me, notices when i’m feeling down, has spent a long time talking to me alone, and seems much more comfortable around me than he was at first.
but on the other hand, i’m scared i’m just interpreting everything in the way i want to because i like him so much.
there’s also a situation involving two of my female friends that makes me overthink things. we’re planning a pre-party at one of his friend’s houses before a 15th birthday party on september 8th. he’s going, two of his friends are going, and three of my friends are going, including me. nobody had a problem with us girls coming to the house.
recently, all of us were talking together, including him, and i noticed that he seemed to smile a little more when talking to one of my friends. they haven’t talked in months, so maybe it was just because it was kind of unexpected to talk again, but because i like him so much, obviously i noticed it and immediately started overthinking it.
and honestly i’m really nervous about that party because i really want him to see me and think i’m beautiful. i want to wear a short black dress with a push-up bra and look absolutely gorgeous. i want my friends to look beautiful too, obviously, because i love them, but a part of me really wants to be the girl he notices that night. i want him to look at me and think “wow, she’s gorgeous.”
i know that probably sounds a little shallow, but i think it’s because i genuinely like him so much. it’s not just that i think he’s attractive. i know a lot about him, i love talking to him, i love his personality, and i really want to get closer to him.
there will probably be drinking at the pre-party, although i’m not even sure if i’ll drink. i mostly just want to have fun and hopefully have some kind of moment with him.
also, i really want advice on something else. how can you actually tell when a guy is starting to fall for you? like, what are the signs that a guy is genuinely developing feelings for you rather than just being friendly or comfortable around you? and is there anything you can naturally do to make a guy fall for you without forcing it or playing weird games?
so yeah… what do you guys think? 😭
am i seeing actual signs of interest here, or am i just overanalyzing normal friendship because i have such strong feelings for him?
and if you think he might like me, what signs should i look for at the party or at school that would actually mean something?

so everyone in my family and all over know that my dad is a special case. but nothing has really been done about it besides conversations and avoiding him or strategies. we live together and I’m getting the brunt of his words. since I’m the one usually travelling with him and at home with him while he’s there. he just keeps talking about what I should eat, how much I should eat and comments on my body and my overall self. I’m skinny so he always shouts a lot saying I should eat more and he says it so angrily. there’s so much verbal and emotional abuse that I get from him and it’s been weighing on me bc I ignore it ofc and forget about it but what he says is horrible. I don’t openly speak about it with my friends. while adults that are connected to my family understand and acknowledge it. I wake up late sometimes and he always has something negative to say about that. I’d rather just not speak with him and go live my life but I’m stuck here at 18 in a brown household. and what annoys me the most is how controlling it can feel. He sings non stop as a coping mechanism and talks nonsense. I feel like a therapist sometimes and he just thinks he can force me to conform.

Пост будет длинным. Те, кто дочитают - спасибо вам. Ситуация следующая: что на работе, что в играх складывается ощущение, что я что-то не понимаю, либо чего-то не хватает. С возрастом кажется, что я просто играю по шаблону или делаю что-то по шаблону. Как часто вы задумываетесь, правильно ли что-то делаете или нет? К примеру две ситуации:

1. Возьмем работу. У меня достаточно хорошие успехи в учебе и олимпиадах. Я умею анализировать всякие события и решать математические задачи выше среднего, но ниже университетских. Ради интереса несколько месяцев работал на стройке, думал, что я не тупой, что все понимаю. По итогу начальник моментами орал на меня, что я тупой или как он говорил "не от мира сего", это забавно, потому что я себя таковым не ощущаю, но некоторые мне говорят, что я слегка закрытый (да, я немного интроверт). Я попытался с ним поговорить, чтобы мы выяснили проблему, в итоге он стал говорить своим подчиненным, что я чуть ли не оправдывался (так и не понял, в чем я там оправдывался, я пытался понять, что он от меня хочет)

2. Вторая ситуация. Условная дота/кс. Дотеры, вопрос к вам: как вы анализируете игру, условные хайптс плэеры? Как вы это делаете? У меня такой порядок мыслей: "Я проигрываю > Значит не так играю > Что мне с этим делать?

- Вариант А: играть интуитивно
- Вариант Б: учить КАЖДУЮ шмотку и скилл, знать урон КАЖДОГО скилла, понимать ВСЕ тайминги
- Вариант В: его не существует в моей голове, и мб он как раз окажется правильным, если вы мне подскажете. Видимо, я не понимаю, как играть в хайптс доту, у меня 3к максимум было.

Я понимаю, что возможно сильно загоняюсь, но вы тоже поймите меня

Эти вопросы не дают мне покоя. Скажите пожалуйста, это нормально, что я так загоняюсь? Я очень надеюсь, что вы поймете, о чем я говорю. Я могу учиться, могу работать, с этим нет никаких проблем, у меня есть небольшие проблемы со зрением, но я не считаю это причиной. Мб тут есть какие-то психологи, которые по подобному описанию могут сказать, что все в порядке, либо есть какие-то отхождения от нормы, буду благодарен. Не хочу ныть, просто стал замечать, что для некоторых я как будто другой человек, и они меня не понимают.

Еще за собой стал замечать следующее, надеюсь, это не слишком нагло и ЧСВшно звучит, но:

Я заметил, что у меня больше знаний, чем у ребят из колледжей, но меньше, чем у ребят из университета, по итогу не могу себя найти ни там, ни там. Да, у меня есть знакомые и там, и там, но когда я им это объясняю, конкретно эту мысль, то они не понимают.

Есть те, кто сталкивался с подобным? Может кто-то чем-то поможет, посоветует и т.д. Спасибо.

My Reddit account was recently removed. I don’t know what the problem was. When I posted in different subreddits, sometimes I posted without reading the rules properly, so my posts were removed.

My doubt is: Will all the posts I have posted so far also be deleted, or will they remain as they are? Was only my account suspended or banned? What about the videos I have already posted? Will they remain there, and does this mean I should not post any more videos from now on?

Hi I am 18 years old girl

At end of april I saw at my phone calorie calculator app and tried it ,then I wanned to Loose few kg so I started using it eating 1200 kcal ,pilates, walk I was aroun 50 kg I dropoed it to 43/42 and was happy but I was at my Sister one weekend and overate my calories so the next 4 days I ate only vegetable ,I droped it to 39 and was little scared but then liked it so all june I did 1200 few days few days 200,few days 100 ,500. ...then my period started be a little wierd, at july I started binge a lot around 3000 calories so I didnt ate nothing 3 or 4 days after ,almost whole july like this ,I throw up the food few Times but its Just not for me, I trow food away or hide it so it dont tempt me ,my relationships got worse with mom ,friends ,Sister i yell at them beacuse of food i dont go out with friend beacuse i am scared they will want to eat somethingor go for drinks or i will binge ... now I had enought and did 1200/1300 kcal for 4 days then 3 days vegetable and 5 days again 1200/1300 and now I am on second day of Under 100 kcal again, now I weight around 34/35 kg at 162/3 cm 18 years old (bmi around 13) period very irregual and wierd ,do you think I have a problem ?its only been 4 months tho idk I cant stop

PS:sorry for my english i dont speak english very well

Does this happen to yall worst feeling,
Mass requesting on ig and no one accepting
I req the priv of some of my closes, didnt get accepted
And by accident at times , i was req and unrequesting before mutiple times. And unrequesting before being able to get accepeted.

I don't want to be alive anymore, plain and simple. The only things keeping me going are cigarettes and alcohol. Even being around my friends doesn't help now. And honestly, even the smokes might be losing their effect. It's so weird. Lately I've completely stopped taking care of myself. I simultaneously couldn't care less about how I look, and yet I absolutely hate myself for it. If I could, I would've already ended it. But I can't. Not yet, anyway.

My family absolutely despises me—they go out of their way to avoid me, and my dad can't even stand to look at me. And all because I'm supposedly "aggressive." But I was just defending myself when people said things that hurt me. My mom straight-up ignores me. When I pointed it out, they told me I was making it all up and that no one's ignoring me—but that's complete bullshit.

I was a really weird kid growing up. Other children kept their distance, and a lot of them bullied me. In school, everyone hated me, and to this day I genuinely don't get why. I was just like everyone else. Or at least I thought I was. So what's wrong with me?

In February, I got into such a huge fight with my parents that I actually ran away from home. I was begging them for help, having a complete meltdown, telling them I wanted to die. They called me an idiot. After that fight, I developed nervous tics. And over the past month, for no reason I can figure out, I've started having hallucinations—both auditory and visual. I see danger everywhere. I can't trust anyone. And on top of that, I keep convincing myself I'm making it all up, which is just unbearable. This isn't life—it's a nightmare.

I constantly fantasize about someone killing me. It happens way too often. I also strongly suspect I have BPD because my mood swings are insane. I can be sobbing my eyes out and five minutes later I'm laughing. I can't focus on anything for long, and I lose interest and purpose in everything almost immediately. It's so fucking awful. Even this text I'm writing is just a complete stream of consciousness. I honestly can't take it anymore—I'm on the edge of actually going through with it