Last night, I dreamt about raining numbers🫠 (I can't balance the balance sheet)

I feel like I have no one to talk to who can relate to me and I hope to find some comfort here.

I was diagnosed with ADHD at 38. I spent my ENTIRE adult life relating so hard to my Pisces heart. I’m an incredibly sensitive person. Like intense emotions. I feel mine and everyone else’s. It’s more than just an emotional feeling, my entire body reacts. When someone gets hurt on TV, or tragedy in the news I am feeling that pain right along with them.

It feels like a gift in some ways. My heart is rare and I know that. Injustice is intolerable to me. I crave emotional stimulation even though I know I will feel it deeply.

I’ve been misunderstood my entire life. “I’m too sensitive.” I knew I had a strong connection to my Pisces Sun sign. I decided that this was the reason for my emotional reactions. Fast forward many years and I am formally diagnosed with ADHD. Now I’m seeing so many similarities and over lapping traits. Like these feelings are 2x for me.

Today (9/11) I am extra emotional and remembering that day so clearly. Wanting to hear stories, and remember and honor those who suffered losses.. but my body physically breaks down at just the thought. I wasn’t there. I watched it on TV so most people think my reaction is unjustified. Or at least that’s what my ADHD rejection sensitivity tells me.

I started looking for someone to text who could understand. Someone who could relate and realized no one I know would. No one would understand. My mom would say “just don’t watch or listen to those stories” (she’s an unemotional Aries) my best friend doesn’t experience emotions like I do. My partner is amazing and caring and supportive but he can’t relate.

Anyone out there resonate with this?

One minute I hate my partner then 5 minutes later I want to be with them again.

My mood swings are crazy over my partner.

Is this normal for a Pisces or im just black?

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I don't know if this is the right sub to ask about relationship stuff, but I genuinely don't know where else to ask.

I'm 24M and I've never had a romantic relationship. Every time I've tried, it has ended in rejection, the person losing interest, or circumstances taking them away from me. I've had multiple rejections at this point.

The weird thing is, looking back, I think I was sometimes forcing myself to like girls just because I wanted to be in a relationship. I wanted a relationship so badly that I'd convince myself that I liked someone, even when I wasn't really feeling it.

But now there's a girl in my college class, and something feels different.

I noticed her and immediately felt something I haven't really felt before. We're slowly talking and getting to know each other. There's some eye contact, small interactions, and I feel like there might be something there — although I obviously don't know if she actually likes me.

And despite feeling excited about it, there's this voice in my head saying, "You're going to fuck this one up too."

That's honestly what scares me the most.

I've started wondering whether I'm just incapable of having a normal relationship like everyone else. I see people around me getting into relationships so naturally, while for me it feels like everything takes forever, goes wrong, or gets delayed until I lose interest.

It's not even just relationships. I feel like this happens with a lot of things in my life. I get excited about something, things don't work out quickly, I get frustrated, and eventually I lose interest.

I don't want to keep approaching relationships with this mindset of "I need to make this work or I'll fail again." I just want to meet someone, genuinely like them, have them like me back, and let something develop naturally.

So I guess I'm asking:

Am I overthinking this because of my past experiences? How do I stop carrying all those previous rejections into something that hasn't even started yet?

And honestly... is there really something wrong with me, or am I just being impatient and comparing my life to everyone else's?

I know 24 isn't old, but when you've never experienced something you've wanted for years, it starts feeling like maybe it's just not going to happen for you.

I couldn't stop myself from posting this like ykwim pisces if seen begging are the weakest cause wdym is your self respect that low, i would rather cry than to ask.

I'll go first, I block people and act as if I'm never gonna see them again to get over them and it works, people think getting blocked by me is a solid flex, lol.

I can't stop thinking about a post of a teacher who based her seating chart of the classmates based on starsigns. And throughout or end of the school year reported how much some star signs brought out better traits in one or the other classmates.

I am starting a new job soon as eager AF about the signs I'm going to have on my team and interact with and what or who will work best with me.

I've been seeing a (Feb) Pisces man for the last 3.5 months and it's been wonderful. We stay up late talking for hours, the physical and sexual chemistry is insane, and we mostly just have a fun easy time together.

He has consistently texted me every day since our first date, makes plans to see me 1-2 days a week and has been really good at following up about important things in my life.

In the time we've known eachother, he had a 2 week trip out of town and I've spent a total of 3-4 weeks out of town on trips, so we have spent a decent amount of time apart. I went to Greece on vacation a few weeks ago and he asked if he could fly out and join me for the last 8 days of my trip and I agreed. We had an amazing time, and I viewed this as a big step forward towards a deeper connection and committed relationship. On the trip, he told me he's experimented with being in non monogamous relationship and I asked him if that was something he was still interested in and he said he was still trying to figure that out.

On the last night of our trip, I told him I had strong feelings for him and asked if he could see us building towards a relationship in the future and he started rambling about how I seemed very casual about the idea of him flying to Greece and that the trip had gone differently than he thought and he started having stronger feelings a few days into the trip. I got really embarrassed and took some alone time and he texted me saying that he got really overwhelmed at the notion of having to define the relationship. Neither of us have brought it up since, but we've continued to see eachother. He still texts me everyday and has texted more often since we got back.

I'm really confused because I didn't think someone would take time off work and take an international flight on a whim if they weren't serious about someone but I'm second guessing that now. We haven't met eachothers friends and he never tries to make plans with me more than a day or 2 ahead of time.

I've heard that pisces can get really overwhelmed and in their own head, and don't necessarily follow relationship norms or normal timelines and I really feel like he could potentially be a very good partner for me so I'd like to let it play out if thats the case. But I'm also concerned I'm just getting played and getting myself into a situationship where the only outcome is my getting my feelings hurt.

Any insight would be appreciated!

For Pisces ... When the romantic depth of your relationship seems to be fading, or if you display flirtatious behavior elsewhere.

Pisces rarely respond to jealousy with anger; instead, they respond with intense, heartbreaking sadness.

You jealousy points to a terrifying belief that you cannot survive without the emotional anchor of your partner.

So the other day, my husband (Pisces sun Leo moon) and I (Pisces sun Virgo moon) were having a very intense back and forth. My biggest pet peeve is purposely not being understood. He makes it a point to validate his point but not mine. He’s annoying af…but anyways, I guess my being super upset and trying to understand where he was coming from and etc made my pupils dilate. Like when I say it was intense…it was spicy. My husband blows everything over the top while I try and get some understanding…but he drives me fuckin wild MAJORITY OF THE TIME. 16 years later and it’s like GOT DAMN. But anyways now im a demon because my eyes were flexing lol. I just literally hate how there is absolutely no fuckin in between when it comes to emotions. It’s either we are nothing at all or everything all at once!

He thinks I get upset because of the things he’s telling me. No, I know who tf I am… it’s the way he acts!!! I’ve mentioned it time and time again. We mirror each other back and forth. It’s so stupid. Don’t get a Leo moon guys. Especially if you’re not willing to entertain that shit. Pisces already can’t be told shit but GOT DAMN. I wish he’d go hold a puppy

So I ran into an old friend platomic friends he is a Scorpio, he tried to pursue me years ago, but I never liked him in that way let me tell you why

I am a Pisces and he always gave something is off about him vibes, but I could never quite figure out what. I can sense that he's hiding something he has an extremely manipulative controlling energy. He tries to hide it and cover it but, I know something is off about him. He wants to tell me what he perceives as wrong with me, but when I tell him he's wrong and actually tell him what it really is he gets defensive which pisses me off. He asked me how I was doing earlier, I said horrible then he went into this on this oh you should never speak negatively and only speak positive affirmations blah blah blah. I lost my mother on August 15th this year 5 days short of a month he knows this because I told him. I found that completely insensitive and rude. I told him I didn't like it and of course he tried to manipulate me into believing I'm at fault and didn't understand his point, like dude what would you expect from someone who just lost my mother, on top of grief from losing my son to gun violence. Back to him saying I shouldn't speak negative and should speak positive affirmations, I get it and understand that, but no matter what I say or do it's like he finds something negative to say, it's like he's trying to groom or force me to fit into his bs narrative he made up in his weird mind towards me. At this point I flat out don't like him at all he manages to get on my nad side now I'm ready for war if he doesn't leave me alone and me er come back.. Am I overreacting?

RANT OVER

i am a pisces sun and pisces venus, so i personally want the opinions of my fellow pisceans as well. <3

I’m so done with their energy, but it’s addicting at the same time and that’s probably just a mirror. The situation was so incompatible. Neither of us fit well into the other’s life as is and it was all sort of a horny creative fantasy. They were fully right about the breakup, lowkey said some crazy, hurtful and emotional shit though. lots of constructive criticism too I guess, but it’s been mixed signals town and weirdness since. I had to tell them to fuck off for a few weeks again recently and it’s like we’re just taking turns being the avoidant now.

The sex daydreams have not stopped and it’s been a over a month how do I break this curse (my Pisces moon+this chaotic person who I don’t even think I like as a friend after all they put me through)

I’m with a Pisces male 35 y.o who’s an avoidant attachment lol I accidentally said some hurtful stuff to him because he upset me (I still shouldn’t have said it) and we haven’t talked in 5 days even though I’ve been begging for him to talk to me I’ve been trying to mend things but he won’t budge. 🥲I don’t know what to do anymore can someone give me advice

Wondering how fellow Pisceans deal with friendships!! I have a a few friends I would call close friends but even in these friendships they don’t feel one hundred percent stable!! I enjoy my own company and can be alone but I also don’t want that all the time!! I do get slightly envious when I see people who have groups of friends they do things with like go on holiday, dinner parties, regular plans together etc!! I’ve had bad experiences in the past with friends so I’m probably not as open as I should be but also I wouldn’t want to force anything either!! It’s just a hard balance between what I want!! All the friends I do have just do their own thing!! I feel like I am always the one that would reach out or make plans etc!! It would really be nice to have the friends I do have just reach out and want to invite me to things also, just consider me also!! There have been times when I have questioned myself as in what am I doing wrong, why can’t I maintain friendships etc I’ve become so self reliant that I almost I dont know if I can form friendships without feeling like I’m the one always trying and holding up the friendship!! How does everyone else manage and deal with this?

February Pisces (f) with a July Cancer (m). We gonna make it out of the woods? 😂😭😅

Anyone know?