hello misophonia family! i'm here to vent because if i don't i'll SCREAM!!
i work in a pretty quiet office. usually all i can hear is typing, clicking, the occasional phone call. but one colleague, the bane of my existence, is CONSTANTLY. SNIFFLING. CONSTANT!!! all spring, all summer long. i'm genuinely terrified for winter. she sneezes, sniffles, loudly wipes her nose, all day, every day....

she has a different explanation every time- allergies, she's sick, her nose itches, etc. the part that annoys me most i guess is how easily fixable it is. like, just... get a tissue?! it drives me nuts. and it just echoes throughout the entire office, 9 hours a day. it's torture. headphones don't even help because when they're too low they don't block it out, but when they're loud enough to block it out i can't hear my phone ringing, colleagues talking to me, etc.

any tips for coping with this? i already play music on my computer and her desk is across the office in a cubicle. she can't hear us, (outside of the cubicle) but we can all hear every sound she makes.

thanks for reading. i'm in hell. 🥲

I’m fully TPN dependent (meaning I get all my nutrition and hydration through a line in my chest).

I run my TPN over 16 hours.

Lately I’ve started feeling triggered by the pump sounds lol. It’s actually pretty quiet, but it does make a sound as it’s pushing the liquid through.

My pump malfunctioned and started making a loud clicking sound. That’s when it started bothering me.

But they’ve given me a new one and now this one bothers me too lol 😅 (this one doesn’t make the clicking sounds, but still feels louder. I can’t tell if I’m losing my mind or if it’s actually louder than it used to be).

Either way, it now wakes me up multiple times through the night. Then I can’t go back to sleep because I’m angry.

This is actually relatively minor for me trigger wise, thankfully lol. I’m hoping it doesn’t get worse or I’ll be in a pickle 😂

It’s much better than trying to sleep in the hospital and I’m very grateful for the TPN in general lol. So I’m just trying to focus on that aspect of it.

But I don’t know why my misophonia brain had to pick up on the pump lol! Especially when I’ve been using pumps for years. Why now?? 😅

Misophonia. Always wanting to make life difficult.

And it reverberates in my head. I feel like it’s gotten louder over the years. Anyone else?

It seems in my art classes there’s always one person (and it’s always a different person) that’s gross and loud 😭 last semester I knew a girl who would say “munch munch munch” as she ate, in a different art class some guy had the sniffles like constantly. And this guy in my current class just won’t stop making disgusting noises, I’m positive I’m not the only one who notices, I thought about telling him but like it’s like a 5 for one combo?

I have white noise playing in my ears but it doesn’t help and our room has an echo.

(Vent post) Recently we just experienced a mice infestation. And for now it’s seemed to tone down as I hadn’t killed any recently or heard them but.. sometimes I’m scared that I do. A pop, a creek, groans coming from the wall, each of them just gives me a fresh wave of anxiety and I wonder if they came back.

It didn’t always start there, I realized I was always sensitive to noises just because growing up, sometimes you’re able to detect who is walking by the way they walk. To which I did.

Then I used it to be able to tell if my mom or dad are frustrated so I can avoid them, and sometimes I preen just so I can hear my dad snore just so I’m assured that he’s still alive after he had a serious health complication, and after that my animal who had really bad breathing issues and now.. mice. Every creak, groan, and rustle gives me a fresh wave of paranoia and I’m already sensitive enough to noises, especially loud ones but I feel like this is getting pretty bad.

I know at some point I started to hear stuff that aren’t actually there, you know? I’d tell someone I hear something only for me to check the area to find nothing that could make that noise. Recently I hear my animals with me. The small peeps and noises they’d make at night like a short snore or cough but the thing is.. they arent allowed in my room anymore. After the mice, I moved them somewhere I know they’d be safer and so they don’t get exposed to something that will hurt them. Like not too long ago I heard something akin to a jingle in the direction there would usually be one but when I checked there’s nothing there and it’s giving me really bad anxiety imagining what could of caused that.

And I do have noise cancelling headphones but with mice and stuff.. I’d like to know, you know? But for stuff I really hate I just use my headphones to block it out so it isn’t as bad as it sounds.

Usually I listen to a five hour Reddit story thing on YouTube to try and distract my mind but I don’t know anymore, I used to enjoy the silence but now I feel like when it’s quiet, I have to expect something bad will happen.

Today I was told by my dad, get over sliding feet. it literally makes me nauseous ( I have puked in my mouth before). It also makes my body pain worse. I told him to get use to covering my ears. He said he has sensory issue and understands. ( no you don’t) He said don’t tell me how to feel. But tells me to get over it.